After a lot of thinking, some chatting to some wonderful people, and a lot of consideration of a few people's comments, I have decided to remain writing on AFF. With it, I'm setting some new... I dunno, rules? For myself or whatever, because I will not let myself get in by the minority again. 

I will write what I like, when I want to write it. I know I'm a multi-shipper and that I am way behind on my todae and GRi fics, but simply put: I'm really enjoying GTOP right now. 

I will not abandon any of my stories (except maybe a lesson in dominance simply because I need to re-write the whole thing, so I guess it's not abandoned, just revamped?) so I'm not going to stress out trying to update stories at once, but I'm also just letting people know that things WILL be updated. Dunno when, but it'll happen. Not gonna cave to people pressuring me. Nope. 

Right now, my fic with i_feel_electric is priority number one. ALL other fics will take backseat. She tends to inspire oneshots though, so I'm not gonna apologise if I post one shots and do not update multis. 

Any time I get a comment on a fic from now on that pressures me to write, I will only reply with a link to this blog post. im gonna stop taking the bait. I am very very appreciative that people like what I write and I am so thankful, but I have a life in the real world that cannot be bent just to accommodate fic writing. I would hope people would understand and I'm not going to keep feeling terrible over it anymore. I'm allowed my life. 

Also, to those who were telling me to quit, I invite you to eat my entire , because I'm not going to and I cannot BELIEVE that in a particularly weak time of my life, I gave in and let you littleturdburgers worm your way under my skin from the manure you slithered out of. If you don't like my writing, that's cool, I'm okay with that. I can't cater to everyone. But take your nasty, spiteful little comments elsewhere. Thanks <3

i hope to update some stuff soon, but another thing: I'm not gonna give myself deadlines or pressure myself to write. I'm not obligated to. I'm not. 

I'm really grateful to everyone who has been so supportive (I think I've read didoe84's blog comments about thirty times, you're so fierce and I love it) and I'm just thankful that the great part of the community really pulled through for me when the part let me down. I'm overwhelmed. Love you all~