Hye in's pov:

I was scared ,hurt and worried because of his words and reaction, I mean what have I done? he looks disappointed maybe? angry? I couldn't figure that out but suddenly I felt his hands ,his warm soft hands cupping my face ,I froze I didn't know what to do or to be honest i didn't think but can you blame me??   his eyes were looking at me in way that I don't think I'm able to describe,it was soft not like he was looking at me few seconds ago yet it was sad ,hopeless and full of emotions ,you can see it . People say that eyes sometimes say what mouth can't believe me that's real "what have you done to me?" wait what have I done to him? I was just about to think but I couldn't I just felt burning soft lips against mine , wait is he out of his mind? is HE FREAKING KISSING ME!! 
Luhan is kissing me?!! that's wrong but why my body doesn't listen to me? 
it was feeling that made the cold winds turn into warm winds it was that kind of feeling that made my heart beat fast ,made my hands shake but I don't know how I could held into his chest ,maybe cause I wanted him to stay and not break the kiss? as I held into his chest I felt really small ,he surrounded me by his warm chest and arms ,my eyes were closed ,I parted my lips to give him ..to give us and to give our lips to feel that strong yet amazing feeling ,his scent made my knees shake ,the way when he my hair as we kissed everything made me crazy ,I lost it I can't believe I did .
My mind told me to slap him but something inside me rejected that order ,his lips were so soft that made me want more more of it more of him

when he pulled away I felt like the magic stopped like I was in wonderland and just came back to reality,you might wont believe me but Its like the wind became colder ...Well if you think about it that might be real because his warm body was so close to mine and it's heat ..you know...
ok what I'm talking about? it makes me dizzy whenever i remember that magical moment 
he leaned closer to me, I didn't have time think ..again
"I'm sorry" he whispered,his tone was like he was heavy with thoughts ,then he smirked ...
is he seriously smirking? Now? 
"I'm sorry but I'm not taking it back"
*is that all you gave to tell me? after kissing me you say I'm sorry but I'm not taking it back? but wait Hye In why are you disappointed** I'm sorry but I'm not taking it back.... I'm sorry but I'm not taking it back.. I'm sorry but I'm not taking it back* I just stood there with these words playing inside my head like a rhyme ,then he turned his heels and walked , I just blinked there 
He went walking to the beach side not to the hotel side , I swear I don't know what happened but I just ran to the hotel ,it's like I wanted to hide and hug my pillow then think there so I won't let my heart explode ,my head is telling me to get angry cause obviously he was messing with me 
but why? why is he like this? he was acting like he hates me then he just did that * I'm sorry but I'm not taking it back ,what's that supposed to mean ,he's leaving me in a massive maze alone* I ran to my room or to our room 
the room was dark and I didn't dare to turn on the lights ,it was like I'm scared to face myself ,the bed was empty and I didn't know if i should be thankful cause he left or upset because he did it like nothing and left 
*But how could what happened be nothing ,I mean that feeling was just...indescribable,he must felt something right?* the cold pillow hugged me like it's telling me it's ok you will face things like that from him again...
the clock kept doing it's  tick tock like it's telling me that I have to sleep especially with the fact that we have a photoshoot tomorrow 
3 am and Luhan still god knows where and I still hugging my pillow trying to kick the scene out of my head so these beats will slow a bit and my freaking hands will stop shaking , the thing is I liked it...No, I loved it
and I want more it's stupid and wrong and maybe it's just because it's my freaking first kiss and he just stole it like that!!!
I finally closed my eyes it was 4:30 as I remember and I got to rest for like 2 hours after thinking the whole night and fighting with myself in a battle Luhan created . The phone made me open my eyes slowly ,just when I opened it I looked around for him but he wans't there ,the cold water ddidn't help my face that much to look like I had enough sleep hours , I changed my clothes and closed the door as I got out of the hotel room *how I'm going to face him? how will he react? it was nothing I'm sure he was just being a jerk for god knows why*
"Morning" I greeted everyone but my eyes were searching for someone "where is Luhan?" I heard Kris's deep voice that made e blink *oh so he's not here and I was looking for him like an old housewife*
"Uh I don't know" I smiled awkwardly when Sehun pulled a chair and let me sit between him and Kris "so what do you mean by saying I don't know? I thought you guys stayed together!!"
*oh well your crazy friend was being crazy then he just kissed me and disappeared* 
"did you kick him out of the room?" Kai asked while drinking his juice 
as I lifted my head I saw him walking to us with a poker face and tired eyes "are you talking about me?" he asked as he sat down 
none of us answered ,I was trying to avoid looking at him but oh I fo