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of dreams and dust (and shooting star)2013
“You know what, Kai. I had a dream.”
It was one of our usual night at our flat during the end of our second year. I was lying on the couch, reading Sartre’s Nausea when Krystal started talking. She was lying on the carpet under the couch, beside Taemin who was asleep. I took a glance at her, she was staring blankly at the ceiling while her fingers played with Taemin’s hair.
“What dream?” I asked as I continued to read the passage that I left off.
“That I am a shooting star,” she said.
I raised my eyebrows, feeling the absurdity in her answer. I closed the book and turned by body, pressing my cheek against the pillow to see her better. I reached out to her, touching her arm as I stared at her eyes. “What do you mean?”
Krystal looked straight into my eyes. “Say, have you ever seen a shooting star, Kai?”
I nodded. “Once in Nice.”
“It falls really fast isn’t it? But you never forget about how beautiful it is, even after you’ve seen another sky full of stars.”
I traced her right arm with my fingers until I caught hers. Loosely, I held them in my hand. “Because it’s rare. For some people it's once-in-a-lifetime chance to see shooting star with eyes.”
“True,” Krystal held my hand and pressed it against her cheek, “that’s why I want to become a shooting star.”
“Why?”
“I like the idea of passing by someone’s life in a millisecond, but leaving behind a deep memory that he’s going to remember even after he has reincarnated for the nth times on earth,” she told me.
I frowned at the ambiguity of her words. “Are you saying that you’re going to leave us?”
Krystal gave me a meaningful smile. A short one, but I could always recall it every time I remembered this conversation.
It was a bitter smile; darker than joy, but happier than sorrow.
“Nah, I never said that. But who knows; maybe I am your shooting star or you’re all mine,” she replied as she placed our entwined hands loosely above her chest and closed her eyelids.
I stared at her until I fell asleep that night.
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