Please enjoy~ this is the first part of this ending. It's turned out rather long and I haven't finished it yet. So comments of encouragement would be fantastic.
Thank you all for sticking around and I hope you enjoy it. *blows kisses*

Your POV~

Following the breakup and separation from Kiseop I decided that it would be a good idea to leave Korea all together. It felt like I didn’t have a family to lean on anymore whether it be my U-KISS family or my actual family. Leaving was my decision although it hurt me so much. I missed them all so much. It was painful leaving them but I didn’t know what else to do.

After finding a job and settling in it felt like I had found my place again, although it might not be with the people who love me the most, I was still happy to be away from all of the drama. Decidedly I moved to New York shortly after leaving Korea, spending 12 months looking for a job before I finally landed a job at a dance company. I receive compliments daily from my colleagues praising my dancing, but if it wasn’t for Kiseop and Eli, I wouldn’t be receiving such love. I miss those two more than the others, of course it would be natural, they were my rocks at one point in time... but now they were nothing.

Finishing earlier than usual I decided to make my way to my favourite restaurant, being in a good mood I thought I would treat myself. After becoming a proper dancer I had begun to eat better and exercise regularly, because I didn’t have anyone to compete with anymore all I did was focus on myself and I became the healthiest I had ever been, minus the Korean pig outs I would occasionally have every few weeks which would be, of course followed with an intense gym session the following day.

I was actually surprised how much I missed Korean food, although I didn’t initially grow up with it, I became accustom to it, but now I didn’t live there anymore I missed Kevin’s Mum’s homemade Kimchi and Gimbap.

Ordering my dinner I waited patiently in the entrance, listening to my iPod, I couldn’t help but listen to K-Pop when it came to being by myself. I missed more than just U-KISS but the whole of Korea. I dedicated one day of the week to catching up on K-Drama, Music Shows and reworking all of the U-KISS choreography. I never wanted to forget a single dance, so I continued to practice.

Jaeseop POV~

Over the other side of the restaurant I was dining with my school friends, when I looked up and noticed a familiar looking person. Doing a double take I excused myself from my friends and carefully approached her. Upon realising it was ___ I smiled to myself and cocked my head to the side, trying to gain her attention by staring at her. Moving closer, her attention shifted to my feet, my grey converse catching her eye. Looking up she scanned my body to be greeted by a smile, a Cheshire cat like smile. From the lips, to the nose and then the eyes I could tell she felt warmth wash over her. It was none other than me, Jaeseop.

‘Hi Stranger.’ I smiled at her.

‘Hey.’ She couldn’t help but smile back. After a second she jumped out of her seat and was welcomed into a warm embrace.

‘This is where you’ve been hiding?’

‘Yeah, good ol’ New York.’

‘Not exactly the most low key place in the world, considering I am here frequently.’

‘I didn’t even think about that… and I was the one who told you to come to school here as well.’

‘I know but yet you hide out here. Besides running away and hiding how have things been?’ I smiled sitting down next to her.

‘They’ve been okay, not the best. Took 12 months to find a job, I was almost doing an Eli and living off ramen for a while. But I’m on my feet now, working  5 days a week. I’m dancing still, I thought why give it up?’

‘I’m happy for you. As long as you’ve found peace?’

‘No, I’m still trying to find it. I miss everyone terribly but it’d be a mistake if I went back.’

‘I don’t blame you. Things haven’t changed much.’

‘Didn’t think they would, I have been monitoring though, I haven’t stopped since I left. Seems like you’re all still going hard.’

‘Trying too, it’s getting difficult to keep going but we just seem to keep pulling through.’

‘It’ll be 8 Years soon right?’

‘Yeah, our 8th Anniversary. It’ll be my 11th this year too.’

‘Wow, 11 years since debuting wow… boy does time fly.’

‘___, you’re order is ready.’ The ajhumma interrupted the two of us.

‘Ah, that’s me.’ She smiled standing up taking it from the lady.

‘Let me pay.’

‘I’ve already paid though.’

‘How about next time then? I want to catch up again… only if you want too. I’ve missed talking to you.’

‘Okay sounds good… AJ just don’t tell anyone you saw me, okay I don’t want them to know.’

