2008

Everything is wrong.. I hate this. I hate everything, I can’t stand it anymore.

Everything is out of plan. Once again, I have meeting with Mr. Park Junsu, but this time I’m not alone, Sehun also with me. Yes, both of us having problem with our GPA and too much absent from the class. But this time our GPA is very bad, and if we can’t improve it we need to redo this semester again. I don’t want to redo this semester again. I need to pass but at the other side I still need to work to cover my expenses. Aaaarrrrggghhhh all of this mess make my head hurt.

“Hunie~aa are you alright?” I ask him. He’s being so quiet after meeting with Mr. Park

“Yeah, yeah.. I’m alrigh Lu”he smile

“Sehun please, I know you not for a day or two, I’ve know you since 3 years ago. Please tell me what happen” I said

“hhhmmmnn..i don’t know Lu. I just keep thinking about what Mr. Park said”

“if I have to redo this semester again I’m sure my parents will get angry with me” he said

“Sehun, I know, I’m sorry. I’m sorry to put you in this situation” I cry

“no, Lu please don’t cry” he hug me

“no, sehun we can not be like this anymore, I have to think the way out. I can’t put you in this situation anymore. I don’t want you get trouble with your parents because of me” I said

“Lu…”

“Sehun you should stop working part time and focus on your study” I said

“No, Lu if you only one who work, it can’t cover all your fees. I’m not gonna quit. We’ll gonna pass this together” he said

“Sehun..” I cry

“it’s ok lu. Please stop crying, I hate to see you cry. Let’s go home” he grasp my hand and we walk to my dorm

 At my room

 I can’t stop thinking about it. I must find the way out. But how? I can’t ask suho-ge or my mother for help. I can’t borrow money from my dorm mate since they’re also got the money from their parents. Oh god please help me. I don’t know what to do. I cry alone in my room and until I fall asleep.

“PAPA” I scream and wake up from my sleep

I dream about my father. I dream about that night when my father beating my mother. Why suddenly I dream of my father? I never dream about him before.

Tok tok tok

Suddenly someone knock my door

“Lu, are you alright? I heard you scream” kyungsoo said

“yeah Soo I’m fine, it’s just a nightmare” I said

“Lu, if you want to talk something I can be a good listener to you”kyungsoo said

I walk to my door and open it

“Thank you Soo, I guess I need someone to talk to. Please come in” I said

 I told Kyungsoo everything about what Mr. Park said, about what I and sehun talked, about my dream just now. I told her everything. I cry, I cry a lot and kyungsoo hug me tight.

 “Lu, I guess you better looking for your father, maybe he can help you? She said

“I don’t know Soo, you know I never heard about him for almost 17 years. My mother block all the way for me to meet my father. Beside that I don’t know if he still love me or not” I said

“Lu, you have to try. You’ll never know the result if you never try” she said

“Yeah, but how? I don’t know any relative from my father side. The only person know about my father only my mother and.. wait maybe I can ask aunty suzy. She sure know about my father” I said

“Good, you can start from asking your aunty”Kyungsoo said

“Thank you Soo, Thank you so much” I hug kyungsoo

“That’s what a friend fro Lu” she smile

In the next morning I call aunt Suzy and ask for her help to find my father. she agree, but with one condition, my mother may not know about this. She sure will get very angry if she know I’m look for my father. After long talk with aunt Suzy, I decide to going back to Hong Kong and looking for my father. Today I’m gonna meet Mr. Park and ask for his help so that I can take a break from my classes about a month.

After explaining my condition with Mr. Park, he willing to help me.

“Ok Luhan, but just for a month and you need to get back here” he said

I nodded “Ok Mr. Park, thank you very much” I leave his office

I immediate message sehun

From : Baby Lu

To: My Hunnie

Hunnie aa, can we meet?

From : My Hunnie

To: Baby Lu

Of course baby, where are you?

From : Baby Lu

To : My Hunnie

I’m at the main building, I’ll wait for you at usual place

From : My Hunnie

To : Baby Lu

Ok baby, see you there

Love you

From : Baby Lu

To : My Hunnie

Love you too <3<3<3

Few minutes later

“Hi baby” sehun kiss me at the forehead and sit next to me

“Hi hunnie” I smile

“tho, baby what you want to talk about?” He ask

“Well, I guess I find the way out to solve my problem” I said

“hhmmm how?”

“I’m going to look for may father, he’s the only hope I have” I said

“what? Means that you have to go back to China?”

