A/N: this song is included in my phone that I always listen too, then one day when I listened to it again, I said wow I want to make a fanfic with it, I have the plot it my head for too long and its story already written and its only now that I post it, as the impending end of khuntoria’s virtual marriage is about to end, it saddens me with it and reading Khun’s tweet reality bites me that they are really ending not just any strategy for ratings.  This is a sad one, I decided to share it and hope you liked it

http://youtu.be/-h13nfg50Xw

the link to the song before i let you go by freestyle

I can still remember yesterday

We were so in love in a special way

And knowing that your love

Made me feel... Oh... So right

His eyes squint as sun rays peaks between the curtains … ahhh, morning. As he keeps his eyes closed, the smell of flowery scent filled his nostrils, ahhh how he loves her scent, even if she is sweating she still smells the same. He slowly open his eyes and he was greeted by the milky white slender neck of his wife, he snuggled more at her neck and inhaled her sweet scent as his arms tighten around her waist, he seem can’t make her closer to him.

“Appa” Victoria purred as she moves closer to him

“Morning, I love you” says Khun

“Morning, I love you, too” says Victoria, as she slowly open her eyes and she was greeted by the face of her love “What a lovely day to start as you are the first one my eyes laid upon” she says to him lovingly.

“And I am such a lucky person to wake up and gaze to the face of the person I love with all my heart”

“So early in the morning and we are so cheesy” says Victoria giggling.

“Who cares, I want to tell you always how much I feel for you” says Khun indignantly

“Don’t ever change, don’t ever get tired of loving me” says Victoria

“Never” says Khun as his face moves closer to hers and kiss her fully in the lips.

“Khun~” says Vic as their lips part.

“Hmmn” says Khun and embraced her again closer to him

“I want a baby” says Victorialooking up to him pouting

“We will sweetie, we are still in our honeymoon stage, so be patient”

“Yah! Khun we are married for three years now and still we have no babies” says Victoria.

“Really, its three years hmmnnnn… it doesn’t feel like so” says Khun

”When will feel like we are married for years” says Victoria

“Forever. Forever would be like 50 years of our marriage life” says Khun

“Aissh are you saying this lifetime is not enough” says Victoria

“It’s not enough, I want to live with you in every lifetime, and if there is no other lifetime but only this one, I want to be with you at the afterlife” says Khun.

“You love me that much huh?” says Victoria smiling

“Isn’t obvious” says Khun

“Ahhh so cheesy!” says Victoriaas she freed herself from Khun’s embrace.

“Yah! Where are you going?” says Khun

“Cook breakfast” says Victoria mischievously

“It’s you that I want for breakfast” shouted Khun as he got of the bed and follow his wife.

“Congratulations Mrs. Horvejkul your three months pregnant” says the doctor to Victoria as he she stands up and shake her hands.

“Thanks doctor” says Victoria

As Victoria hailed a taxi, she called Khun

“Yes yeobo” says Khun as he answers the call

“Yeobo go home early okay” she says sweetly

“Hmmn okay I will, do you have something for me” says Khun

“You’ll know once you get home, saranghaeyo” says Victoria giggling and end the call

“Ahjussi, please take me to the nearest market instead” says Victoria. She will cook Khun’s favorite dishes.

As the taxi cross the intersection, a car trying to beat the red light crashed to the taxi Victoria is in.

But now I feel lost

Don't know what to do

Each and everyday I think of you

Holdin' back the tears

I'm trying with all my might

Khun felt uneasy for almost an hour now, Donghae that is with him pats his shoulder to get his attention

“Hey Khun what is wrong?”

“I don’t know, I felt restless all of a sudden, Victoria is not answering her phone” he said

“Don’t worry you just talk to her right, the meeting is about to end too” says Donghae. Khun nodded and concentrated on the meeting.

As they got out of the room his phone rang. It’s Taecyeon

“Yes Taec” he said

“Khun oppa it’s Krystal, come here quick, Victoria unnie had an accident”

Khun went pale immediately and run quickly.