‘Of course, you’re secret is safe with me.’

‘Fantastic. I’ll give you my number. Just message me later.’ Passing my phone over to her she put in her number with a smile. ‘Have a good night AJ.’

‘You too, Be safe ___.’ She gave me one final hug, it was longer than the other obviously she must’ve felt at home or something again. I must’ve reminded her of what use to be, which is good I suppose.

~

Two weeks later we decided to catch up again, ___ had been busy with work so she had barely had any time to eat let alone sleep. So she was exhausted and thought that maybe hanging out with me would boost her energy a little bit. I decided to meet her at her apartment after school so that the two of us could head straight out. We didn’t have an exact plan but ___ knew it would be a major catch up session.

Once I arrived the two of us left and walked around for a little while, talking as we went. Stopping at Starbucks I treated her to a much needed coffee as she practically hadn’t stopped yawning from the moment we met.

‘So how long have you been back in New York?’

‘About a month, I’m doing two semesters this time around. So I’m here all year.’

‘Wonderful, that means I can expect to see more of you I suppose?’

‘Yeah, lots more. You’re my slice of home in a way, so it’s nice.’

‘It is, I’m kind of glad to know you are here so if I ever need someone to talk to.’

‘I’ve always been there for you. When you left Korea things may not’ve been the best and  I shouldn’t have yelled at you but I just wanted you to do what was best for everyone.’

‘And running away was it. It seems like things aren’t as rocky anymore.’

‘They still are… just not as much as it was while you were around. Kiseop still thinks about you all the time and complains about missing you. Eli is pretty silent, but I know he still misses you too. He gets angry sometimes and blames himself for you leaving.’

‘It’s kind of nice to know they haven’t forgotten about me.’

‘I don’t think they were going too. You’re such a big part of our lives, it was hard letting you go.’

‘D-did anyone try to chase me?’ ___ looked at her hands, obviously feeling nervous about my answer.

‘Kind of… since you didn’t exactly break up with Kiseop he went after you when you stormed out of the venue. He followed you out and watched you leave. I remember his reaction when you left the note for us. He was on the floor sobbing, muttering about how sorry he was and how it was such a stupid idea for you to leave.’

Looking at her facial expressions she must’ve felt hurt, for her to hurt someone she loves so much must be so painful, not only for Kiseop but for her too. She still loves him, how could you not. He is Kiseop after all.

‘Eli on the other hand kept quiet. He didn’t say much for a while, I began to get worried about him and also you. But the one thing I remember the most, we arrived home from Japan and I took Kiseop back to your apartment. Half of your stuff was gone and all you left was a note on the counter. Kiseop broke down before he even read the note, as I read it I knew he wasn’t going to want to. There was so much pain in his face, I’d never seen him so hurt. None of it is your fault though ___, you needed to leave for your own good. So don’t feel guilty.’

‘I always feel guilty though AJ, what if I had stayed? Would things have gotten better?’

‘I’m not sure ___. It depends on whether you stayed with Kiseop or went back to Eli I suppose. But even now you probably don’t know do you?’

‘No, I still don’t know who I would’ve chosen. I seriously miss them both so much, I wonder some days why I am still here and why I haven’t gone back to Korea. Now I’ve seen you, I miss it even more. Don’t you feel like you’re missing a part of you while you’re away?’

‘I do, all the time and knowing this time that I was going to be here for a year it hurt. But now I know you are here, I can make it through. As I said you’re like my little slice of home, somewhere I can run to when I need too. ___ if we stick together, things will work out.’ Taking one of her hands I gave her a comforting smile. With a deep sigh she smiled back at me, wondering if what I said was true. Things were going to get better, right?

For the next few months the two of us met up regularly and I would tell her of any news I received from the others. Being back in the loop of her family must have made her happy, well as happy as she could be without them knowing she was completely up to date with what they were doing, but I was happy that I had someone to share all of this with. I could tell my friends, but it wouldn’t be the same. I also found myself enjoying her company more and more. Aside from the drama that happened with Kiseop and Eli all those years ago I still liked her and still had feelings for her. I said I was going to wait for the perfect girl... but I just haven’t found her yet.