Separation
I Believe In Your ExistenceIndex:
Daehyun speaking
Young Jae speaking
Others speaking
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This... is my untold story. I don’t really know if anyone out there can hear me, but... I felt like I should at least tell this story. Hopefully.. my story won’t go forgotten, but at least I had been able to accomplish what was needed to be done. I guess.. I’ll start at the beginning. After all... there must be a beginning to each story.
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“Hey, wake up. It’s already nine.” I held a smile as I attempted to wake my sleeping beauty. Young Jae only resisted though, as he placed his arm over his face in an attempt to keep sleeping. “Yah.. Young Jae. Wake up already.” I moved his arm off of his face as I leaned down and softly kissed his lips.
“Mm... why..?” Young Jae barely opened his eyes as he looked at me. I smiled as I planted another soft kiss on his lips, causing him to smile and attempt to push my face away from him with his free hand. “No.. I want to sleep more..”
I gave a small smile as I sat down next to Young Jae, slowly caressing his arm. I heard Young Jae chuckle a bit as he turned to look at me. “Daehyuun.. Let me sleep. I’m still sore from last night..”
“Come on! Let’s go. We have to go out today.” Young Jae quickly faced his back towards me, pulling the blanket over his head as he shook his head. Well, it looked like he was shaking his head. I knew his head was moving at least.
“I don’t wanna! It’s too early..”
“It’s already nine!” I pulled the blanket off of him. In an instant, I soon found myself laying back on the bed with Young Jae sitting on top of me, pinning my shoulders down as he looked down at me with a smirk on his face.
“I don’t care if it’s nine. I don’t work today.. unless you wanted to have some.. fun.”
I chuckled a bit as I soon turned the tables on Young Jae and pinned him down to the bed. “I would love to have some fun, but we have a date today, unless you’ve forgotten.” I leaned down and kissed his lips once more before getting off of the bed.
“Okay, okay.. I’m up, but only because you’re so persuasive.” I turned to look at Young Jae, whom was now in a sitting position and stretching. “But, this better be a really fun date to wake me up so early!”
I smiled a bit. “It’ll be fun, I promise. Now, go get ready.” I noticed Young Jae staring at me before a pout crossed his face and he soon crossed his arms. A single brow raised as I stared at Young Jae myself. “What’s wrong?”
“You’re already dressed!”
“So?”
“I wanted to shower with you..” I chuckled a bit as I sat back down onto the bed, taking a hold of Young Jae’s hand and slowly caressing it. His pout didn’t seem to want to leave his cute face though, despite my caressing.
“I’ll shower with you after we have some fun later tonight, okay?” Young Jae’s pout never left, but he slowly nodded before he got up out of bed and made his way to the bathroom. My smile only seemed to widen as I got up form the bed and soon left the bedroom.
I sat there in the living room, waiting patiently as Young Jae got ready for the day. What day was it today anyway? Quickly pulling out my phone, I checked to see the date and time. At the moment it was nine twenty-two in the morning and it was April fifteenth today. It was pretty chilly out today as well, so we couldn’t exactly dress lightly. Then again, I wouldn’t want other people to stare at Young Jae with any form of lust in their eyes. Young Jae was only for me.
Looking over to the door, I finally saw that Young Jae was finally ready. Getting up to my feet, I made my way over to Young Jae and wrapped my arms around his waist from behind while he had been picking up his house keys.
“You’re finally ready.”
“Yea. I get ready faster than you.” I pulled Young Jae closer to me, if that was even possible. Young Jae placed his hands on my arms as he turned and gave me a kiss. “But that’s okay.. as long as I get to be held by you like this forever.”
“Okay. Then I’ll take as long as I want because you’ll always have me.” I smiled as it was my turn to kiss Young Jae once again. I chuckled a bit as he moved his hands to hold mine and gave my hands a tight squeeze.
“Okay, let’s go already. You were in a rush earlier and now we’re taking so long to leave. I could have gotten more sleep if we were going to take this long!” I nodded and chuckled a bit before I let go of Young Jae, though I quickly took a hold of his hand as we finally left the apartment to head to where I had already planned to go for the day.
