How did I end up here?

We were just friends, simply helping each other and here I am violating his trust. He took me as a brother and I took it to another level.

God save me, I swear I never saw it coming. 

"Ah! Luhan! Don't go that way! You're suppose to be here with ME."  I woefully watch you and Sehun, together at a corner. You were just there, infront of the mirror, making silly expression. You were trying to make Sehun laugh and at that moment I wish you just stop. I hate myself for hating Sehun for laughing at your behaviour. 

I must be a masochist because I simply couldn't turn away from watching you. You and him. I wish I could stop feeling this way. How could you have this effect on me?

Look at me. Look this way. Can't you see me? Did you already forgot about me? I'm still here. Luhan, I'm still here. Stop acting like I don't matter anymore! Just stop being so happy without me! 

When our manager told us that they are going to re arrange the team, you didn't seem to be affected at all. I never knew such a simple act could break my heart into a thousand pieces. You just sat there with everyone else, agreeing to it. I never felt so alone in my life. 

"Sehun! Don't just stand there, we need to practise! They told us to be more natural with our skinship." My heart beat a bit faster, alot faster when you uttered those word. You never said such things when you're with me. You never insist that we practise on our skinship. I saw Sehun, who seem to be mulling over this new piece of information. 

Don't! Just say no! 

"I think you're right. I don't want it to be awkward, it wouldn't please the fans if we're too stiff." 

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