I really really have to tell u this n u should tell me the truth. It's concerning me that my love for exo is being sparingly faded away. I'm too scared to listen or watch their MVs.

I was squealing with my friend much Abt Exo. she's not actually a k pop fan. She suddenly informed me that exo r ILLUMINANTI. I was so shocked that I choked on the water n I was like "what the hell is wrong with u today? Are u on ur straight mind?" she swore that the way they acted, danced n dressed was just like the illiminantis. I ranted at her expressing my anger by z fact that she dared to say they were members of z illuminanti "FOOL". n then, I got these weird feelings. Once Baekhyun on the MV of growl version 2 trapped his eyes b/n his 4 fingers (a symbol of the illuminates where there is an eye b/n a pyramid). Chanyeol on the music video of overdose where he rapped, He hung his hand on air n stuck his fore n middle fingers with the rest of his fingers straightened. 666 (which is a sign of the illuminanti) *sorry I don't know how to describe the act cuz this is my actually z first time doing a serious "research" abt the illuminantis. I dont even know if I Spelled the word correct. My friend mekkdi told me a million times that they r not part of the religious group but it was hard for me to comprehend so I checked on the Internet. Some people say that it's true while others say it's not. The people who claim that exo are illuminanti have satisfying evidences in which it makes the rumor/fact true. Thinking of it, I think normal fans became sasaengs bse of the meditations these group had made. I dont know but few months ago i was taking nap for a while n when i got up, i found myself weirdly putting my fingers with the sign of illuminanti, 666. I was really surprised n shocked. Then I felt "am I being their puppet?" N u know, this is not all. After n during i pray i usually feel like i'm close to dear Father God but recently, i couldnt focus on praying. My head is a total blank n I think of Weird n evilish things which i dont want to think of. I don't know I'm also a fan of Exo n it was hard for me to believe. I really love them but @ z same time if this is found to be true, it will leave me no choice but to quit my current position as a kpop fan cuz I can't live without the Holly spirit n I don't want to sadden God. Exo were the main reason for me to love kpop. I watch kpop idols on music bank anxiously n impatiently waiting for Exo to come. I always watch KBS variety shows especially Hello Counselor, Cool Ciz on the Block n such in case Exo r invited. Now all that eagerness has faded away n i'm scared of them. What's worse? I fear Chanyeol too (my freaking, lover, bias) Friends, from the things I've told u do u think I'm meditated? Do u think I'm soon gonna become their puppet? Please listen to this 15 year old girl who's confused about this messed up world. n at z same time, I'm sincerely sorry if I offended u.

XOXO