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“Why are we here?” I looked at Young Jae, whom was looking around a bit confused at first before his gaze finally landed on me. I smiled a bit as I gave his hand a slight squeeze. “Well? Is that your only answer?”
“Maybe. Do you really wanna know?” Young Jae nodded eagerly, though it only caused me to end up chuckling a bit at how cute he was. I looked forward as we continued walking, making sure that Young Jae’s path was clear as crystal. “Well.. you’ll see when we get there.”
Instantly, Young Jae squeezed my hand as hard as possible and I only laughed a bit as I attempted to get him to stop. “Young Jae! You’ll see soon, I promise! Stop squeezing my hand now!”
“Why are you always teasing me..” I chuckled as I felt his grip lighten up once more. As much as I loved holding his hand, I didn’t exactly want to lose my hand. How else was I going to be able to hold his hand?
Soon enough, we arrived at our first location. I could feel Young Jae’s stare on me as I looked up at the store. I turned to look at Young Jae as I attempted to hold in my laughter the second I saw his expression. “I know what you’re thinking.”
“No.. you don’t.”
“Yea.. I do. Don’t worry. We’re just getting coffee first. We’re not going to actually spend our entire date here.” Young Jae looked back up at the coffee shop, that we usually go to every morning on our way to work, before looking back over at me. His expression didn’t really seem to change all that much.
“I was right. I was thinking.... are we really going to be getting coffee?”
“Huh? You don’t want coffee?” Young Jae slowly shook his head, a slight pout on his face. It only caused me to pout before I used my free hand to pet the top of his head. I didn’t know why, but seeing his cute pout made me want to comfort him somehow.
“Okay.. we won’t get coffee. Let’s go get something to eat first.” Young Jae’s expression brightened up as he nodded. I smiled as we soon began walking once more. I looked over at Young Jae, who looked up at me almost instantly. “Where do you want to eat?”
“Anywhere is fine. I just want to spend time with you.” He quickly pecked my cheek with a kiss before placing his head on my shoulder. I leaned my own head onto his as we walked side by side, slightly warming each other up with our body heat. Days like this, it just made me want to keep walking forever with him.
“What about here?”
“Yea.. this is a fine place.” I moved my head away from Young Jae’s head as he took his head off my shoulder. He looked at me and gave me a small smile, though I couldn’t help but raise a single brow at his random smile.
“Why are you smiling?”
“Because I’ve wanted to eat here for a while now and I get to finally try it!” I chuckled a bit before I led Young Jae into the restaurant. We looked around and luckily, it didn’t seem all that busy today. It did seem like a really good restaurant and I felt like we were lucky to get here at this time.
“Table for two?” I turned my attention to the hostess, whom was currently waiting for our response. I smiled and nodded before she began obtained two menu’s. “This way, please.”
We followed after the hostess before we finally got to the booth. We sat across from each other as we took a hold of our own menu’s and began looking through it. Everything looked quite interesting and it did make it a bit difficult to decide. “What are you going to get?”
“I don’t kn- Ooh, I know what I’ll get. What about you?”
“I.. don’t actually know. Can you pick for me?” Young Jae looked up from his menu, a look of disbelief clear on his face as he stared at me. I lowered my menu as I tried my absolute best to make a puppy dog face. “Pretty please? I can’t decide on anything..”
Young Jae sighed before he looked back down at his menu. At first, I thought that he had decided not to help me decide. It was a bit discouraging to know that my puppy dog face didn’t work, but Young Jae did seem to surprise me. “Fine. I’ll pick for you. Just don’t do that face again! It’s too.. much...”
I grinned and got up in my seat as I leaned across the table and gave Young Jae a kiss on his forehead. “Y-YAH! D-Daehyun! W-We’re in public..” I sat back down, but my grin never left my face for the time being.
“You kissed me earlier!” Young Jae looked up at me with a bit of an angry look on his face, though.. I knew that he really wasn’t angry.
“That’s different!”
“How is that different?!”
