The shooting begins at sunset. You're suppose to meet him in a restaurant on the CCTV Tower. You can see the beautiful view of Beijing when suddenly the light goes out. You look around and see the light directed at a piano in the center of the room. Yixing is looking at you and begin to play a song. You are familiar with it. As you listen through the lyrics, a smile formed across your face. It's "Ideal Lover" by Rainie Yang. You're amazed at how he rearrange the song to match his vocal. 

You clap your hands when he gave a bow after his performance, "How is it?" he asks.

"Of course it was lovely. I really love your voice." A big grin formed on his face, hearing your comment.

After exchanging a few more words, you're both sitting and begin a small talk, basically just to get to know each other a little better. You even almost forgot there are cameras watching your every move.

"Can you sing a song for me?" You almost choked on your drink when he said that.

"I'm not good at singing." You answer shyly, although you're not that bad at singing, it's still very embarassing to sing in front of him.

"It's okay, I'd like to hear you sing." He said that with his eyebrows up and a pleading smile.

You let out a long sigh before answering, "Okay, but only if you don't laugh after."

"Of course I won't." He smiles reasurringly.

You sing the first song that came to your mind when you met him, "Enchanted" by Taylor Swift. Your voice cracks under the pressure but you don't care. You want him to know what you were feeling. Hoping he catches everything you sing.

He claps after you're done singing, "You lie to me," he said, "It turns out you're really good at singing." You can't help but blushes hearing his compliment. Oh wait, your mind suddenly warns you, he's Zhang Yixing afterall, he's just being nice.

***

It's time to change the venue. You both take separate cars to go to the destination: The Palace, a very famous place in Beijing. You arrive at the venue first and asking for a permission to go to the bathroom.

The shooting will resume in half an hour. You took the time to admire the huge screen in the middle of two luxury buildings. It shows a video of dancing colors. You didn't realize that you stare at it with your head tilted above, bending your body backwards, until Lay put his hand of your back.

"Be careful not to fall." he said calmly. You don't know how to respond so just stay still. 

"You're so cute when you blushes like that." Just as he said that, you can hear the director's voice signaling to start the shooting in a moment. Lay said he will go first.

Oh... my... god... you mutter to yourself, is he really unaware of what he's doing? You can feel your face grows hotter and your heartbeat goes faster.

***

"Cut!" The director's shout marks the end of the night. It's almost 03.00 a.m. and both of you are really tired. You can't seem to control your feelings troughout the shooting. One can clearly see that you seriously fell for him as a man, not as an idol. I mean, who wouldn't? You're thinking to yourself. A man who is as considerate and kindhearted as him must be very rare. In fact, you have never met someone as charming yet as humble as him. As a token of appreciation, you decided to bring him a nice hot cocoa while waiting for the staff to clean up the shooting location.

You can hear Yixing's singing voice from afar. He seems to be enjoying his small break in his cozy waiting room.

***

"Yixing, be honest with me, do you like her? She seems to genuinely likes you. I mean, not as a fan..." Wei's sudden question caught him off guard.

"How can that be possible jiejie, maybe you're wrong." He answers it as polite as he can.

"That's possible, you know. I believe this is the right time for you to start dating. It doesn't have to be a public consumption. I just want you to know that this kind of opportunity will not present itself twice. I know she has a very good heart and I think she matches well with you." She paused for a while, she knows it's really hard to date with his current status, a star who is loved by many. But she also knows how lonely he sometimes feel, not only because he misses his family, but also because he hasn't found his other half. She's been in this industry for over 20 years so she knows what she was talking about. She's been watching a lot of global stars wasting their time, throwing away the chance to find someone they love who also love them for what they truly are: a mere human. "Yixing... you do realize that if you met her again in the future, it might not be as convenience as this."

He pause for a while, thinking about his senior's words. He tries his best to think about what he really wants, what he really feels. But all he can think about is how it will hurt his fans if they found out that he's dating someone, and how it will also hurt the other person in the process. He's fully aware of what some of his fans are capable of. He can't think for any other answers.

"I'm okay, jiejie. She is my fan, and for now I still can't let my personal feelings get in the way of my work. I know it will hurt my fans if I did otherwise."

"So does that mean you like her or not? I thought you were being especially nice to her because you do like her."

"No, jiejie, please don't misunderstand. I'm being nice to her because she is my fan and I'm grateful for her help that makes this event possible."

***

"Miss Mei Li! There you are! What are you doing standing in the corridor like this?" a writer suddenly came up to you.

"Nothing, I was just... I just wanted to give this to Yixing." You can't clearly hear what the writer was saying. You feel very heavy and tired all of a sudden. You can feel your eyes getting more watery as you speak.

"Meimei?" Yixing is standing at his door, looking at you in shock. Even though you both are more comfortable with each other now that he starts giving you nicknames--it's chinese for younger sister, actually--you can't feel anything right now.

"This is for you, I have it with me for a while now, so I guess it's cold already. I'm sorry, I didn't mean to eavesdrop on your conversation, I just didn't want to bother you." You give the cocoa to Yixing while trying your best to hold back your tears. You walk with your head down towards the car that will bring you to your hotel.

***

She must've heard everything, he thinks to himself. He can see the tears starts forming on hear eyes. His heart clenched at the thought of how she must've been so hurt after hearing his words. But he can't do anything now. He can't, no, he must not run after her. That's not a wise action.

"You know, the cocoa was made by the staff with boiling water." Wei suddenly break the silence, "I'll go check on her hands."

He closes his eyes and ruffled his hair in frustration. He can't believe he let this happened.

***

*** Hi, so in case you're wondering about the song that Yixing sings, here it is. You can see the translated lyrics here.