All I wanted was someone to talk to.. Tears would fall for reasons I did not know. No one questioned why I cried because no one was there to see me cry. The real me who would cry with no reason given was hidden behind the mask that others wanted to see. The way I was viewed changed for each person, some would see me as the shy, quiet, smart girl in class, others as an annoying, clingy girl, and a few just saw me as someone they could easily talk to. Many have seen me cry when I have gotten hit with a ball or fallen... but no one has seen me bawl to the point where tears would not even fall. It's odd how easy it is to hide this.. I can just go cry in the shower or at 4 a.m. when everyone is asleep. It's easy. 

I was lonely. That's all there was to it. Nothing else. I didn't need anything. He didn't have to buy me anything. Everything I wanted was for him to just text me or hang out with me. All I wanted was someone to talk to. This was before I met him. Well, I hadn't personally met him yet but I went to his concert to see him. Even with everyone there, I felt so happy. Before the concert had started, I was standing in line waiting like everyone else. I didn't expect this to happen but I met his father and chatted with him for a minute or two, he was the sweetest. His mother was also there but she was a bit further a way. It was a pleasure for me to have been able to meet them even if it was like this. Maybe it was a good thing I went to his concert. I also got to have a hi-touch session with him even when I wasn't supposed to but they were sweet enough to let us.. His v