Dara
Fangirl
It was never my intention to fall for anyone. But the sad reality is - i did. And it . Knowing that the person would never truly know i exist is somewhat relieving at the same time a little depressing. He lives in a whole different dimension while i'm forever stuck in the same old crappy place with the same old boring face with the same routine while he on the other hand is breaking a million hearts every single day with his aloofness.
The first time i saw him was when i was stuck on the elevator with nothing but my friend's phone with me, (we accidentally switched our phones since we have the same unit, we were supposed to switch back our phones when i got stuck on the elevator . . . Anywaaaays.) since i was stuck on the elevator with no intentions to speak with the couple overreacting beside me, i decided to play with my friends phone.
It was an accident, but that was the time where i saw him.
Later that day, i asked my friend about the guy. And she told me everything she knew about the guy. The more i knew about him the more i fell for him. I watched over him like a hawk. Of course there was nothing else i could do but watch over him, i mean, that is the only thing i could ever do.
To be perfectly honest, its fine that he remains unattainable. If he can't be with me then why should he be with anyone else? Besides, he is magic personified, he shouldn't be unsullied by anyone. He is pure. He is magnificent. He is my world.
But i could never be his. Which is perfectly fine by me.
Or is it?
But i love him.
Darn it. Stupid, stupid heart.
My friend told me to write a letter to him. She told me, "who knows, if you are sincere enough, he might write back to you." And the naive and gullible part of me believed every single word she said. I wrote him a letter. A very, very long letter. It took him approximately a few weeks to write back only to tell me in not so many words that he appreciates the fact that i look up to him.
I probably should just forget about him.
I probably should just move on.
I probably should accept the fact that he only sees me as one of his millions of admirers.
I probably should do all these things.
But i can't . . . At least, not yet. I'll probably be Kwon Jiyong's fangirl.
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