"Khun appa" exclaimed Amber

"oh hi amber" said Khun with a big smile

"what are you doing here" said Amber, she lightly pats her forehead and say "Oh yeah of course Victoria umma"

Khun's ear turn red and Amber chuckled, his embarrassed.

"hehehe...the wgm crew is outside, and i just want to go first and say hi to her while they are preparing"

"Oh is that it, vic umma is in the practice room" says Amber "can't accompany you, im being called in the office right away"

"Its okay Amber,what practice room she is in?"

"the one where you practiced your special stage for gayo daejun"

"Okay,how was Paris by the way"

"awesome"

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"hyung , im sorry but can we not shoot today...can we cancel , im not feeling well all of a sudden"

"ehh..Khun" the WGM pd look at him, Khun rather look flushed,he was just okay  a while ago, what happen, they can't cancel, but he doesn't look okay,his voice sounds different as if trying to talk  but actually having hard time to talk "Khun-ah"

"uhmm... "clearing his throat Khun say " you can hand this to her ,hyung today and..and ...please hyung..just this once" he begged.

The WGM pd looked at him, he really doesn't feel good, his right hand on his pocket , the pd find himself nodding , Khun bowed 90 degrees and quickly left.

Khun didn't  hail a taxi quickly and ride it, When he arrive at their dorm, s are all in the living room....ahhh why of all days they have to be in one place, why can't they be in there room.

"Ahh hyung, your early, so hows the shoot with your wifey" says Wooyoung jokingly

Khun just waved his hand and continue to walk to the stairs up to his room

"Yah ..khun...khun" says Junsu

"wahh...whats wrong with him" Wooyoung

"did something happen?" Junho

"that's all you see?" asked Taec a little irritated, 

"weh hyung ...why..why?" says Junho

"His hands..his knuckles its bleeding" says Chansung, worry in his voice, blot of blood in trail from the door to the stairs and he bent up the hall to his room

"what" the other three all together said

"first aid" says Wooyoung, and quickly went to get it

"where is Minjae Hyung?" Junsu

Taec called Minjae hyung 

"hyung"says Taec

"Taec please later im looking for Khun, the WGM PD told me Khun asked the recording cancelled and that he is not-"

"Hyung... hyung....Khun is here and he just arrived...and his hand is bleeding"

"WHAT???" shouted Minjae. Taec puts away the phone from his ear...ahhh his ear drums.

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"ahh sorry..sorry" says Minjae, as all the people around looked at him, they are filming Victoria receiving the 22 pcs red roses, but no cooked food...he is confused . . . so confused, whats wrong what happen?

"Khun-ah whats wrong why did you left without telling me....where is the food you personally prepared, and the stuff winnie the pooh toy...and damn why your hand is bleeding" says Minjae mumbling to himself.

Unknown to him Amber heard it as well as Key.

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Its only work. . .  work. . .  WGM is only work. . .  DAMN IT. . . ahhhhhhhhhhhhhh...if its only work Nichkhun Buck Horvejkul why are you hurting....why the pain is so raw... seeping to his entire body. . .aaaaaaaaaaaaaahhhh...He throw the pillow at the wall, its the first thing that his hand grab. Victoria with Kyuhyun hyung in the practice room... the words...the scene ...

". . .Its work yes, WGM is work Kyuhyun, shooting it is fun and everything but. . . ."says Victoria

". . . why keep doing it. . ." asked Kyuhyun he grab Victoria's hands and clasped with his ". . . if its a burden then"

". . . for my group. . ."

ahhh those words, it stab so deep...while he was loving every minute of being with her... she is really close with Kyuhyun....what can i do about it...what. . .  i hope that she met me first . . . i hope... . .ahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh its all hope. . . what ifs but. . .but. . .

His solitude is disturbed as s are banging in the door.

"hyung open the door please" Junho

"open the door Khun, we need to patch you up" Wooyoung

"we won't asked whats wrong" says Junsu

"or what happen" added Taec 

"please. . . open the door. . . your bleeding" says Taec

"hyung" says Chansung, begging

"if you don't we would crash this door, and you won't be able to lock it until the door is fixed" threatened Junho

Khun look at the door, contemplating, s keep on banging on the door, he looked at his hand... it is bleeding, in frustration and anger he hit the wall outside the SM building, he didn't know that its bleeding. . . he can't even feel the pain, only the pain he feels in his heart. . .what does he expect anyway. . .what. . .just what did he expects

he really is stupid. . . a babo. . . coz from the start he let his guard down. . . he let his heart fall. . . and now he is hurting. . .hurting like hell

"Hyung!!! open the door" shouted Wooyoung

"1. . .2 . . " counts Junho when the door open. Khun was standing there and looked a then\m then walked back to the bed

Wooyoung carrying the first aid kit went to him immediately patch him

"ahh good thing there is no big cut just small ones...your such a bleeder hyung" says Wooyoung trying to ease the tension.  

"but its kinda swelling" says Chansung, softly.