“Because I’m allowed to do it in public! You don’t get to..” I chuckled as I closed the menu and placed it down onto the table. He did the same thing as he smiled a bit. “I chose for you.”
“Oh? What did you pick for me?”
“It’s a secret.” I pouted, but I guess it was alright. Surprises were nice after all and it’s not like he had to pick for me. If he wanted to keep it a secret until it got here, then that was alright by me. I did tend to do the same thing to him from time to time anyway, so maybe he was getting back at me.
Time had passed before we were finally able to order and had finally received our drinks. We sat there in silence, which did give me some time to go over what I had planned today. It seemed like a good date and I felt content with it for the time being. Plus, because of work, we usually sat around at our apartment, trying to rest up. It definitely felt nice to be out like this.
“Hey. What are you thinking about?”
“Huh..?” I pulled myself away from my thoughts as I focused on Young Jae. He sat there, waiting for an answer and I had to think about what his question was before I could answer. “Oh.. uh.. just thinking about how great our relationship is.”
Young Jae pouted, but I didn’t really know why. However, I felt that I would get my answer one way or another. When I didn’t ask Young Jae why he was pouting, he let out a slightly irritated sigh and seemed to give in. “You’re not going to ask?”
“Was I supposed to? I was.. kind of just waiting for an answer..” This only seemed to irritate Young Jae even more as he crossed his arms and looked away with the pout returning back onto his face. I instantly knew that he was going to give me the silent treatment if I didn’t do something about it soon.
“Young Jae.. honey..”
“Don’t call me honey.. pabo..” I didn’t really know how to fix this, but I still had to try. We were on our date and if Young Jae was in this kind of mood, then the date would be ruined. Why? Because I had unintentionally decided to be mean to him.
“Young Jae... I’m sorry. I didn’t mean to make you mad at me...” Young Jae only kept a strong front though, as he kept his arms crossed and his pouting angry face remained on his face. As cute as he was, I didn’t like seeing Young Jae like this. “Please Young Jae, I’m sorry. I really didn’t mean to..”
Young Jae gave me a quick glance before he turned back to whatever it was that he was looking at. I let out a small sigh and accepted defeat. Just as I slouched in my seat, I soon found myself sitting back up again. “Only great..?”
“Huh?”
Young Jae sighed as he let his arms drop to his sides. He turned to face me, a bit of a sad look on his face. “You said that our relationship is only great. Can’t.. can’t it be perfect? What’s missing?” Had I caused this thought to cross Young Jae’s mind?
“N-Nothing! Well.. the only thing missing.. is our wedding.” I took a hold of Young Jae’s left hand the second it showed up on top of the table. I pulled his hand as close to me as possible as I slowly caressed his hand. I looked at the engagement ring that was currently on his ring finger.
I smiled as I brought my lips to his knuckles and gave a soft kiss in the middle, slowly kissing my way down until I landed a kiss on the ring. As I pulled away, I looked up at Young Jae and smiled a bit. “Which is why I’m glad you accepted my proposal.”
Young Jae smiled as he turned a slight red. I felt that he was attempting to pull his hand away, but he seemed to stop himself. “I would never dream of refusing you. I... I love you so much Daehyun.”
My smile held as I kissed his hand once more before I allowed him to pull his hand away. He was really so cute for just being himself. I still remember the day I proposed. I was so nervous that day that I nearly threw the jewelry box when I tried to pull it out of my pocket. Though, Young Jae still accepted happily with.. quite a lot of energy in his voice.
Soon enough, the food had arrived. I didn’t even question the dish that Young Jae had ordered for me; anything Young Jae gets me is already perfect. When I looked up at Young Jae, he seemed happy for some odd reason. I guess it was alright as long as I saw that smiling face of his all the time.
“How’s your food?”
“Oh.. It’s good. You picked a really good one.”
“I’m glad you like it.” I looked back up at Young Jae and couldn’t help but feel a bit suspicious. However, I decided to drop my suspicions. Young Jae normally looked out for my well being, so he probably ordered something healthy for me. I guess it made sense with all that cheesecake I’ve been eating lately.
