8 march 2015

Almost one weeks since our conversation on the phone. Because of my ego, i always decline her call. We have our break now. I make decision last week to back my home town. So during that time i never meet fany. Sunny call me at the first day i reach my hometown. She told me that fany safely land at korea the day after that award. Fany ask about me and she feel so sorry. She trying to call me but i didnt pick up the phone. Sunny told me that fany decide to back at LA because she miss her family. I miss her now.

The day before my birthday party, i heading back to seoul. I reach our dorm early in the morning. The house feel so silent. Sunny still at roommate, so she wont back home so early untill my birthday. I feel lonely. This year im going to celebrate my birthday without my members. All have their own activities. I sat at the corner of my bed. I look at our frame. My photo with fany. I really miss her. If she was here, she will be the person that prepared for my birthday.

Fany, tomorrow is going to be my day. Did you remember? 

I walk into the event. All is fans waiting for me. I feel so touch with their support. They gave so much strength. At the end of the party. Something get my attention. The video is show tiffany speaking. My fany. Im shock with that surprise and and the fans what is this. My family, fany, heechul oppa, amber, and my lovely fans great me with birthday wishes. I almost cry. I thanks to them. And walk from the stage. My manager unnie hug me. Im crying hard. I dont deserved this surpr