“Khun!” shouted Donghae trailing behind him “what’s wrong”

“Victoria” is all that he can utter. Donghae somehow understood and as they reach Khun’s car, Donghae took the keys “I’ll drive” Khun didn’t argue what’s important is Victoria.

At the hospital Krystal greeted them

“Oppa!”

“Where is she?” asked Khun

“She is in the operating room, Taecyeon oppa is-“

“Operating room?”

“Unnie have no bruise in her body but her head had a big bump on the side and when they have ran a C.T scan there is a blood clot and oppa do you know-“

“What” says Khun sharply.

“U-unnie is pregnant, 12 weeks according to the other colleague of Taecyeon oppa” says Krystal.

Khun slumped on the floor; his wife is inside the operating room fighting not only for her life but for their child he felt so helpless now, useless.

“Oppa” Krystal looks at the man in front of him and she knows he doesn’t know too

“Khun” Donghae worries for his friend, God help him, he prayed.

“She said to come home early” Khun start saying, his eyes looking straight through the wall “she said I’ll know once I get home” tears starts falling in his eyes “ottoke, she is going to say we are having a baby, a baby she wanted so much. Ottoke. Ottoke”

Donghae holds his friend, giving him strength. Krystal started to cry too, her friends, what’s going to happen?

“Oppa” called Krystal to Taecyeon

“I can’t choose only one who to save Krystal, I did my very best to save both mother and child, I am a doctor not God, who am I to say who can live and not, I am here to save life” says Taecyeon.

Krystal went to him and hug him “I know and I’m proud of you”

“I was so scared Krystal, I wanted to save Vic and the baby. When she was brought here she was still conscious and as soon she sees me she told me to save her baby, Krystal…ohh Krystal, did I do the right thing”

“Shhh” hushed Krystal, she cupped his face between her hands and say “You did your best as you say you are not God to say who can live and not, and because of that I love you more Ok Taecyeon” tears falling in her eyes as she said that and slowly she guided down his face to kiss him in the lips “I am proud of you, all we need to do right now is pray for our friends, okay” Taecyeon nodded and hugs her tightly.

Taecyeon saves Victoria and the baby, but Victoria is comatose, and when she will wake up is uncertain.

Khun sits beside Victoria, looking at her now, pains him with all those contraptions connected to her, how he would trade everything for his beloved Victoria not to be here right now. He holds her hand firmly between his hands.

“Angel sweetie, fight please, please fight, I’m begging you” he said as his voice croaked.

Two months later.

“Oppa how was it?” asked Sunye

“We won, the court sided with us, that they say that it may be dangerous for the mother to continue with the pregnancy, but it’s not life threatening, and if the family chooses to continue the pregnancy and that they can finance it then, there is no reason for unwanted abortion” says Donghae

“Oh oppa, you’re great, thank you, thank you” says Sunye and hugs him

“No need to thank me my Sun, he is my friend, him and Victoria” he said as the smile turns to sadness.

“My cousin is so lucky to have friends like you and Taecyeon” says Sunye as she planted a kiss on his cheek.

After a month of Victoria’s state and there is still no progress some people grow concern that maybe the life inside her is posting danger to the mother so they file on court for an abortion to save one’s life than lose both. Donghae as a lawyer and friend represent Khun at the court and after one month of battling in the court they won.

Donghae and Sunye went to Victoria’s room. The door is ajar and they peak inside. Inside the room Khun is sitting beside Victoria holding her hand as one hand is reading some office works, ever since then Khun never left his wife side ever since, he put up a mini office in her hospital room…well actually he transferred her in a larger room with a adjoining room, the other room serves as his office.

“Hey do you hear that we won, so no need to worry okay?” whispered Khun as soon as Donghae had told him the news

“Those two really look good together, your matchmaking with those two is a success, I feel a wedding is soon to happen so please, please” says Khun “wake up my love” a lone tear fall.