"yeah kind of. . . there is some blood in your clothes too, I'll get a change of clothes" says Junho

Taecyeon and Junsu was at the door observing,Khun was staring in space, they can see in his eyes the pain, as promised they didn't asked anything. But Taec want to shake him and talk, looking at him now is damn frustrating, he look so hurt...in so much pain. . . he can't take it anymore... Taec  cleared his throat and  said

"I'll make you some soup and med for anti tetanus, we don't want t you to be sick or something" he said and left the room 

Junsu look at Taec's back, he tilt his head back, hands on his eyes, he knew it Taec left to have some air, he needs to stay away, he is trying not to ask anything that's why he left.

He look back at his dongsaengs as he hear a sniffle, if only the mood is not like this he would have laugh, their giant maknae is crying....actually trying to contain his cry.

Everything seems to move slowmo , Taec have comeback, with nothing in his hand, but his eyes is red from crying. Then Khun talked the first time he arrived

"why does it hurt so much" Khun whispers

Five set of eyes look at him

". . . i don't know what hurt the most her being with him relaying what she really feels. . . or that for her being with me is just work. . . .  doing it for her group"

" why am i such a fool"

Junsu,Taecyeon, Junho Wooyoung and Chansung don't know what to say

"why it hurt. . .hurt so much. . . why do i have to fall for her. . .for real. . .why its only me. . .im really a babo" he said and brokedown

"Hyung" says Chan, Junho and Wooyoung,

"Khundeng" sasy Taec

"Khun" says Junsu 

The three younger ones near hugs Khun, the other two followed.They don't need to ask who . . . coz they know. . .  and somehow they want to hate that someone for doing this to their brother. . .their brother who seldom cries. . .their brother who mistakenly wear his heart on his sleeve, is now hurting

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"Amber unnie what are you saying" asked Krystal

"That I saw Khun appa , all smiles and point her to where Vic umma is" says Amber

"and I saw this Winnie stuff toy and lunch box in the trash bin, and there is blood on the wall near it" says Minho

"and we heard from 2pm manager which some members of 2pm saying that Khun appa's hand is bleeding"

"Ah unnie, what does Khun appa was wearing, is it red shirt and white pants?" asked Sulli. Amber nodded

"then it could be him that i saw when i come out of the toilet, turning from the corner away from the practice room umma is" says Sulli

Victoria was just listening from her dongsaengs, when the WGM PD told her that she would be the onlyone recording and that Nichkhun is not feeling good she was confused, they had just talk a few hours ago, and they had just said they  missed each other... and she asked her if he is fine, he said that he is just tired with all the practice they are doing...Amber point him where i am...sulli saw someone walking away from the practice room where i was...same clothes as what Amber had said. . .the stuff toy and lunch box, which actually like the ones Khun had used when he first brought food for her. . . blood near the bin. . . Khun's bleeding knuckles. . . She was talking with Kyuhyun that time. . . what are they talking about that time. . .Paris. . . their repackaged album. . .

Her eyes went big . . .omo. . omo. . . 

"NO" says Victoria all of a sudden, everyone looked at her. "He. . . he. . . might had heard what im saying to Kyuhyun. . . and. . .and. . . and . . .he might got the wrong idea. . . omo. . . omo" she said and cry.

"Unnie"says the girls 

"Noona"boys

"ottoke. . . ottoke" she said crying

"hey. . . hey. . .  hush " says Kyuhyun and went to her to calm her

"he might got the wrong impression"

"you don't need to worry about wha-"

"No...i had to clear things to him. . . i had to. . .i had to"

"Qian.. . " say Kyuhyun helplessly

"i don't want him to hurt. . . omo. . .omo. . . i must talk to him. . .  go to him"

"Qian is late"

Victoria looked at kyuhyun begging, she looked at the others too, trying...asking. . . begging to let her go to him. . . to explain. . .  that it can't wait. . . that Khun and I had to talk

"please. . .please"

"I'll call Minjae first" says someone from behind, its F(x) manager, he know its not right. . .that the company might be against it. . . but he had been with f(x) and somehow. . .he can't . . . he just can't stand them hurting, at the side line he knows that the groups umma is falling for the Thai prince. . . they maybe idols. . . but they are only humans too. . . young ones. . .he saw Khun from walking away from the practice room to the trash bin. . .he was confused first what had happen. . .and was also shocked when he found out Khun had left without Minjae

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Minjae was hesitant saying yes, but Victoria was begging in the background, as an older brother Minjae want to protect Khun, but to be level headed person, he agreed. . . so that everything will be clear. . .

When he arrived the six young men is at Khun's room, doing nothing . . .not talking at all. . .they are just there. . . all of them had red eyes, Khun's is the reddest among all of them. . . his hand is been bandage already. He made the other five leave, to leave Khun alone.

