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Jongin's POV~

I love Taemin.....

I love Kyungsoo....

I'm having mixed feelings between both of them and I have to choose one but it's like impossible!

Yesterday, Kyungsoo did something really nice to trying to help our relationship while Taemin on the other hand made my day really filled with fun and made me stress freeand made me feel happy inside....

but even though Kyungsoo did all of that it still doesn't mean it's gonna change anything really... and even though Tae made me feel happy it still doesn't mean i wasn't thinking of Kyungsoo at the same time...

*sigh* 

I don't know what my mind is trying to tell me honestly...

While i was with Tae i was being really touchy and i didn't really understand why... i only rubbed his thighs because... i honestly don't know really... I guess i was teasing him to see if he felt the same way i did but he moved over a bit and so i'm assuming he doesn't feel the same...

I guess i like Taemin and I love kyungsoo but if Kyungsoo does some stupid stuff again to make e go off on him everytime he's does things without really teling me why he's been gone all day i may change the way i feel for him...

- school time -

Kyungsoo woke me up this morning as we were gonna be slightly late and i was holding onto him so tight making sure he didn't leave knowing that he would never leave me alone in cases like these...

We made our way to school and we hugged eachother goodbye and I got hit by Sehun (my best friend) right after, 

Sehun is the only person who knows about my mixed feelings (well, some of my other close friends know too but he was the first one to know) He kinda knew that i would fall for Taemin but not like i have now...

"So, how has it been after that party you know.." - Sehun

"It's been quite nice, me and Tae did a little walking and had something to eat together after the party and Kyungsoo picked me up later on and wanted some time together so we can get back on track" 

"Ohhh... So this like must've turned into a lo-" - Sehun

I blushed

"Shhh, Sehun your'e making me embarrassed now..."

"OMG! i knew it! you can't really hide anything can ya?!" - Sehun

"*sigh* apparently i can't"

"Well, Taemin is a really nice guy and he is really pretty, well, manly really... but anyways he has a great personality and I think he probably likes you too but not to the extent that you like him..." - Sehun

"Yea."

"Don't be mad you have Kyungsoo but sooner or later your'e gonna have to choose one because this can go wrong real quick and you know that..." - Sehun

"Yea Yea i know, it's just i also have to find out why Kyungsoo is in the group that Taemin is in when he just got here not too long ago..."

"Same thing i would like to know as well but i'm pretty sure there are reasons, Kyungsoo is a great guy as well.." - Sehun

"Look, I know i'm siding you on the mixed feelings thing but you need to realize that what you're doing is wrong... and it's gonna hurt both of them" - Sehun

"I know... it's just-"

"Complicated... i know "- Sehun

......

We went on to our classes and i saw Taemin talking to some guys and he starred at me and smiled and waved at me and i waved back...

*sigh*

What am i going to do.....

I know this was short but i tried my best i was going to continue but it wasn't going the way i wanted it to go....