Your brother was already waiting for you when you came back home.

“Oh, you’re here?” You gave him a weak smile before turning around and walking into your own room. You closed the door behind you with a sigh.

It was impossible to do your homework right now, but you needed some distraction. So you decided to flip your math book open, just to make yourself feel a bit better.

The test was this upcoming Tuesday and you had no idea what the heck you were doing at the moment. You were a little procrastinator (okay, maybe more than just ‘a little’).

30 minutes have passed and it felt like your head was going to explode. You haven’t even done that much, but still, enough to cause a headache. The incidents from before crossed your mind.

Yixings disgusted expression when he literally spit out that he would never touch you flashed your mind and you tried hard to shake it off. But it was too late. The tears were running down your face already.

Gosh. You hated him and especially yourself so much at the moment. How could you be so naïve and get hopes up for nothing.

Unrequited love, that was something you were willing to accept, you were willing to bear with, but not with such harsh words. They really hurt you. Was this really Yixing? This all seemed like a really bad nightmare.

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Your brother came into your room a few times throughout the day, to ask you if you were okay, and once even brought you a hot chocolate.

“Min-jun, come out of here already. It’s 5 pm already, tomorrow’s Sunday, don’t waste your day like that, it’s not worth it, whatever it is you’re worrying about right now.”

You were lying on your bed, your laptop on your stomach. You shot him a short glance.

“Jimin, I don’t need your comforting words right now, just leave me alone already, okay?”

He stared at you. Disbelief in his eyes.

Okay, you knew, you were a bit harsh to him. He just wanted to help you, and you were really appreciating that and all, but still, you felt so empty and also too weak to really care about him at the moment.

He just grunted and left for the fourth time. You rubbed your eyes and yawned. Tiredness washing over you. But you didn’t want to sleep yet.

You wanted to keep yourself occupied with work, so you decided to clean your room. Everything just to ignore that hurt and empty feeling in your heart.

~2 hours later~

You were scrubbing the bathroom when suddenly a phone was ringing.

Hey, Playboy ~

That was enough to make you realize that it was Baeks’ phone. You couldn’t give it back to him earlier so you just took it with you, to give it to him when the next best opportunity occurred.

It was lying next to your bed so you had to stand up and walked over to your bed. You picked it up and checked the ID calling.

It was an unknown number so without hesitating you put it on silent.

“None of my business”

The last thing you wanted to do was to into someone else’s matters, so you just threw it on your bed and turned back to work.

Another hour passed and you were finally satisfied with your room. Because you were sweating you decided to take a long shower, and also to calm yourself down a bit.

When you finished you wrapped a towel around you and stepped out of the bathroom into your room, where a smirking Lay was sitting on your bed.

“You’ve really grown a lot Min-jun.” His smile grew wider and you stepped back, holding the towel now as if your life was depending on it.

“Yah, who let you in?!?!” You could feel your face blushing already. Anger and also that hurt feeling from before rushed through your body.

But on the first hand, it was embarrassment.

“Jimin. He called me and asked me if I would check on you, because you were in your room the whole day, crying your eyes out.”

He cleared his throat and looked down. Was he blushing?

“Listen Min-jun. I know…”

“Get out of here.” He looked up. A surprised and somewhat disappointed expression on his face.

“What?”

“Get.the..out.of.here. Can’t you hear me? Are you deaf now?”

He gulped down. “No, I won’t go out of here, until we cleared things up.”

You laughed dryly.

“What’s there to clear up exactly?” You were shocked about your own voice. The coldness and disgust in it gave yourself Goosebumps.

Was that really your voice just right now?

“Min-jun. I never meant to hurt you, you mean way too much for me, I don’t want our friendship to end like this. I mean you’re like my sister, I need to take care of you, I need to prevent something like that happening to you…”

He stopped and locked eyes with you.

“And now it was ME hurting you like that. I can’t forgive myself for what happened today and also…” he gulped down again “…and also for what I did and said yesterday.”

You stayed silent and just stared him down. There was the man of your dreams, the man you were having feelings for since like 2 years apologizing to you, and yet, you just couldn’t bear up and accept that.

You just couldn’t. It didn’t go with your principles.

“Say something.” He looked at you with pleading eyes and you wished he would be here with you forever, would hold you in his arms and kiss your pain away.

But he couldn’t and wouldn’t. That was for sure. He had a girlfriend now, and you were like his sister.

The painful words from before crossed your thoughts for the hundredth time already.

"Like I've ever planned on doing anything to her like seriously. Look at her."

You felt tears building up again. No, no. You wouldn’t cry in front of him. Not at this state right now.

“You don’t know , do you.” You weren’t asking him. You were just stating a fact.

“ Then please, explain it to me. I already apologized to you. I am sincerely sorry for my harsh words. REALLY.” He stood up and wanted to move towards you but you stepped back, to signalize him that he shouldn’t.

“What would your girlfriend say if she’d knew that you were in a room with me, half ?”

You crossed your arms.

He stared blankly at you and just took a step forward, just as if he didn’t get the message from earlier.

“Yah Minnie, are you blackmailing me right now?” He raised a brow.

You just stayed silent, watching over him, trying to keep the distance as long as possible. If he’d come any nearer you wouldn’t be able to hold in your feelings for him.

“Geez, since when were you so stubborn, I didn’t know you like that. I thought we knew each other good enough already.”

“Yeah, that was what I thought as well.” you responded dryly.

Suddenly you felt your towel loosening up.

. You tried to fix it with your hands but you felt it sliding slowly down.

Heat was washing through your body. , , .

You wanted to tell him to look away, but before you could say anything, he tucked you on the wall and pulled the towel back in its position.

He looked away. You could swear, his face was as read as yours.

He murmured something which you couldn’t understand so you just whispered

“Go away, what are you doing.”

Your voice was so husky, you could’ve slapped yourself, but also couldn’t help yourself. He was close. Too damn close.

And the only thing that was keeping him away from touching your bare body was the freaking towel.

Suddenly, as if he’d burned himself he stepped back and shook his head.

You were just gasping, leaning on the wall, as if you two just made out.

The bright red that has spread over his cheeks deepened and he murmured “This was just a friendly reminder that I am still a guy. Don’t ever come out like this when a guy’s in your room. You’re just lucky that it’s me.”

He cleared his throat and turned around.

“Take on your clothes god damn it. I’m not looking.”

I FEEL SO BAD OMG, I am so sorry that this took me so long.

I even promised a weekly update, and I will try to keep that the best I can. But we had a lot of tests recently, so it was really hard for me to really concentrate on the story, I am really sorry. 

I hope you like this chapter, and thank you for commenting and also subscribing! It really means a lot.

lots of love ~ demi ♥