My heart actually hurts, I am shaking so badly and everything just went cold. Luhan is my ultimate bias, I've never ever felt so attached to a person before. Ive known that he was I'll for a while and I was just praying he'd be fine. Seeing news about the lawsuit broke me. I broke down. I cried until my face was smudged with eye liner and my throat feels like it was clogged up. I don't know if I can continue this story if the news is true, I'm sorry. Just seeing pictures of him will hurt, I don't think I'll be able to write. I need to take break for a while, what happened with kris left a scar and now Luhan, the person I've always looked up to is escaping that hell hole. 

Im glad, but it hurts thinking that I'll never be able to see him with the rest, smiling like he used to, dancing, doing what made me love him so much. 

I'm sorry.