2 days later: 

In those days I was just thinking abt Jackson and why only him clearly I liked a lot if guys and have with them put I don't know what exactly happening in my mind. Am I fa.....falling in love no..... No way I can't fall in love with a man I just saw like a hour that's not love maybe cuaz he is very cute and took my attention. Oh god when I think abt him my mind just go blank like there is nothing in my mind except Jackson.

This morning I went to the park will this is like lil park for julyfish....

I went to get some clean air and forget everything but then suddenly a guy came and set on the same place. No one slowed except us. Any way he told me its nice weather hu R : what who are u and what are u doing here.?? I was surprised I thought it was a fan  ( man ) I work here in julyfish R : oh r....really but I haven't see u before ( man) I know I work here new so ravi oh sorry I mean Mr. Ravi I can tell that u are really thinking abt something R : w..what thinking if what and why u even talking to me I don't even know u s....sorry but I gatta go now. I left that man and go how did he know that I'm thinking abt something I wonder who is this man.

When got into the dram I heard a voice from Ns room I went up stairs to check whats going on I stand by the door and started listening to what was going on here I heard n say ken who was that man that u were talking to I wanna know.Ken: why u wanna know didn't u told me don't care abt what I do and I won't care too remembered n!!? N yeah but Ken : but what n why are doing this just leave me alone N : ken i ...care abt u cuaz I love u idiot. K : w..what N : I said I love u and from long time ur so cute and hot also ur handsome too. I love u do u love me ken k : hu y...yes I seriously do......love u they hugged each other so title and n couldn't hand it touching ken with out rowing something more nester so he pushed ken on the wall and kiss him hard the moan into eachother s mouths

Than they stopped and say we will do that next time cuaz n had something to do. I went to change my close and headed down to jyp I want to see Jackson I can't forget him when I don't think abt him my mind go like something crazy I really wanna see him and talk to him. I got there and entered JYP dram and I was very very nervous. I say hello guys its m...me ravi suddenly I saw bambam front of me and he welcome me and told me how are u what brings u hereu like us right I wasn't paying attention to bambam really much I just wanted to see Jackson.              Thinking abt him this whole day makes me go crazy                                  

So  I asked bambam where was the rest of the member s and he say some of them have performance and the only one left here is me and Jackson and mark.