Once we were done with our food and everything was paid for, we set out once more. I could tell that Young Jae was curious since his grip on my hand was a bit tight at the moment. Hopefully, it would be an enjoyable date for Young Jae.
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“Do you feel that?”
“Y-Yea.. it.. it got a little colder.”
“Do you wanna know where we are?”
“Yes, I do.”
“Okay. I’m going to let you see now.” lowly, I removed my hands from Young Jae’s eyes. I smiled as Young Jae quickly turned to see me, then back at our destination, then back to me once more. “Do you like where we are?”
“Yes! I do! Daehyun.. I didn’t think that you wanted to go!” Young Jae had a bright smile on his face as he soon took a hold of both my hands. He was practically shaking with excitement by this point. It definitely bright a light chuckle from me.
“Well, I know you wanted to go a few months ago, but we couldn’t at the time. Now though, I made sure that we would be able to go. Plus.. I decided that I would come.. just for you.” He knew that I didn’t like coming here, but I had wanted him to be as happy as possible today. Well, I wanted him to always be happy, but today felt special.
“I’m so happy that we’re here! Come on, let’s go!” Young Jae pulled me along to the counter where we rented our ice skates before we made our way to the benches to put them on. Unlike Young Jae, I had a bit of trouble figuring out how the things worked.
Young Jae was the first one on the ice and I almost wanted to just sit here and continue watching him skate. His movement was smooth and graceful as he glided across the ice. The cold air made him look even more stunning than he already was, almost to the point of him glowing. I didn’t want to interrupt him, but his gaze soon landed on me as he made his way back over.
“Come on! You have to come to!”
I smiled sheepishly as I somehow managed to get to my feet and walk over to the entrance. I looked down at the ice before looking up at the outstretched hand. My eyes trailed up that hand and up to the face of the person that it was attached to. “I don’t know.. I kind of just want to watch you skate.”
Young Jae chuckled a bit as he took a hold of both my hands and got me onto the ice. If it wasn’t for the fact that I was holding onto Young Jae’s hands for dear life AND staying completely still, I probably would have fallen over already. “Y-Young Jae! You know I can’t skate! Go easy!”
“I’ll teach you! It’s not hard, I promise.”
“You said the same thing about cooking!”
Seconds turned into minutes and minutes felt like long hours that slowly ticked by. My feet were killing me by the time we finished and both my bottom and my knees were aching from falling over so many times. As I sat there on the bench, I continued to watch Young Jae, whom was still skating. I felt bad for not being able to skate alongside him, but I couldn’t exactly help it.
After a few more minutes had passed, Young Jae made his way back over to me and took a hold of my hands. “Come on! Get back in here already!” I looked up at Young Jae with a bit of ‘are you kidding me?’ look. He only ended up chuckling a bit as he continued pulling at my hands.
“Again?!”
“Yea! It’ll be great.” Despite my protests, I somehow ended up back onto my and out onto the ice. We had only moved a few feet before I soon came into contact with the all too familiar feeling of the cold ice. Young Jae stopped right next to me before sitting down. I looked over at him to see that he had fished his phone out of his pocket and was now taking a picture of us.
He quickly turned the phone and smiled before showing me the picture. Young Jae was looking perfect, as usual. As for me, I was giving a small smile, but I also looked defeated. “You look cute in the picture. I’m making this my wallpaper..”
“Yea, but you look perfect.” I leaned in close to Young Jae as I turned his head towards me and slowly kissed his lips. Our kissing intensified with each kiss that was exchanged, at least before Young Jae pulled away and got to his feet once more. He held his hand out to me as he gave a bit of a seductive smirk.
“You can wait for more when we get home.”
“Do I have to?” I sighed as I took a hold of his hand and was pulled up onto my feet. Young Jae nodded, his smirk turning into a gleeful smile. “Okay. I’ll wait until we get home.”
“Good. Now.. let’s try again!”
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We spent about three and a half hours at the ice skating rink before we finally left. I did sort of learn how to ice skate, but I wasn’t about to go back willingly any time soon. Though.. I did promise Young Jae that we would go ice skating again.
