-"Tiffany... I am in love with you. Please, don't leave me."

I kept on looking straight at her. I was ready for her disgusted look. She lifted up her hand and caressed my cheeks softy. My heart started to beat faster and faster. Her tears flooded her cheeks more. She approached her head from mine and rested her forehead against mine. I closed my eyes. I wanted to stop the time and stay like this forever with her. Just like this, forehead to forehead. She held my shoulder and pushed me a bit. I opened my eyes. She looked at me in the eyes. I took a deep breath.

-"Taeyeon... I'm sorry..."

I closed my eyes and clenched my teeth. Although I knew that her answer might be like this, it was still very painful to hear. I wished that my heart would have stopped at this moment. But it went on with its painful beat. At each beat, I felt like someone was snatching a part of it. I forced myself to laugh and bowed while apologizing. I really felt stupid to have confessed to her like this. Of course she would say no. A girl liking another one? It's gross. I avoided her eyes. I didn't want to see how she was looking at me. I clenched my teeth more. I wanted to cry but I didn't want to show her how hurt I was.

After a last bow, I left the apartment. I closed the door behind me. I wanted to let everything out. But I couldn't do it yet. I walked toward the stairs and slowly walked down. I didn't want to look too suspicious. I suddenly stopped midway. A man, with a cap, sunglasses and a scarf was climbing the stairs. I couldn't help but feel like I knew that person. He lifted his head to look at me. I bowed to him and walked down again. I didn't really care anymore. That man grabbed my arm. I slowly turned myself toward him. What again? My eyes widen as I recognized Nickhun. What was he doing here? He opened his mouth to say something. I knew what he was going to say and I didn't want to hear it. My heart couldn't take any more painful words.

-"Please, take a good care of her." I said while bowing.

He let my arm go and I walked downstairs as fast as I could, ignoring his call. I walked until the main door and took a deep breath when I finally went outside. What should I do now? My legs were shaking but I had to go away from there. My body moved on its own. My mind was blank, I couldn't think straight. I don't know how long I had been wandering around like this when I finally found myself in front of my building. I slowly pushed the door and entered in my tenement. Each step of the stairs looked like a mountain I had to climb. After a while, I eventually opened my door and rushed in my apartment.

I suddenly felt sick. I ran to the bathroom and threw up. I was really looking awful. I sat in the bathroom. I didn't have the strength to get up. I rested my back on the wall and pulled my knees against my chest. I buried my face in them. Why is it so painful? Why does she have to leave me? I don't want it.. I don't want her to leave me. Am I too selfish? I bit my lower lip. There was it, tears running down on my cheeks. I let myself explode and shouted in my bathroom, alone. I wanted all the pain to fly away. Why was it still there?

I kept on crying like this for a while. I felt something my finger. I glanced down. It was lucky. I wiped my tears and lifted him up. I put it on my knees. He tilted his head and whined. I guess that he was worried about me. He my finger. I smiled over his cuteness. He barked at my smile. I laughed. Right, I wasn't really alone. I had this little cute boy right now. I patted his head. I stood up with him in my arms. He yawned. Well, it was quite late already.

I picked some old and worn out clothes I still had and pilled them in a corner. I also took a mini pillow I bought years ago and put it in the corner as well. I wanted it to be as much comfy as it could be. I put Lucky down and he immediately walked toward his little bed. He laid on the clothes and rested his head on his leg.  I squatted in front of him and watched him falling asleep. He was really adorable. I caressed his head with the tip of my finger and stood up. I glanced at the clock. It was already eleven pm. I wasn't sleepy or hungry.

I walked toward the living room and turned the TV on. My phone rang. It was Baekhyun. I sighed and switched my phone off. I hadn't the strength to talk to anyone. Even to Baekhyun. I wonder if everything is alright with Donghae. I was really happy for him. He had finally found someone who truly loves him. I wonder how is Chanyeol doing too. We hadn't met him for a while. Now that Baekhyun had someone, everything should be fine between them.

