Feeling the cold rush of the fall but the warmth of a body embracing my own I regain consciousness and see his beautiful face with closed eyes holding me tight. 

Looking down we fall into the deep blue waves, his grip on me loosened as he started to sink without any motion

Quickly diving down as fast as my legs could move I grab him from behind and pull us up to the surface gasping for air

Hannah and G Dragon were on the shore, "Shelby!! Please hurry! Come back to us!" She shouts with tears flowing from her cheeks as she reaches out for me on her knees 

Somehow I manage to keep Kyuhyun up as I weakly make it to the shoreline and start to fall unconscious once more as I hear Hannah pleading with me to open my eyes as she held me. Her warm tears fall on my cheek and her image goes blurry... 

Hearing voices and my vision returning as I open my eyes, I found myself in a hospital bed with IV's hooked up to me and bandages on my knees and forehead 

Looking to my side, Hannah was sleeping holding my hand. Her cheeks we shiny and her nose red. I could tell she had been crying for a while and I felt so guilty for that

"O-Oppa?.." I squeak out 

She instantly wakes up with bright, glistening eyes looking at me with a happy yet sad expression 

"You idiot!" She hugs me tightly and crying once more, "Don't you ever try and leave me alone again!" 

I hug her with the little strength I had and smile faintly, "I'm so sorry I've put you through this....all I seem to do is cause problems.." I sigh and hold my head in pain 

"You don't cause problems at all, you're just stubborn and let yourself get down so easily and that really kills me because I don't know what I would do if I lost you." She rubs her red eyes 

"I just don't know what to do with myself anymore. I just don't want to ruin anyone's lives anymore.." 

"You've made my life the best it could possibly be. You became my best friend the first day we met. You've always stood by me when I'm in pain and when I feel I have no one, you're there for me to hold onto. You introduced me to the love of my life. Even though you've been through so much, you always smile and make me feel better even when you're feeling worse than I am. You could never ruin anything for anyone." She smiles at lays next to me in my bed 

I quickly sit up even though it hurt terribly and rush out of the bed, "Where's Kyuhyun?!" I look at her stumbling across the floor almost falling 

She rushes over to help me stand, "Hey hey, take it easy. He's in the room right next door, come on. Walk slowly.." She says holding me up and helps me get to his room

The other members were there and Leeteuk quickly takes me from Hannah into a hug

"Shelby....thank god you're alright.." He whimpers and the others followed suit even Siwon hugging me as they cried 

"I'm so sorry.." I say once they let me go, "I've caused all of you so much grief and misery." 

"N-no you haven't.." A familiar voice says from behind them all

The man I almost killed laid there and smiled at me as though I hadn't done anything and reaches for my hand

"We will give you guys some time alone. We'll come back in a little while." Siwon says surprising us both as he gathered everyone out the door 

The only thing I could do once they left was hug the life out of him with intense regret and sadness in my heart

"I-I'm so sorry....I almost killed you.." 

"I would've gladly given up my own life to save you. I could never live without you." He replies kissing my hand  

"I've caused so many problems when I realized I should've tried to listen to Leeteuk. But I wouldn't listen to anyone...In case you didn't know I beat myself up a lot. My self hatred and damaged heart take me over more and more everyday." 

"I have been needing to say this for so long, I didn't betray you with Siwon. He took advantage of me when I met him at the hotel. I would never hurt you in any way especially not like that." He explains  

"I'm sorry again...I should've taken the time to listen to you. I-" he puts his finger to my lips  

"With all that you've been through in your life, losing your mother at 15, your father being so cruel to you, constantly being let down by the people you've grown to love and blaming yourself for all of it. I can truly see now why you think you need to be alone all the time. But you're never really alone, you have Hannah, G Dragon and the other hyungs. Most importantly however you will always have me by your side." He pulls me close and kisses me deeply as tears run down my cheeks 

Pulling away I look at him with a mixed expression of guilt and pure happiness

Getting out of the bed he goes to his jacket and pulls something out, walking back to my side of the bed he gets down on his knee once again, "Shelby, with all that we've been through these past few weeks I believe our love has become stronger than I ever could have imagined. Being without you makes me want to stop breathing as you are the only air I breathe. Will you please join hands with me as my one and only wife? Whom I will forever hold dear more than my own life."  He puts the ring back on my finger where it always should've stayed

Falling into his arms I kiss him passionately holding onto him as if it were life and death and I never wanted to let him go

"I will never make the mistake of letting you go again. You are the only man for me and I will cherish you as my husband." I smile brightly at him as he wipes my tears and kisses me once more as the others walk back in 

"Wooooo!" They all shout and surround us with hugs and love 

I realized then and there that we are a family and we always have been and will be forever and ever 

Cherishing and loving them will be my mission until the day I can no longer move or speak, Saranghae.