“I had a lot of fun today.”
“Yea, so did I.” Okay, so I didn’t really like ice skating. That didn’t mean that I didn’t have a good time. As long as I’m with Young Jae, I’ll always have a fun time. He just has that kind of effect on me.
“So, where are we going now.”
“Hm? You want to go somewhere else?” I looked at Young Jae, whom nodded happily. I smiled a bit as I held his hand once more to lead him back to the car.
Once we were inside and buckled up, we were on our way to our next destination. I took a hold of Young Jae’s hand and gave it a light squeeze before Young Jae took my hand in both of his hands and kept it on his lap. I made sure to keep my eyes on the road. I had to keep my baby safe after all.
“Where are we headed now?”
“Home.”
“Huh? Already?! B-”
“I’m kidding. You’ll see when we get there.”
“Well.. okay then.” To be honest, my plan wasn’t going the way I had it. It was too early at the moment to go where I wanted to go, so for now, I had to spend some time before nightfall came. Not a lot of places came to mind, but there was one thing that seemed to be able to spend just a few more hours. It didn’t really take long for us to get to the intended destination.
“Why are we here?”
“I want to spoil you today, so... you can get whatever you want around here.”
“I don’t know.. I don’t want you spending too much money.”
“It’s alright. Today, I want to make you feel super special.” I looked at Young Jae to see an unsure look on his face. I gave him a reassuring smile before we walked into one of the various stores here.
“Um.. what do you think.. of.. this one.” Young Jae held one of the shirts up to himself as he looked in my general direction. I thought for a moment as I tried to imagine Young Jae in the shirt he was holding. Once I was satisfied with my mental image, I nodded and he smiled before he continued looking.
I looked around as well before my eyes landed on something that I could use to tease Young Jae with. Taking a hold of the rather skimpy swimming bottom, I made my way over to Young Jae with the item hidden behind me. “Hey, Young Jae.”
“Hm?” Young Jae turned to look at me, but he instantly grew suspicious of the smirk that I currently had on my face. “Why are you giving me that kind of look? I don’t trust that look all that much..”
“Look? What look? I just found some nice... swimming apparel that I went to see you in.” I didn’t sound all that innocent at all. Heck, I would be surprised if Young Jae didn’t suspect a thing. Young Jae bit his bottom lip, looking like he was contemplating on whether he would regret seeing the clothing or not.
“Okay... what is it?” My smirk never left as I slowly moved my hand from behind my back to reveal the swim apparel to Young Jae. Young Jae’s eyes widened the second he saw it, his face turning a deep shade of red. Almost reminded me of a cute tomato.
“No! I’m not wearing that! It doesn’t even look like it would cover everything!”
I pouted as I lowered my hand a bit. “Who said I wanted you to cover everything?” I soon ended up laughing though as I attempted to protect myself from a punching Young Jae. “I’m kidding, I’m kidding! Stop hitting me already, please!”
In the end, I ended up buying it without Young Jae knowing. What? I was going to be able to see him in the swimsuit one way or another. Once we were done here, we visited a few more stores before we headed back to the car. Young Jae seemed satisfied with his purchases and I felt like he wanted to keep shopping, but it was now that time to go where I originally had planned to go.
“Where are we going?” Young Jae must have been curious since we were leaving the city. I only smiled and gave his hand a light squeeze as we continued to drive. He should be able to figure out where we are before we get there.
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“Daehyun..” As we stepped out of the car, I looked over at Young Jae to see that he was either in awe or a wave of nostalgia had hit him. “You.. brought us here. This was where.. we..”
“Had our first date. Yes, I know.” I had brought Young Jae to a hill that was a small distance away from the city, but it made it the perfect spot to gaze up at the stares. “Come on. Let’s go over here.”
I took a hold of Young Jae’s hand as I led him to the top of the hill where a single tree grew. All around us was a vast field of grass, though once spring came, the flowers would really help show the fields’ true beauty. I laid down and stretched my arm off to the side so that Young Jae could rest his head on my arm. I held him as close as tightly as possible while we looked up at the stars together.