I tried to focus on the TV but I couldn't. Every second, Tiffany's face was appearing in my mind. She is really a beautiful woman. I was worried about her. I saw Nickhun climbing the stairs to meet her. Are they back together? Will he really take a good care of her and not make her cry? And why hadn't she told me that they were back together? Am I that unreliable? And that evening..when she almost kissed me... she was just playing? I started to get angry. I was mad at her, mad at Nickhun, mad at me.. mad at everyone. Even the TV was annoying me. I turned it off and walked toward the kitchen to have a glass of water. I tried to calmed down. What was the point to fell angry? She would leave me anyway.

I sighed and messed my hair. I should really try to sleep. I slowly walked toward my room. I was careful not to make any sound. I didn't want to wake Lucky up. I reached my bed and laid on it. I closed my eyes and tried to sleep. I rolled on the side. I just couldn't sleep. Every time I was closing my eyes, her face would appear in front of me. I sighed. Can't she leave me alone? She isn't a part of my life anymore. Please, just go away and free my mind ! I cover my face with my hand. I was about to cry again. I really felt awful. I didn't want to fight anymore and I let my tears out.

Someone was shaking my shoulder. I slowly opened my eyes. It's just Yuri... Why was I disappointed? Of course it couldn't be her. I sat on my bed and rubbed my face. Yuri laughed a bit, saying that I looked like a real ghost. I pinched her waist. I heard some voices coming from the living room. My friend explained that after I called Baekhyun yesterday and didn't answer my phone, they all got worried about me. I raised an eyebrow, all? She laughed a bit and pulled me in order to force me to stand up. I sighed and stood up.

I walked in the living room with Yuri. Baekhyun, Donghae and Minho were sitting on the sofa while talking. Leeteuk and Yoogeun were laying on the floor while playing with Lucky. This scene warmed my heart up a bit. Someone then entered in my apartment. I was surprised to see that it was Soohyun with some pizzas in his hands. I looked at the clock. It was already midday. Everyone finally noticed me. They gave me a cheerful smile. I sighed and rolled my eyes. They really didn't have to come all the way here. Yuri patted my back and everyone sat around the coffee table to eat the pizzas. These guys really... I shook my head while smiling and went in the kitchen to take something for Lucky. I mixed some rice with meat and fish and brought it for him. I put the bowl down and sat with everyone to eat.

We were eating joyful. Everyone was laughing. It was great to have them, but my heart wasn't ready to laugh again. We were talking about Minho. He was really doing well with his reeducation. The doctors said that after one or two months, he would be able to run and play football again. I was really happy for him. Then we talked about Donghae and Baekhyun. Even if my brother was still a bit distant, they were doing great. Finally, we talked about Leeteuk's love life. We wanted to know if he was in love with anyone. He denied going out with someone at first but finally gave up and confessed that he was actually in relationship with Kang Sora.

I knew it ! They were just too cute when they did We got married. I am glad that they kept in touch and went in relationship. I sighed. Everyone seemed to be happy with their love life. I felt like I was the intruder. Now that I think of it... If they were worried about me, they would have come in yesterday night. They had already done that before. That was quite weird.

-"Anyway" started Leeteuk "It's good that Tiffany called us yesterday, or else, we would have talked about her"

I put my glass down and clenched my teeth. She called them? What is she doing? Why would she care about me? Please give me a break ! I sighed. Minho hit the back of Leeteuk's head.  I told them that it was okay. I lost her already anyway... Yuri rushed to me and hugged me tight. I snuggled my face in her neck. Friends and family are really the most important thing a human has. I gently pushed her away.

To change the subject, Baekhyun asked me what I was planning to do for the restaurant. Right..the restaurant. I had totally forgotten about it. I didn't really know what I would do. First of all, I had to organize a meeting with the cooks and find another waiter or waitress. I looked at my brother and asked him if he kept in touch with Chanyeol. He nodded and gave me his number. Chanyeol was tall and friendly. I had no doubt that the customers would like him.

After a hour of talking, they all had to leave for their work. Now there were only Lucky and I. I caressed his head. I guess that I should go and shop for him. I stood up and took my bag. I told him to watch the house and left. I had no idea where were the animal shops. I walked toward the bus stop. I will ask the bus driver. It had been a while since I took the bus. I wonder if the bus driver remembers me or not. I had my answer when the bus stopped and I went in. He gladly smiled at me and told me that he was a bit worried about me. I smiled back at him and asked him for the shop. He explained that there were three or four animal shops on his way. I bowed to him and thanked him.

