part 11
SKYDRAGON ONESHOTShe breathes me in again in this familiar room. the bright pink walls of my childhood bedroom bring way too many memories for me not to feel lightheaded. i remember the innocent rush of romanticism fill my veins when i read those old poetry books. i was only a little girl with big dreams of one day falling in love and having someone love me back. as i look into his eyes i think i can check that box but instead of feeling happy i feel so sorry for myself. i think ive gotten too lost. i dont know who i am anymore. i feel like ive become everything hes wanted me to be but am i what i want to be? i feel so lonely in this messy world and this chaotic feeling in my heart is too much to bear sometimes. im sure i wont ever feel like this again because love like this only happens once. you either take it or you leave it. i take his hand in mine and brush my lips over it. his callused fingers itch to touch me but i hold it far enough so they cant. i'm too tired to feel his touch. i need to breathe. so much pain and love makes me feel numb and i need to get out. i need to get away to just feel again. i want to feel the wind on my face and the soft petals under my fingertips. i need to feel everything in small doses, not at once. when i touch him its like im under a thunderstorm, raging and . i feel all the flowers under my fingertips and it ing hurts. my chest feels like it's burning even when im not looking at him. its even worse when i do. so i have to say goodbye so i can feel normal again. this is my goodbye.
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