Cheonsa-Angel, Sorry, this is not .. I'm trying my hard to make Yeteuk in the future..

Warning! Character death~

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"I love you.. I always do.." The husky yet gentle soft voice, I can still remembered it, clearly, till this day.

It's sunny today, Wonnie ah. I hate sunny days, you know that right.

And it's been exactly 365 days since that day.

Which means, it's a year.

A year since you've been gone.

Digging my nails into my shoulder, I slumped to the walls.

I miss you.

I miss you so much..

So much that it hurts me too much..

Tears running down my cheeks.. 

I lose all the energy to wipe it away..

The sun is shining too much.

I don't like it..

I really don't like it, take me with you..

Take me with you, Siwon ahh..

With all my heart, I yelled with the energy that is left of me.

"WHY DID YOU LEAVE ME?? WHY??"

I cried..

There's nothing that I can do better than crying.

Just crying..

Till I lose the track of time.

Though..

How many time had passed?

An hour?

Two?

I don't know.

But I know someone lifted me up into his arm.

They are warm.

They are familiar.

I want to snuggles closer.

To let myself close my eyes.

Without any tears this time.

I want him to hold me tighter.

I want someone.

To told me.

Something that I need to hear.

But..

I myself don't know, what do I want to hear..

I can feel my body was pressed down gently on the mattress.

I can feel those warm breath on my neck.

Is it you, Siwon?

No.. 

It's not. It's someone else.

Two reasons..

First.

I know your scent, your hold, your hand size..

I always know. 

When it comes to you..

I just didn't know when that time came..

Second.

You're not coming back again.

I can feel a finger, brushing my tears away.

Gently, a hand my cheeks.

"I don't want to see you in tears.. Not anymore.. Smile for me, not for Siwon, not for anyone else but for me.. Please.. "

I opened my eyes, slowly.. Still adjusting to the light in the room.

A familiar figure sat beside me.

Taking my hand, and kiss it repeatedly.

I know who he is..

"Chullie?"

He looks up, facing me straight into the eyes.

"Teukie.. My Teukie.." He said.

He pulled me, into his warm embrace.

"I'm sorry.. I'm sorry.. I'm sorry.." He kept on chanting it.

"Why would you be sorry..?" 

I clenched on his shirt which by now, is wet by my tears.

"If-if.. If just.. I didn't left you alone.. When you need someone the most.."

I didn't answered.

"From now on.. Let me take care of you.. Let me.. Please. Let me. Heal your wounds and cherish you.. Let me be the one who you called every time you need someone. Let me the one.. Who will love you.. Please, let me.. I love you Teukie.. I love you too much that it doesn't matter to me if I'm just being a replacement for him!"

I pulled myself away from him but I cupped his cheek with my hand.

"Will you be able to.. To love me? To erase him? "

"I will.. I will.."

"Take me away.. From all the pain that he left me with.. Please Chullie ah.. Please.. I'm begging you."

"I'm taking you away.. We will belong to each other now.. I will always be there, for you..  I will keep on loving you because it's the only thing that I dreamt of, since the beginning.. I had always love you.. I want to be there, for you and only you."

We both cried..

Crying so hard that in the end, we fall asleep..

For the first time after you gone. 

I finally able to sleep well.

I wonder why, but I think I might know the answer.

When I woke up that morning.

It was all sunshine.

For the first time as well, I like the sunshine.

Do this mean, we let each other go?

I smiled.

I love you, Choi Siwon.

I always do.

But for the time being.. 

Let me escape from all the pain.

For not having someone to be by my side.

I'm sorry..

My love for you was too much that I can't live without you.

But you said it to me, once.. 

Whatever it takes to heal my wounds that you will leave me with.

So, I'm taking this chance.

To see the world with the new light.

Because I have heard the words that I always wanted to hear.

"I want to be there for you.."

A strong arm wrapped around my waist.

"You're smiling.." He whispered.

"I am." I replied. 

Then, I look at the ring on my finger.

"It's okay.. You can still wear it.. Because you are mine right now, such small things can't take you away from me." He told me.

Hungrily, he kissed me all over.

It was like tons of brick was lifted up from my shoulder.

I'm sorry Siwon ah, but you are gone.. 

And I still alive.

Besides, I didn't hear the words that I always wanted to hear.

Nevertheless, I still love you and you're my first husband.

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"Oi, Chul.." Siwon said as he wipes away all those smokes.

"What?" Heeechul inhale more of the cigarettes and hold it for a moments before he puffed it out.

"You love him.. You had always love him.. Don't you?" Siwon's eyes were down casted that day.

"And?"

"When I'm no longer capable to take care of him.. Nevermind.." Siwon started to walk aways

Before he get back into his car.

"When you is finally at that stage, that is when I take him away from you."

"I know you will.."

And not long after that conversation, like two days later..

Choi Siwon was gone.

He was on his way back to his home..

Back to his lovely wife, who has been waiting for him all day long..

But he didn't.

He didn't come back home.

He had an accident.

That cost him his life.

And his angel's smile.

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"Morning.." Heechul says to his lover who was still half asleep. 

"It's still early.."

"But we don't want to miss our flight, don't we?" Heechul smirked.

"Flight?"

"To Paris, our honeymoon.."

With that, Leeteuk sat up straight and winced when he felt a jolt of pain in his bottom.

"Guess we overdid it last night?" Heechul said, kissing his now wife on the forehead.

"You monster.." Leeteuk pouted.

"The monster that makes you screamed in pleasure all night, I wouldn't mind that.." Heechul's statement managed to make Leeteuk turn red.

Heechul pulled his blushing wife and kiss him gently, "My lovely angel.. I won't let you go.Never.."

"Cause, there was one time, I had let you go. And I regretted it.. But this time, I'm not leaving you.. Never again.."

You move on doesn't mean you forget him. .

You're just adjusting with his absence..

And loving someone else doesn't mean that you forget your first love too..

Sometimes, you just need someone..

To love you..

And hold you..

And sometimes, you need to let go..

To return that beautiful smile..

You once had..