Date: 07-10-20XX

 

Hey! now i can get searious cuz i'm writing on the right date. So what do we talk about?... oh yeah~ i said i would mention and talk about Su Ho.

So Su Ho is my friend, but i... long time ago maybe, no last year i was in the ninth grade... but unfortunatly i failed the year and right now i'm still in the ninth year... moving on~ swo last year Su Ho was on the X grade naww... i'm just kidding... no need to hine the number XD, so he was on the 8th grade '' last year '' so you could say i'm older than him. So last year on June on May, on month may 20XX i started to have feelings for him, but i didn't tell him right away... i tried to get closer to him joke around played around to get close to him and it worked :)

So one day i was walking with my best friend Levy. That day was almost 2 weeks before she... school fi... was about to be over so i guess i was wrong and it was june... -_- 

TEEHEE!

well i told Levy that i will confess my feelings for Su Ho and she was totally, how can i say it? hmm... optimistic?~ i'm not sure but yeah~ let's say optimistic. Well i asked her to call him for me and she did. When he got down and walked out of that door and looked at me i became nervous, but before i was waiting i was full of confidence like

 

hell yeah~ i can do this! XD

 

but as soon as i saw him my confidence meater went down. I was like

 

what shoul i do? O_o! what should i say?! oh god i'm gonna go kill myself now!

 

But then it was impossible, but i did not run away. I came up to him

 

her words words turned into shambles from nervousness~

 

I asked him if we could walk and talk, so we did

 

sigh, remembering this upsets me... allot

 

I told him directly, but not to direct... -_- I told him I liked him, first it was a long silence but long story short i was rejected, I didn't cry, but i was still in love with Su Ho... so the next day i gave him a letter with a braclet saying

 

sry i don't really know the words i wrote on the letter, but i think it was something like this

 

'' Hi Su Ho~... umm... you see, i still have feelings for you, can i like you... like if i can continue liking you? even if you don't like me. it's okay... i think... but can i? if i can then can you can wear the breacelet but if i can't then don't wear it, i'll be waiting tomorrow for the result XD ''

 

well i guess something like that~ but the problem is i still have a little bit of feelings for him but i'll talk about that in the end. So on the next day i saw him... wearing the bracelet   - w -  i was really happy, but it was a bit

 

sigh

 

then when we were about to gom... i mean go home we were in the same bus, i asked forhis number also another no... number HIS friends number. Night time came and i really wanted to text him and i did i asked him what and where he was and suprisingly he replied! i was over joyed!!! XD

 

I'm stressed =_=

 

we texted allot then. when i was sleeping calmly

 

it was 1:XXam i don't really remember but yeah something at the time

 

 He texted me, waking me up, i wondered who called me, pissing me off at a time but when i saw who it was from i became ok with it, he sent me a goodnight message with kisses

 

but it was a friendly one

 

but even though it was only a friendsly one i was still happy cuz he was the first one to say that to me, i was really happy XD, so at that time we texted again, but we sooner or later had to say goodnight to each other. afte all that i fell deeply in love with him like so much. So from then on we would test every night and chat sometimes on facebook. Then the day came... :c school ended... last day of school.

I called him to meet me at the back of the school, we went for a short walk and then soon had a seat on the stairs, we talked about the realationship that we were on, both of us were not sure, so we tried to be more mature about thos things, he said he was not sure if we should date each other he thinks it's a little bit too fast... but i do agree to that but, i really do love him, but i respected everything of what he said, so we didn't go out but i told him i'll wait, cuz he said he will think about it cuz he said he will think about it cuz it's not something that can be easily decided on and i do agree... but as i said i will wait. so then i sadly needed to go, i wanted to call him but i didn't have money on my phone, i was desperate to call him, i asked the bus driver if i could borrow his phone, i was too late i had to go, i cried TT_TT, i cried in the bus as i saw him pass by with his friends and family. It was heart breaking for me... i couldn't stop looking at his photo

 

Yes she is obssesed, creepy if you ask me

 

I know but i was really in love with him to much actuallt :/ A few weeks later he texted me saying that it wont work out between me and him... it made me crack, like rack= my heart cracked, i tried to hold it in i really did I texted him it's okay, that i'm all right, that if that's how he feels, i wont force myself onto him and i respect his descition... but as soon as i have sent that message i was devestated~?

Well that's Su Ho... that's my history with him, well not completely but it's enough