I realize that a lot of my blog titles end in "..." o_O

Anyway...

I have tried writing this post multiple times and have deleted it multiple times because I really didn't know how to put any of my thoughts into words. But I'm just gonna post this blog and hopefully you all understand what I'm trying to say.

First off, to everyone who commented on the last post and/or left me PM's, thank you. They all really meant a lot.

But I feel like I should also apologize for the way I reacted.

I started freaking out over one blogger that had nothing but bad things to say about me. Before I put Beyond Repair on subscribers only, I had 390+ subscribers, 69 votes, and everyone who has ever commented about the story has been really awesome, so of course I'm grateful to all of you. I feel like I showed a lack of appreciation to everyone and for that I feel that I should apologize.

I don't handle embarrassment very well. And I'm not talking about the embarrassment I inflict upon klutzy myself (tripping in front of large crowds, ruining an entire display at the store, or once again having a public speaking fail is totally the norm for me, so it never bothers me of course). But when someone tries (and succeeds) at embarrassing me in front of a lot of people...I don't know. I've never really been able to quickly bounce back from that.

And that blog...knowing that it's online for everyone to see... T_T

So, shamed to say, several thoughts came to my mind as I was reading that blog. The main was this:

You know how you really like a fandom, but there are barely any stories for them? You've read all the (few) good ones, and the only ones left kinda or aren't your style, but you're desperate, and you're glad that there's at least someone writing for your fandom so you settle for those ones because you know that's all you're gonna get...?

EXO has taken over this site, everyone knows that. So when that thought crossed my mind, I wondered if the only reason why people were reading BR is because Homin stories were depleting, and the TVXQ fans that were left just needed something to get by.

I thought a lot of my BR readers (and readers of my other stories) were just settling, because they were running out of choices on this site. (like seriously, when was the last time any of you saw a TVXQ story being featured on here?)

When I first joined this site, I posted Brotherhood and the first 2 chapters , but I was nervous/excited for the story. And then people subscribed and commented and I wondered what this sorcery was, but I kept posting those one-shots anyway.

And then I decided to start BR, and I posted the forward and all these subscriptions started coming out of nowhere, and then the awesome comments started coming too and I've had a lot of fun writing it that I became attached to it okay and I knew it wasn't all that great but that story is like my child >_<

So really, I know that I probably shouldn't have thought that way. I know I have readers that sincerely like my fics, and like I said, I'm extremely grateful to you guys.

And...you know how that blogger discovered BR? It was trending on the popular page. Did you guys know that it had trended on the popular page? Because I didn't :/

And then another thing I realized, that blogger didn't only insult me. She insulted my readers, who had commented how much they loved my story. She made fun of you all and hinted that you were all delusional too. So I also apologize for that.

I really want to move on from what I saw on that blog, so I'm trying hard to. Like I said in the last post, I'm not gonna stop writing my fics, especially BR (but I don't think I'll post the bonus fic for it. I'm sorry. I know I promised I would). But I'll finish this Homin fic, and move onto another one, as I planned. TVXQ is always gonna be my main fandom, nothing will change that, and as long as I'm on this site, I'm gonna keep writing Homin fics, okay?

Did this post make any sense? I hope it did.

Anyway, since I really couldn't figure out a way to reply to all of you, here's this post.

Okay, I need to study for biology now. Thank you so much for reading! ^_^