I went out of the bus at the right stop and entered in one of the shops. I was impressed by everything that were sold. The shop assistant went to me and asked me if I needed anything. I explained my situation to him and he recommended me some articles. I bought them and walked back to the bus stop. While waiting, I took my phone and called everyone that were working at the restaurant. I told them that we had to meet as soon as possible. Since they were all free, we set the meeting for later in the afternoon. I didn't expected the meeting to be that soon but that wasn't really a bad thing.

I then called Chanyeol. He was surprised to hear my voice and he was quite glad too. I asked him if wanted to become a waiter at my restaurant or not. He happily accepted my offer. I told him that the meeting was at six pm in the restaurant. After saying goodbye, I hung up and went in the bus. What a timing ! I sat on an empty sit. I looked at what I bought. There were a leash for puppies, some food, toys for him and a necklace. I smiled. I guess that Lucky will be happy. I looked through the window.  I remembered when I took the bus with her. I sure acted weird that day. I closed my eyes and took a deep breath. It hurt like hell..

I got out of the bus and walked toward my tenement. I walked the stairs fast and quickly entered my apartment. Lucky was calmly waiting for me next to the sofa. He was really well behaved for a stray puppy. I put my bag on the sofa and took out the toys I bought. It was already half past four pm. I started to play with Lucky. I wonder if he is really a stray puppy. But well, nobody seemed to be looking for him.  After a bit, I took the necklace and put it on him. He sat and looked at me with playful eyes. He was cute but I couldn't put on the leash yet. Indeed, I read that we shouldn't put a leash on an excited dog.

In order to calm him down, I stayed patiently in front of him and ignored him. After a few minutes, he finally calmed down and I took out the leash. I presented it to him so he could smell it. The I put it around his neck. He seemed a bit confused. I stood up and pushed on the leash. He struggled but soon understood and followed me with the leash all around the house. I put on my shoes and went out with him. As I was walking down the stairs, I met some of my neighbors. They were all attracted to Lucky. I was happy that they actually accepted him well.

Once outside, Lucky started to pull on the leash. I taught him that he should walk beside me. I was quite impressed by how fast he was learning. After a few meters walking with him beside me, I squatted down and caressed him. I guess I am really lucky to have find him. I smiled and kept on walking again. It somehow felt great to walk like this, without thinking. For a moment, I felt at peace. But soon, Tiffany's face appeared in my mind again. I had to open the restaurant soon. I had to keep myself busy in order to stop thinking about her.

It was a quarter to six when Lucky and I arrived at the restaurant. I opened it and entered. I took away Lucky's leash to let him smell the place. I put my bag on a chair and looked around. It felt great to come back here. I glanced at the table where she was sitting when I first saw her. She was crying and stayed here quite a long time. I walked toward it and sat on the chair. Will we ever meet again?

Chanyeol was the first one to come in. While waiting for the others, we talked about everything and nothing. I introduced him to Lucky. I asked how he had been since the last time. He told me that he was doing fine and that he had kept in touch with Baekhyun, even though Donghae didn't really liked him. I chuckled a bit. Poor Chanyeol. He then told me that he was happy that we caught Nana and added that he was sorry for what happened to my friend. I messed his hair. Everything was okay now. Moreover it wasn't Chanyeol's fault. He didn't know what she was doing.

The other cooks soon arrived. I hugged them tight. They were still worried about my father but they were really happy that the restaurant wasn't closed. I introduced Lucky to them and asked them if I could bring him to the restaurant every day. I added that he was really well behaved. The puppy tilted his head toward them. They all fell in love with him and agreed to let him come everyday. I jumped of happiness.

The chief asked me when they would be back to work. I told them to be ready for tomorrow. They were a bit surprised but they didn't ask anything. Once they all left, I laid my head against a table. I didn't know that running a restaurant was that difficult. I had to take care of many things. But that was good, Like this I would be busy and I wouldn't think about her anymore. That bought my spirit back. If I stopped thinking about her, the pain will fly away right?