They need to talk

"why does she had to come here" is what Wooyoung said

"why now. . .?" said Chansung

the door bell rang. . .she arrives

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Victoria and her manager was ushered inside the 2pm dorm,the new dorm no one had seen yet, coz they had just newly transferred to the place, the other f(x),Miinho,Key and Kyuhyun was left in the van , they wanted to come but Victoria begged them not to.. .  now she's regretting it in the living room the other five members are in the room.. . formal. . . not smiling at all

"A...Anyeongha. . .ha. . .haseyo" she said stuttering

"Khun is in his room" says Minjae

 They we're at the head of the stairs when Taec talked

"please if your just going to hurt him more don't go to him. . .let him at least have his pride. . . his a mess now. . ." he says, his voice lacks the warmth teasing manner when he talks to her

Victoria bowed to them  and said "hurting him  never enter my mind"

"but you did" says Chansung, restrained

Victoria bowed lower as tears falls down in her eyes

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Inside the room she enter , it was dimly lit, she saw Khun at the bed ,eagle spread, she slowly walks to him, tears are starting to fall, she saw his hand, his bandage hand,his still wearing the clothes, blood stained his pants. . . she wonder how much have he heard , but by the look of it it seems he didn't hear everything.

"Nichkhun"she say

She saw him flinched but didn't reply

"listen to me please. . .you had everything wrong. . .WGM is-"

"work. . . just work. . . . me . . . im a burden . . ." he said cutting her off,his eyes still closed, unmoving " i Know that now. . .please let me just have my wits back. . . then. . .then . . . i think we should end this" he spoke the last two words with so much pain

"no. . .no. . .no Nichkhun .  . . WGM suppose to be just work, but spending. . . .ti. . .time with you. . .  being with you. . .  i never expected to actually treat it for real . . .to seriously feel for you ...fall for you . . .to like you. . . "

"you said . . .you said to Kyuhyun hyung" he said the name with such bitterness and jealousy 

"i told him those..because im trying to convince myself that those are the reason that kept me doing WGM, but its not true. . .  im doing WGM because its the only time that we can actually be together... be with each other. . .Nichkhun please" she said and went to his side holding his bandaged hand to her face "ottoke. . . you hurt your self"

"It hurt to hear you say those words and to say it to someone else. . . i felt so envious of him, you know. . . he got to see yo a lot. . . be with you a lot. . .be the first one to know you. . .to be close to you. . .  seeing you with him being so comfortable. . .  i feel so jealous."he said his eyes staring in the ceiling

"he is just a friend . . . he is younger than me"

"Im younger than you too"

"but I only see him as a friend. . . i see you differently" she said clearly "I like you Nichkhun. . . i like you so much"

Silence. . .deafening silence. . .

Victoria cry silently, Khun 's silence is painful, he didn't believe her words. . . her heart is hurting,what's gonna happen now. . . she doesn't want to leave him, he don't want their time in WGM end in this note, ottoke. . .Victoria felt her knee weakening. . .her hand slowly slipping from holding Khun's hand.

Quickly Khun grabs her hand and hold it between his and place it over his chest...near his heart

"Do you know im so jealous. . .so jealous . . . that im affected with your supporters. . . Kyutoria . . . and others but you and his are more prominent.. . .im scared. . .so scared, but I . . . i said i'll do everything for you to like me. . .to at least reach even half of what you two have then maybe i had a chance. . .im losing hope. . .Kyuhyun hyung. . .ssh. . . what do i do. . . im so insecure"he said looking at her, tears in his eyes

"SSH i just idolize him. . . Kyuhyun he is a dear friend...but you. . .Khun its you i like . . .its with you that my heart pop like a popcorn. . . "

Khun slowly sit ups at the bed , and looked at Victoria gauging what she had just said, she had her sit down beside him by his bed.

"its only with you that i tried my hardest to please you but always fail. . . its your attention . . .undivided attention that i always seek. . . coz your the only one make my heart pop like a popcorn too"

"Khun"  she said longingly

"Victoria" say Khun and hugged her and whispered "I love you. . .so much"

"I also love you. . . so much"

"Yah . . .  did they make up already" shouted Kyuhyun from the hall. 

"Yah do they. . .  aissh. . ." says Chansung

"yes" shouted Taec

Khun and Victoria look at the door they found everyone eavesdropping.. .  including their daughters , Shinee and the 2pm boys. Khun looked at Vic, shocked to know, there are others with her

"they come with me to help explain to you" she said informing him, fear in her eyes. . .afraid that he will think otherwise. . Khun reach her face and wipe the tears in her face and kissed her softly

"wooohooooo. . .they kissed!!!!!!!!!!!" shouted Krystal

and they heard clapping, they both smiled

Khun hugged her again, not thinking of letting go for a while

"Khun"

"hmmn"

"don't hurt yourself again please. . .  "

"i won't" he promised

"cook for me again, and would you personally hand me my winnie stuff toy ,too"

"i throw it away ill buy you new one" he said

"you can buy me new one but hand me the one you should have given me. . .its in our SM building" she say softly

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hi guys do you like it. . . please comment. . .i just took a breather from writing I can't and When you love someone. . . 

im feeling down . . .that's why i write this one. . . please comment. . . i'll be writing here one shot khuntoria . . .hope you guys like this