You are unaware of my love.

I made sure of that.

It's been so long since I seen you.

Now all I want to do when I go out is to bump into you.

I always secretly hope that your life is miserable without me.

But after seeing those pictures, its clear that you are happy and fine without me.

I also secretly hope that you are good at lying, then I can hope that your happiness shown through the pictures was all a lie.

I really miss you.

Ever since the school ended, ever since I was not allowed to sit beside you anymore.

I was truly stupid I realise that to even have hope.

I always had hope in you unlike the others.

The other crushes I had.

You were different, I actually talked to you.

I truly fell into the deep well of love.

And I hate that its so hard to climb out.

Is it selfish for me to hope for you to never fall in love with anyone else until I truly find my strength to confess.

Whenever you stare at me.

Whenever you lean your hands on mine.

Whenever you lean your head against my shoulder or back.

You truly make it hard for me to forget you.

The moments replay in my mind.

They never stop neither will my feelings.

I hate it.

I hate that I cannot forget you.

My eyes will always water when I think about you.

You'll never be mine right.

Its against how life should work.

Sometimes I wish that when I sometimes stare into your eyes you knew how I felt.

You're the only one I give the privilege of looking into my eyes.

I never let anyone do that not even my former crushes not even my friends not even my family member.

I only want to look into your eyes.