Chapter 1

The euphoria faded soon, as soon as he stepped into his silent and clean room. It was empty and all he could do was crash into his bed and stare at the top bunk. Finally he got up and walked up, the sheets still smelled of her. How was he to get by,... suddenly his door opened and his heart leapt . Maybe it was a joke, maybe she was still here ?

But it was Eun gyoul who walked up and sat heavily on the same bed. "Why did you not stop her ?" Tae joon asked with his head ,in his hands. "How this happen ? This stuff happens when ever I have a competition - doesn't it ? Eun Gyol aaa I miss her "... EJ was feeling the same but he knew that Tae Joon needed him. Jay Hee had told him before he left to take care of ... him...and he knew that she meant Tae Joon. EJ stared at Tae Joon for a minute - then dragged him by his arms, EJ said "let's go , eat spicy food, the one SHE likes.. You know!!". And without a word led TaeJoon out. Before he knew it the day had passed.

A week later his condition was the same. Everything reminded him of Jay Hee., finally one day the Doctor Sensei showed up. "What are you doing to your self" ? He asked Tae joon in a bored voice. Tae Joon who was normally so contained poured out his woes, how he felt about his mom dying when he was in the Olympics; then Jay leaving when he was competing again. "Why does this happen to me ?" He looked so anguished that the doctor took pity on him and said. Well I guess you need to talk to someone - and took out his cell phone, Jay Hee was at the other end -" did you listen ?" asked the doctor into the phone. "Yes yes ,I will put him on" and held the phone out t, Tae Joon stared at the phone for a minute - then grabbed it, he understood that Jay Hee 's number was with the doctor. "Where did you go ? Did I not say I will take care? why did you leave? Don't you love me ? Why so far away, stay in Seoul , any where but where I can see you.." . The words gushed out.

Doctor slowly left the room. Good that I charged the battery he said aloud and smiled ..Young love ...

Jay hee's tears were more silent, her body racked with sobs. He was in the same state as she was , slowly she calmed herself down. And said the first words that came from her heart." I miss you Tae Joona, I miss you so much. But I had to take responsibility for my actions and by myself or I would never forgive myself. I had to leave , every one knew about me . And I could not let you or Soctor sensai or Eun Goul suffer. I could not - that is not who I am".

Just hearing her voice made TJ calm again, he knew that he would have done the same things, if he put himself in her shoes, he loved her even more because she was someone who put others first even before herself, he had forgotten that she faced more obstacles than him and had the courage to still do the right thing . "Jay hee , bianaye , sorry for not being there and being so selfish" Cried Tae joon even more. "I am waiting for you TaeJoon , like you asked me to . and it can be a min or a day or a year - it will still be the same for me . I will never forget the time I had with you. I am having a hard time and if I know you are having a hard time too it will make me more sad. Let's remember each other and i will wait ...till you come to me. ... Until then I will try my best to do well here and you need to keep up your condition. If you lose it i will kill you OK" she said smiling between her tears.

"Let's meet after we get stronger ok . This time I will come jay Hee , to the beautiful you - I will come .." whispered Kang tae Joon like a promise