I woke Lucky up and we headed back home. On the way, every children we met stopped and patted him. I was afraid of his reaction but he seemed to like it. Really, what a lovely dog. I was playing with him when we arrived in front of my tenement. There were a bunch of people in front of it. I wondered what was going on. As I was walking closer, I noticed that they were camera men and paparazzi. Something wasn't right.... I went on the side to reach the door when someone called my name. I turned toward the voice. It was my stepbrother. He walked toward me, grabbed my hand and dragged me inside. We climbed the stairs to my apartment.

Once there, I looked at him, a bit confused. He explained that the paparazzi caught us together and they think that we are a couple. I kept on staring blankly at him.

-"If they think we are a couple.. Why would you come to my house?" I asked him while pinching his arm.

He pouted. I sighed, this boy really... And what about Sora? He told me that his mother explained everything to her so she wasn't mad at all. I heard his tummy growling. He apologized. I told him to go to the kitchen and take a seat. He gladly smiled at me and obeyed. I followed him there and started to cook. He was playing with Lucky. I knew that there was something that he hadn't told me. He wasn't that stupid to come to my house when there was such a rumor about the two of us.

I put the meal on two plates and handed one to him. I then fed Lucky before sitting down. The heavy silence that appeared confirmed what I was thinking. I asked him what was wrong. He looked at me with some sad eyes. I didn't like this. I felt like he was about to tell me something really bad.

-"Tiffany..." he started

I violently put my glass on the table. I didn't want to hear anything that was linked to her. I was trying to forget her. Please stop keep on reminded me of her. Ignoring me; he went on.

-"She called me yesterday. She wasn't really fine.. she explained everything to me. She went to the USA because..."

I covered his mouth. I didn't want to hear that ! I didn't want to hear anymore. Leeteuk sighed and looked at me.

-"Tiffany has her own reasons to move to the USA. That doesn't concern me at all. So please, stop talking about her." I said

He smiled then stood up and hugged me tight. I smiled too and thanked him for being here. He ruffled my hair and told me that he must go now. I waved at him.  I glanced down to see Lucky but he wasn't here. I called him but he didn't answer. I frowned a bit. Where was he? I looked in the living room but he wasn't there. I rushed in my room. He lifted his little head to me. He was laying in his corner, ready to sleep. I smiled. He scared me. I closed the door and started to undress myself.

I put my clothes on my bed and walked in the bathroom. I got in the bathtub and turned the water on. Tomorrow I will start to work. I won't think about her. I won't think.... I won't... I... I hit the wall in front of me. Why can't I stop? I guess that it was too soon for my brain. I should let him some times and just bare the pain for a while. I was sure that I would end up forgetting about her. I had to forget about her, just like I forgot about him.

I quickly washed myself. Tomorrow I would wake up early so I had to sleep early as well. I dried myself and went back to my room. I put on my pajama and laid on the bed. Like yesterday, I struggled to sleep. My mind was filled with her memory. After a long while, my mind finally stopped torturing me and I fell asleep.

My alarm clock woke me up. I stretched. I had another awful night. I rubbed my face and stood up. I undressed myself and wore a black slim with a white shirt. I caressed Lucky's head and walked in the bathroom. I looked really tired. I brushed my hair and put them in a ponytail. It would be better it I put on some make up. But I didn't feel so. I sighed and headed to the kitchen and prepared a bowl of cereal. I fed Lucky before starting to eat. My phone vibrated. I had a message. It was Yuri.

Ayo ^w^
Minho and I don't have anything to eat in our house.
You better prepare something really good to fill our stomachs!
Fighting!

I couldn't help but smiling. This girl was awesome. She is always there for you and she always cares about the others. I am really happy that I met her and that we became such good friends. I quickly finished my bowl and got prepared to go to work. I put the leash on my dog and we headed outside. Now that I have Lucky, I have to wake up earlier since I can't take the bus with him... I pouted, I had no choice anyway.

