My heart clenches as I remember the day he decided to leave me, the feeling of having hundreds of pricks through my body still here... I guess after all I haven’t been immune to you yet, Yong Junhyung!

“What di…did yo…you say oppa?”

“I said let’s break up.”

Those three words come out from his mouth so easily like he practiced saying them so many times.

I stand there, still unknown what is happening. The rain rattling is the only sound there.

“Why?” I gather all my strength to not collapse in front of him. I know the reason but I just need him to split it out.

“I start having feeling for her. When you were in Japan making your new song with him, I was jealous and depressed. She was there for…”

“DON’T YOU DARE SAY THAT IT IS MY FAULT. You know that there is nothing between me and Joon”

I yelled as the tears are threatening to fall.

“Yeah, maybe you’re right, but it doesn’t matter anymore. I’m sorry, Hyuna."

I can’t see anything. My eyes are blurry. Tears had already covered my face.

He leans in my forehead and gives it one last kiss.”Take care!” He whispers but my ears decline to hear.

... 

On the rainy days you come and find me
 

Torturing me through the night
 

When the rain starts to stop, you follow
 

Slowly, little by little, you will stop as well

…

    As long as the sight of his back disappears into the dark, my knees crumble. The umbrella slips out of my hand and I just let it go.

The only man I ever love left me for another one I love so much.

“RAIN, PLEASE WASH ALL THE PAIN OUT OF MY BODY NOW”

The rain seems to run more heavily. I’m soaking wet but I don’t care. I’ve already been numb.