“I’m going to Hong Kong, my father live there. I’ve talked to Mr. Park just now and he agree to help me to take break for a month.” I said

“But, why you never talk to me before you decide something?” sehun voice become cold

“Sehun, please listen to me. I need to go and looking for my father. I need to solve this as soon as possible, I don’t want to be a burden for you. You need to focus on your study. I’m sorry sehun, I’m sorry” I said

“what? Burden? Luhan do you think who I am? Why you decide something important like this before talk to me? Who I am for you?” he said angrily

“Sehun, I’m sorry” I begin to cry

“Do what ever you wanna do”he get up from the chair and walk away

I was shock, this is the first time sehun angry with me.

“Sehun aa” I call him

He just walk away and never look at me

It has been a week that Sehun never talk to me, never answer my call, never reply my sms, and he avoiding me in the class. Today, I’m going to Hong Kong. I’m gonna message him, if he doesn’t reply my message means that he wanna break up with me.

To : My Hunnie

From : Baby Lu

Sehun~a I’m leaving Korea now. I’m so sorry for what I have done to you. I’ll be back next month.

Love you hunnie

1 hour has passed, now I need to boarding. It hurt, my heart hurt a lot, suddenly the tear began rolling down at my cheek. I guess this the end of our story. Good bye sehun~aa.

Few hours later

Here I am at Hong Kong. When I turn on the phone, there 6 messages coming

From : My Hunnie

To : Baby Lu

Take care

From : My Hunnie

To : Baby Lu

Please come back soon

From : My Hunnie

To : Baby Lu

I am sorry luhan, I’m sorry for being arrogant

From : My Hunnie

To : Baby Lu

I love you soo much baby Lu

From : My Hunnie

To : Baby Lu

I miss you soo much baby

From : My Hunnie

To : Baby Lu

Please call me if you reach Hong Kong

I’m so happy Sehun not mad at me anymore, I immediately call him. My relationship with him turn to normal again. Now, I start my Journey to look for my father. Aunt Suzy give me the address where my father live. I took a cab to search for the address. Here I am in front of my father house. I knock the door.

“Hello, is this Mr. Wang Ren Fu house?” I ask

“Yes. Who is this?” women from the house ask

“Hi, I’m Xi Luhan. Can I meet Mr. Wang?

“aaa..please come in” she said

“Honey, someone looking for you”the women shouted

“Who?” the man inside the house shouted

“Xi Luhan” the women said

I saw the old man running towards me and immediate hug me tightly

“Luhan? Are my daughter luhan?” he ask

“yes, I’m luhan papa. I miss you soo much” I cried

“Oh my god luhan, you don’t know how I miss you soo much, I was looking for you. Since that night I totally lose contact from your mother. Finally my dream come true, I can see you again, I can hug you again, I can kiss you again my baby” he cried

The women before just stand near the door looking at us.

“honey, come here please” my father ask the women to come

“Honey, this is my long lost daughter, Luhan” my father said

“Soo, this is your daughter who you always talking about” she hug me

“Hi Luhan, my name is Wang Yi Ling. You can call me aunty Yi Ling” she smile

“Hi aunty Yi Ling, I’m sorry I just suddenly come here” I said

“why to be sorry honey? You are my husband daughter means that you also my daughter and this house always open for you” she said

I nodded and hug her. She’s very kind to me.

“Mama, who is she?” suddenly a little boy come in and run to his mom

“She’s your jie jie honey. Go great her” she said

“I have jie jie? Waaaaa” he said

”yes, she live at Korea” his mom said

The little boy running at me

“Hello jie jie, my name is Jiro” he smile at me

“Hi Jiro, my name is Luhan, you can call me Lulu jie jie” I said

“Waaa.. Lulu Jie jie, you’re so pretty” he hug me

“Thank you, and you to Jiro, you’re very handsome” I said and his face turn red

“So jiro, how old are you? I ask

“I’m 8 years old. Jie jie you should meet my gege and mei mei” he said

“Ooo, you have gege and mei mei?” I ask him

“Yes, shou we gege and xing ling mei mei” he said

“where are they?” I ask

“they still at school”

“why you’re not at school today” I ask

“I’m sick jie jie” he said

“Jiro, please take a rest at your room, lulu jie jie need to rest to” his mother said

jiro pouted “but, mama I still want to talk with jie jie”

“Later baby” she said. Jiro nodded and walk to his room.

“so, jiro having a fever today” I said to break the silent

“Yes, actually Jiro has been sick since he is 3 years old, he’s having Leukimia” aunty Yi Ling said

I was shock and speechless.

“So, Luhan may I ask you something?”she said with serious tone

“Yes, of course aunty yi ling”

“Well, maybe these question a little bit to rude,