First of all, yes you may hate me for not updating for god knows how long. 

Second, no, I did NOT abandon this story and I can promise you guys that there will be new chapters, however, they won't be here anytime soon. 

The reason why I haven't been updating is because school is busy as HELL with my final examinations coming up. I also had in between exams (if that's a way to say it) and I hope it's clear for you guys that I give my full concentration to school right now. I have know that I would go study Japanese for nearly 3 years already, and it's my dream. I can't let my dream slip away because of writing and I knew that if I would've done that, I would've hated myself forever. 

Also, and this is just ed up, no matter in what kind of situation you are, my parents got divorced. Guys, I'm 17. My parents' divorce is something I still struggle with, even though I knew that it was going to happen since the start of this school year. Also, my mom immediately got a new boyfriend. That hurts. A hell of a lot. I don't like the guy, probably never will. My parents and everyone in my family know that. Yet my parents keep pushing me to meet the guy, but I know that if I would do that, I'd probably start crying and yelling and clawing his eyes out and cutting off his and balls... I've seen the guy a few times and once I saw him on a terrace with my mom and one of my younger sisters, and my good mood immediately went down. 

Another thing I've been very busy with lately, and now only good things come, is preparing for senior prom :D I already got the cutest dress and amazing shoes (they are 10 cm heels... But I can walk in them :D I won't be a dwarf anymore :D (no , I'm 153 cm short...)), really nice accesories and I already know how I want my hair, makeup and nails and my sisters are going to do it so I won't have to spend a lot of money on it ^^

The final thing I've been busy with, is my music. There are several projects going on and one of them is a festival for a jubilee or something... However, it's really fun :D

Oh yeah. 

I've also been busy preparing for FRIGGIN' B.A.P IN DÜSSELDORF IN MAY :D 

But seriously though, why won't they come to the Netherlands >.>

Well, I guess that's it. My exams will start on May 12 and will finish on May 20 if I'm right. After that, you can count on weekly updates again :D

I'm really sorry for not updating for so friggin' long, but I hope you guys do understand and remember that I still love you <3

Before I forget,

HAPPY BIRTHDAY JOELLE !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

I love you to no ends <333333