Prologue
Ambivalence
This is it. My first day attending Seoul High. Is this the right thing to do? Will I be able to get along with the people here? Will I be able to get good grades for once?
I was a terrible student. Low grades, disobeying orders, mixing with the wrong people, getting into fights. I was always the victim though, who wants an ugly beaten up face that makes people think you’re just some lowlife trash.
I had no choice.
My mum, she died due to lung cancer three years ago, and that’s when it all started.
I became restless.
Emotional.
I was not myself anymore.
My dad turned into an alcoholic. He would come home drunk everynight, sometimes he would just stay out.
He’s just…..ruined.
My dad lost his mind when my mum left, he didn’t really care about his life anymore.
Neither do I.
Why did I transfer?
I can’t take it anymore. To be honest, I don’t like being like this at all.
Being someone I’m not,
Being with the wrong people,
Rebelling,
I’m tired.
The thought of my mum seeing me like this, just makes me want to slaughter myself.
I wanted to start all over again.
I wanted to runaway and never look back.
What about my dad?
He was arrested for child abuse.
Yes. I was abused.
Although it hurts, but this was my only chance.
Chance to break free.
Life is like riding a bicycle. To keep your balance, you must keep moving.
I need to keep moving, I can’t just stay there and do nothing.
Even if I don’t know where I’m going, any road will take me to a new world.
And that’s all I want.
There were alot of mistakes I made, but a life spent making mistakes is more useful than a life spent doing nothing actually.
I learned from my mistakes, and I don’t want to repeat it ever again.
But I’m scared, what if I’m not as brave as I think I am.
I’m trying now. Trying to find my old self again.
My name is Jung Seyeon. And this is the beginning to my new world, my new life.
Will I play it right?
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