“please forgive me, I like you minseok”  Minseok was standing there like a statue, not moving or blinking. he must be really shocked about what I am saying  and also myself.

it’s the worst scenario of confessing to someone when others will confess to someone with replaying their good and lovely memories, but here I am, confessing while replaying our bad memories. I closed my eyes when I heard a sigh from him because I can feel the rejection will come now

“really Luhan, I won’t fall to that joke anymore”  

I open my eyes wide when I heard his word and it feels like I got a spank on my face instead of the heart. I can not blame him about he doesn’t trust me about the confession or anything because I was the one who crush his trust to me.

“its not a joke, please minseok, I like you, I like you from the beginning we met .. I –I have loved you since  ..”  I want to let out anything on how  my heart feeling toward him so he can feel my sincerity and he will know I am not playing anymore with him

“luhan !! stop! I said don’t play any joke to me AGAIN!” he cut me  while he closed his ears as like he didn’t want to hear me anymore, but although my mind said I have to stop, my heart and my mouth didn’t want to stop to convince him that I like him, I want him .

I place my hands on his wrist to put his hands down so he can hear me clearly and when my eyes met his eyes I confess again to him. I want to release all of the desire I have to him and I want him to catch all my sincerity feeling, so he will know I am never lying about my feeling toward him.

“really minseok, please believe me, I like you, I’ve loved you from when we were in middle school, but I-I just a coward at that time to admit I like you, I-i am really really sorry minseok, but, please believe me this time, I’ve loved you this whole time, please minseok believe me”

Xiumin lets a small chuckle before he looked at me with a hatred eyes “yeah, you are the true coward who left his best friend just to keep your face on the society” Xiumin slammed my hands, so he can free his hands and he went somewhere else.

I don’t have any courage to followed him, cause I remember how coward I was back then while xiumin  survived the bully all alone and I was there just watching him.

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*Dinner

I have no courage to sit beside Xiumin, so I took the farthest seat from him. Baekhyun who senses my avoided came sit with me

“After dinner, we need to talk” I nodded  to Baekhyun, I know what Baekhyun will talk to me later

......

Baekhyun pulls me to the very corner of the lobby, where not very bright place and also not ver