While walking I looked around. I wondered if our regular customers would come today. Well, I hope so. I really miss them. We joyfully arrived at the restaurants. The cooks were already here. I ran to them. Was I late? The explained that they just wanted to come early for my first day as the manager. I felt really touched and I opened the restaurant. The cooks went in the kitchen. Chanyeol soon arrived and asked me what he had to do. I handed him a broom and we started to clean the restaurant.

I was adjusting the tables when the phone rang. It was BigBang's manager. I almost choked on my saliva. How did he know about the restaurant's phone number? He explained that Leeteuk told Daesung about the restaurant. I felt really gratefull toward my stepbrother. The manager then asked if they could have a reservation for five people for tonight. I answered that it was okay and took the reservation before hanging up. Chaenyeol looked at me and asked if something good happened. I smiled at him and jumped around saying that Big Bang's member would come to eat tonight. He raised an eyebrow. That was really a surprise. I nodded fast.

My excitement disappeared as I remembered that Big Bang was Tiffany's favorite band. I sighed. I couldn't even enjoy seeing them. We kept on cleaning the restaurant until the first customers arrived. I was glad to see that all of our regular customers were here. They all asked how my father was. I reassured them and introduced the new waiter to them. They seemed to accept him. It was a relief. The next customers were Yuri and Minho. He was in a wheelchair but seemed fine. I placed them on a table and took their order. Lucky went to greet them. Minho told me that Yoogeun already missed Lucky. I chuckled and said that he could visit him at anytime. They thanked me.

Customers after customers, Chanyeol and I served all of them. Once the last customers went out of the restaurant; we sat on a chair. People always think that waiter isn't a hard job, but it's the opposite. We have to run around the restaurant took take orders. Fortunately, all of our customers are nice. But if one day we have a mean one, we just have to bear it. The customer is always right, even if he is wrong. I wiped away sweat from my forehead. One of the cook told us that they were lacking apples. I stood up. I told Chanyeol to follow me so I could show him where we usually shop. I took Lucky with us.

I showed him where we were buying our meat. He nodded and we arrived to a vegetables and fruit shop. I explained him that it sold the best fruits and vegetables. I asked him to watch Lucky while I was buying the apples. The manager of this shop was Lee Kwangsoo, my father's childhood friend and my uncle. I really like him. He is really funny. Once he noticed me, he ran to me and hugged me. I chuckled while hugging him back. He told me that he just came back from the hospital where my father was. I thanked him for taking a good care of him. He flicked my head saying that it was normal for him to take care of his friends.

I bought the apples and took Kwangsoo outside to introduce him to Chanyeol. They shook hand. We joked in front of the shop for a few minutes before heading back to the restaurant. I told my employee that he was free for now but he had to come back for six pm. He bowed to me and left the restaurant. I guess that I should leave too but I didn't know where to go. I was lazy to come back home. The cooks left the restaurant as well. I decided to bring Lucky to the park.

I crossed the road and walked in the park. Lucky was interested by everything. I didn't want to take off the leash yet. I was worried that Lucky would run away. I walked him around the park. He looked delighted. He kept on looking around, and when another dog approached him, he wanted to play with the dog. After an hour in the park, I decided that we had to go back to the restaurant. It was four pm. I couldn't wait for tonight. I was excited to meet Big Bang. Even though my favorite band was Super Junior, I really liked Big Bang too.

The minutes sounded like hours. I really wanted to meet them. I laid my head on the table. I had two hours to wait. It's too long. I kept on whining. Chanyeol then arrived and saw me like this. He made fun of me. I stuck out my tongue to him and we laughed together. The time to open the restaurant finally arrived. the first customers were new ones. They looked really friendly. I led them to a table and served them.

After a hour, Big Bang finally arrived. All the girls that were here started to scream. I chuckled, being an idol must be tough. Since I was already busy, Chanyeol took care of them. I was quite jealous but a customer is a customer, famous or not. They all should be treated the same. Between two orders, I found the time to greet them. I asked them if they liked the dishes. They nodded and complimented me for the food. I bowed to them and let them finished their meal.