After two months

Khun was bathing Victoria, he was thought by the nurse how to do it and told him that while doing it talking to the patient helps, so while doing it he converse to her normally.

“Sweetie the doctor said our baby is healthy and is in a right position and they at the ultrasound it says that we are having a baby girl just like you wanted” he is cleaning her arms now and as he is down on her fingers he touches the ring that she gave to him when he proposed to her.

“Remember when I proposed to you, it was on that bridge that I shouted in the top of my lungs that I asked you to marry me, when we did that couple bungee jump, you look so cute you forgot to scream because of the question I asked you” says Khun remembering it made him laugh a little “ Your eyes went big as a saucer  and instead of hiding your face as we fall from the jump you look at me, its forever etched in my heart and mind”

As he finishes bathing her, he puts fresh clothes on her, as his lands on Victoria’s now swollen abdomen, he leans down  and say “hey there my little angel be strong okay, your umma is trying to be strong for you too, please  sweetie for appa and umma” he kisses her tummy. Khun sat beside her again and positioned his self to sleep, he leans down at the side of the bed and held Victoria’s hand close to him as his eyes closes.

She watches as he sleeps, she knows that he loves her endlessly, and she is seeing it first hand, her heart bleeds for her, he lost too much weight, his cheeks sunken, how she wanted to touched it and whisks away the sadness and hurt she is causing but she can’t, she wanted to hug him, kiss her one more time and tell him I love you one last time

“Khun, oh my love, I am so sorry for the pain I caused you, I love you so much that I fought, I tried my love but I can’t. I never thought of leaving you so soon, oh please God for one last time please” Victoria pleas as she cried with the pain her heart is feeling now “Just one last time, oh God please”

Khun wakes up as he felt someone’s finger tracing his face as he open his eyes he was laying on some ones lap, as he look up to see

“Victoria” he whispered, he sits up and look around they are in a field where the grass are green and the sky is so clear as  the sun shines brightly “what is this ? Where are we? How? Does the accident just a dream, you’re not hurt? But you’re still pregnant? H-how?”

“This is the dream Khun reality is the me lying in the hospital bed pregnant with our baby girl” she said as tear falls in her eyes “I prayed for Him to give me one more chance to touch you” as she says that her fingers traced the outline of his face, his eyes, nose, lips “to hold you again and say I love you” she look at him lovingly “I love you Nichkhun Buck Horvejkul” she says and moves closer to him and kisses him.

“Why” is all he can utter.

“Didn’t you say you love me forever” Khun nodded “then we can continue it here in the afterlife but you still have to live for our daughter”

“How can I live without you?” asked Khun broken as it dons on him that Victoria is about to go and leave him behind.

“Please Khun, for our daughter and when the time comes for you to follow me; I’ll be here waiting for you, loving you”

“I can’t” Khun is shaking his head “I just can’t”

“Please, my love please, I’ll always be looking after you and our daughter” says Victoriacrying as she is hurting too “don’t do anything foolish please, don’t leave our daughter orphaned, I cannot be there for her but you can still be, she is the fruit of our love, our daughter”

Khun has broken down, how can this be happening?

“I am sorry that I am leaving earlier than you but I’ll be waiting for you here” Victoria and Khun kisses one more time, their kiss are breaking them both as they don’t know when they will meet again, but Khun knows that she will always be the only woman for him.

“I love you” says Victoria.

Khun awaken from his sleep, gone the green field and clear sky, now he is in the hospital room again, Victoria is lying in bed in coma. He can still feel the kiss they had in his dream. He woke up before he can say it… just one more time.

Refrain:

Because you've gone and left me

Standin' all alone

And I know I've got to face

Tomorrow on my own

But baby

He stands up and sits on the side of the bed, he leans down on her as he traces his fingers on her small face, elegant nose, her beautiful cheeks that she pops up when concentrating on something, her lips that pouts when he play pranks on her and puckered as she with feathery kisses. Tears started swelling up as he knows that he got to let her go…now. As he planted a kiss on her lips one last time he whispered on her ears.