“Which one am I?” Young Jae turned to look at me and I looked at him. A smile played across my face as I looked back up at the sky. “Which star do you think I am?” I wanted to see which star he would pick. Of course, I would’ve been fine with any star out there.
I felt Young Jae’s head turn to look back up at the sky. We laid there in silence for a few moments before Young Jae finally pointed up at the sky. I attempted to look at where he was pointing, but since he was lower than me, I couldn’t really see exactly where he was pointing. “That one. The really bright looking one.”
“Oh? Why?”
“Because, if I ever feel lost and you’re not around, that star will always comfort me. It’s like.. you’re watching over me, trying to guide me onto the right path.” I smiled as I finally spotted the bright star that shone brighter than all the other stars out there. It was cute that Young Jae saw me that way. “Which star am I to you?”
“Hm.. that one. The big circular one right there.” I pointed directly at the biggest one that was floating in the sky. In fact, the one I pointed at was definitely the most brightest one in the sky, even more so than the one that Young Jae had pointed out.
“That’s not a star...”
“No, but it’s the most biggest and brightest one floating in the sky. No matter where I look in the sky, the moon always shines the brightest. No other star will be able to replace it.” I looked down at Young Jae as he looked up at me and smiled.
“Okay, I’ll accept that. But only because you’re the one that I love. You.. and only you..” Young Jae pushed himself up to the point where he was now hovering right above me. “Daehyun.. I love you so very much..”
I smiled as I propped myself up a bit with my arms, pressing my lips lightly against his lips before parting a bit. “I love you too..” Young Jae smiled as he gave me another kiss before we both laid back down to continue watching the stars.
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About one or two hours had passed. Sadly, my rumbling stomach had ruined the mood and we had began our way back home. Young Jae didn’t seem to mind, but he had been laughing the second he heard my stomach. I really did wish that we had been able to stay just a little longer, but if I was hungry then Young Jae must have been hungry also. I didn’t want him waiting to eat because of me.
“Daehyun.. thank you for today.”
“I’m glad that you had fun. You just have to cook something really yummy when we get home.” Young Jae chuckled a bit as he took a hold of my free hand, caressing my hand a bit. I was about to look over at Young Jae, but I soon found myself pulling my hand away from him as I tried to steer the car away from a car that was basically charging straight at us from the opposite direction.
“Dae-” Young Jae didn’t even have time to finish his sentence before the car hit the rear of the car, sending us spinning off to the side. I tried so very hard to get control of the car, but it didn’t seem to be working. We were slowing down and just as I thought we would be safe, my eyes widened as I saw oncoming traffic all attempting to slow to a stop.
I only had a split second to react, but my thoughts were of only Young Jae. I had to protect him.. one way, or another. Before I knew it, I had somehow managed to get the car to turn around once more.... before we were hit.
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“-ae..-n...”
I heard a voice. It was soft, but I couldn’t really make it out at first. I tried to stir myself awake, but the pain was too much for me to take. I was just barely on the edge of consciousness at this point, but I had to keep myself awake. “Daehyun..!”
“Daehyun.. Daehyun... please! Please wake up.. please.. please.. you.. you can’t leave me!” Young Jae’s voice sounded like it was cracking, as if he was crying while he frantically tried to wake me. I felt hands shaking my arm, but I couldn’t bring myself to open my eyes. It was.. too hard for me to open them. "You promised, you promised! Y-You promised you would stay with me forever! You can't leave.. not like this! Daehyun, please wake up!" I wanted to say that I was alright, that I was here but.. I couldn’t.
Young Jae... I’m sorry...
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[[ My Own Thoughts:
Yay Chapter One is up >3<..
I ended up crying when I typed the end part..
Even though it was a short end part, it was still pretty sad in my opinion ;;..
Anyway, I hope everyone enjoys the fanfic. x3
Ack... I'm sorry for taking so long, but I won't be updating until tomorrow. Hopefully no one will kill me for this >.
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