I cleaned an empty table. Tiffany would be really jealous to know that I talked to Big bang. I shook my head as I realized what I was thinking. I shouldn't think about her. I promised myself. I sighed. That would be harder than I thought. Why is it more painful than the first time? I really don't get it.  After three hours of serving the customers, we finally finished. We were exhausted. When the cooks and Chanyeol left, I sat at a table too look at today's recipe. We didn't do bad. I wanted to save some money to buy new tables and new chairs. Those were a bit old.

I carefully closed the restaurant and headed back home with Lucky. He was aslo sleepy. He kept on yawning while walking. That was quite cute. I didn't like to walk at night. I always feel insecure. In all movies, the girls are always kidnapped or at night. I walked faster. I should stop watching these kind of movies. That's not good. I soon arrived at the tenement. I rushed in. It was quite cold outside. My dog and I climbed the stairs and quickly went inside my apartment. I fed Lucky and ate something too. I stretched. I was really sleepy. As soon as I opened my room's door, Lucky ran in his corner and slept. I smiled, he was so cute. I undressed and took a shower before laying on my bed. I closed my eyes. This night, I fell asleep sooner than the other days.

It had been a whole week since Tiffany left me. Even though I tried my best to forget her, I couldn't. The pain was still the same. I had finished for the day and was heading back home. My father proposed to his girlfriend and the wedding will be in two months. It was great for them. Especially for my father. Chanyeol was doing a really great job and the customers loved him. I pushed my tenement's door. The only thing is that ever days looked alike. All were gray. I sighed as I was climbing the stairs. It was harder and harder everyday. Fortunately, I had Lucky, who brought happiness to me.

I noticed some luggage on my floor. I didn't know that one of my neighbors was going on a trip. Well, it wasn't really my business. I looked for the key in my bag. Because of the tiredness, I struggled to find it. After a few seconds, I finally found them and opened the door. I glanced backward to be sure that the neighbors were watching their luggage when I froze.

-".....Tiffany...." I whispered.

***********************************************THREE YEARS LATER*******************************************************

-"Haneul ! Lucky ! We are heading back home!"

Both of them ran to me. I held Haneul's hand. He swung our arms together. He asked me if he could go to the restaurant with me tomorrow. I chuckled and nodded. He joyfully jumped around. I told him to calm down while laughing. We entered in the tenement. Lucky and Haneul ran in the stairs. I wanted to told them to be carefull but that was useless. They wouldn't listen to me anyway. I greeted some neighbors on the way and walked in my apartment.

I went in the living room and told Haneul to change himself. He obeyed and walked in his room. He came back clumsily dressed. I sighed and adjusted his clothes. With his three year old, Haneul was a really clumsy boy. I pinched his nose and we headed out to my car. I passed the car license about a year ago. Now I was much more free than I was before. I placed Haneul in his seat and helped Lucky to get in. I sat on the driver's seat and rove away.

We were invited to Yuri's house for Yoogeun's birthday. He was already eight years old. Time flew away very quickly. Minho and Yuri moved away from their old house for a bigger one. I liked their new house. It wasn't too big nor too small. The perfect size. Minho was now a professional football player and he was quite talented. He was going to be in the national team in the next world cup. Yoogeun was really proud of his father. I was glad that my son and Yoogeun got along well. He acted like a big brother toward Haneul.

I parked the car in front of the house. I took Haneul out of the car and took the birthday present. I locked the car and we headed toward the house. I knocked on the door. Minho opened the door. Haneul jumped on him. We laughed and entered the house. Everyone was already here. Leeteuk, Baekhyun and Chanyeol were playing with Yoogeun while Donghae, Sora and Yuri where talking on the sofa. I greeted  all of them. I then felt some arms wrapping themselves around my waist. I smiled turned myself toward her. I wrapped my arms around her neck and kissed her lips. I bite her lower lip. She chuckled a bit. She caressed my cheeks gently and kissed my lips again. She hugged me tight. I snuggled my face in her neck. My heart raced a bit with a warm burn. 

-"Thank you for having chosen to forgive me then to forget me." She whispered 

-"Taeyeon eomma! Tiffany eomma! " Haneul called us.

After a last kiss, both of us walked toward the table where everyone was sitting, hand in hand.