“I am letting you go; I love you, until we meet again my love” he straighten and look at her “I love you”

And as if on cue, the heart monitor beeps and the line went straight, the sound deafening rendered him stuck where his standing, he heard buzzer as the monitor made any changes it will alert the nurses, as the nurses and doctors but everything went blurry to him, as if his in another world.

 Taecyeon enters the room and took charge; he is trying to revive her. He glances at him but he just look.

Taecyeon swears as he saw his friend stuck unmoved at the corner.

“We’re losing her” shouted one of the resident doctors.

“Prepare the operating room quick!” ordered Taecyeon

Chorus:

Before I let you go

I want to say I love you...

I hope that you're listenin'

'Coz it's true, baby...

You'll be forever in my heart

And I know that no one else will doohh... yeah...

So before I let you go

I want to say I love you...

After five years

“Appa, are we going to umma?”

“Yes sweetie, its umma’s birthday today”

As father and daughter alight the car they walk a little further from the road until they reach her grave, it’s not the first time that he saw it but it still felt sharp pain in his heart.

“Vicki, greet your umma”

“Happy birthday umma, I am a big girl now and I started schooling umma” chirps the little girl

“I am trying to live life as you want it Victoria, its hard but for our little Vicki I am living, I miss you” he thought. She looks exactly like you

I wish that it could be

Just like before

I know I could've given you

So much more

Even though you know

I've given you all my love

I miss your smile, I miss your kiss

Each and every day I reminisce

'Coz baby it's you

That I'm always dreamin' of

Refrain:

Because you've gone and left me

Standin' all alone

And I know I've got to face

Tomorrow on my own

But baby

Chorus:

Before I let you go

I want to say I love you...

I hope that you're listenin'

'Coz it's true, baby...

You'll be forever in my heart

And I know that no one else will doohh... yeah...

So before I let you go

I want to say

Bridge:

Cause letting love go is never easy

But I love you so

That's why I set you free

I know someday, somehow

I'll find a way

To leave it all behind me

Guess it wasn't meant to be my baby

[Chorus:]

Before I let you go

I want to say I love you

I hope that you're listenin'

'Coz it's true, baby

You'll be forever in my heart

And I know that no one else will do

So before I let you go

I want to say...

So before I let you go

I want to say...

[Instrumental]

I love you...

Cemetery

Vicki Horvejkul is now kneeling in front of her parents’ grave

“Sweetie, they are now together” her husband says

“I know Nick, he tried to live longer for me, now they are together, I know his happy that he can be together with my umma, he endured so much” Her husband embraced her as she started again to cry, she is not lonely, she will miss her father but she knows he is where he wanted to be, with the woman he only love, Victoria Song Qian Horvejkul is the only one for Nichkhun Buck Horvejkul.

Some place where the grass is green and the sky is clear a lady with long hair dressed in flowing white dress wait, and in few minutes a walking man appears, in white trousers and white shirt.

As he approaches nearer to her, she saw a bright smile in his lips.

“Hi” she said

“Hi” he said

And in one swift move they are in each other’s arms.

“I miss you” he said

“We are now together, forever”

Khun lowers his head and kissed her deeply with such love and passion

“I love you”

“I love you too”

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Khuntoria will end their virtual marriage , but I hope in real life their closeness will still be there and as time goes by it would strengthen either only as friends or something intimate, whatever future may bring I will always support them for I only wish for their happiness. They deserve to be happy, for they give us such happiness but in their line of work as many crazed fans rather want them to be gay/homo than be with a girl/boy they like/love is really cruel.

I hope you liked this one, as I was doing this I am crying for it’s so hard to understand and let go someone you love, be your lover or family. Missing them is all you can do and try to live, I know the feeling of lost as in this time too, 6 years ago I lost my mom….so bite me if I’m emotional now.

Comments please want to know what you think of it.