Chapter 5

An Absence of Choice

 

“Hello?”

Jongin had answered.

This was not what I was truthfully hoping to happen.

I was hoping the line would ring out and I would be able to pat myself on the back for trying, but never actually have to deal with the ensuing embarrassment.

“Hello?” The voice asked again, this time with more of a questioning tone.

Fantastic. I had gotten carried away in my own hectic brain and neglected the subject of my call.

Well done Kyungsoo…

“Oh! Um… Hi!” I replied, trying to compensate with enthusiasm for the discrepancies in my responsiveness.

“Hi…?” His questioning tone only seemed to be amplified by my horrendously embarrassing announcement.

Quick Soo, say something. Anything!

“Uh. This is Do Kyungsoo, Joonmyeon’s flatmate.”

My cheeks were enflamed with mortification. This was not enjoyable in the least.

“Oh! Hi, Do Kyungsoo, Joonmyeon’s flatmate,” He replied mockingly.

Let’s just say that didn’t help my humiliated state.

A quick recap: I’ve basically started this conversation, that was supposed to be casual might I add, in the most formal way possible.

Yep… Not awkward at all.

“I…Um… I remembered you gave me your number… and, well, I thought it would be only polite to give you a call and see how you were feeling,” I stumbled, still not as bad as it could have been however.

“Aw! Thanks Hyung!”

I almost choked on my own saliva. He called me Hyung.

Me.

“I honestly didn’t think you’d follow up. But I really hoped you would,” He continued, his deep voice only growing in allure.

I could feel my whole body heat up in coyness.

This was really happening.

The only possible reaction to this obvious compliment I could manage was a small giggle, not too dissimilar to that of a pre-pubescent girl.

This really couldn’t get any worse.

I could hear Jongin’s deep laughter echo through the receiver.

He was laughing at me.

“Um… So how are you feeling,” I asked, noticing it was considerably more difficult to keep the conversation rolling that in the intoxicated state of last night.

“I’m fine, really. I didn’t drink much at all last night,” He punctuated with a slight snicker, “What about you?”

“Oh, Um…I’m good. Joonmyeon gave me a mysterious substance and I’m feeling better than I was when I woke up,” I chuckled nervously.

“Be careful of him. One day he’ll be all smiles and miracle hangover cures, and the next he’ll stab you in the foot with a freshly sharpened pencil,” He replied all too seriously.

I couldn’t help but laugh, my anxiety slowly dissipating.

“Ow… Did it hurt?” I asked, knowing he was implying the attack was on him.

“I can’t say it was a pleasant experience. But I deserved it. I had been harassing him for hours.”

I could almost see the reminiscent smile on Jongin’s lips. His face playing through my mind.

“Oh my god. I hope, for your sake, that this was a long time ago,” I teased questioningly.

I mean, if Joonmyeon’s apparent immaturity was anything to go by, Jongin certainly hadn’t grown out of the stage of pestering his older brother.

“That particular incident was. But I still harass him for hours,” he laughed, making my fingers tingle.

I couldn’t help but smile.

Jongin was becoming more and more interesting. In all the best ways.

“Why am I not surprised by that?” I muttered, my nerves completely melted away.

“HEY! What is that supposed to mean?” Jongin whined, making the tingle spread along my arms.

Was he truly this sweet?

It’s official. He really couldn’t have been any more adorable.

“Jongin, how old are you?” I asked abruptly. Where it came from was beyond me. I was running on pure adrenaline.

“Oh. I’m 19,” He replied, bluntly, “Why do you ask?”

Crap.

Yeah, why did you ask Soo? Huh?

“Oh, I was just wondering…”

Don’t you mean, just wondering if I would get arrested for asking you out on a da-

“Would you like to go out with me some time?”

 

Did I just hear what I thought I heard?

He-

Did he just ask me out?

That time I actually did choke.

“Ah- Sorry, what?” I sputtered, to which a small chortle came through the phone.

“I asked if you would like to come out and do something with me. You can choose what we do.”

His nonchalance was somewhat disconcerting. And the little detail Joonmyeon convinced me of about Jongin being far more introverted than he looked was becoming more and more debatable.

“I-Ah… Yeah, I would love to,” I answered, annoying myself with such a forward reply.

I really wasn’t doing too much of a good job at playing hard to get. I mean, I basically called him back mere hours after he had given me his number and I didn’t even play the ‘oh, let me check my schedule’ trick.

I had just said a straight yes.

Yes.

Of course I would go to hang out with him. Whether that means for a date or not was immaterial. I didn’t care.

All I knew was that I wanted to see Kim Jongin again.

 

I hadn’t told Baekhyun about my little date with the world’s most attractive boy.

I mean, he would find out eventually.

It’s Baekhyun were talking about. He is a little devil when it comes to finding out my secrets.

But he doesn’t own me. It’s not my duty to tell him every itsy bitsy little thing about my life.

And if he didn’t like that, he could get stuffed.

That’s right. He could get stuffed.

Oh my god. Sometimes I out-lamed myself.

But that’s what happened when you became a flustered mess.

I honestly had no idea what I was doing. And as much as I didn’t want Baek to get involved with this I knew I needed him.

 

So… that’s how Baekhyun ended up in my room, virtually writhing on the floor in excitement, before picking himself up and pulling me into a very jittery hug.

“Oh my god! My baby! You are finally grown up, organising your own dates and stuff,” Baekhyun giggled.

This was not a good idea. Not in the slightest.

“How many times do I need to tell you. This is not a date. We’re just hanging out-”

“Yeah, yeah,” I was cut off, “Now what are you gonna wear Soo? You have to look smoking! And by the time I’m done with you there will be no way that he will be able to keep it in his pants.”

“Baekhyun!” I yelped, blushing profusely.

“What Soo?” He questioned obliviously, “I know as well as you do how much action you’ve had recently.”

“Baekhyun, stop! Please,” I felt like crying. His absent minded insults really were not calming my nerves.

Though, Baek was right. Not about the lack of . Well yeah. He was right about that too actually. I haven’t exactly been up there is Baekhyun’s range of ual activity.

Like I wanted to anyway. Just the thought…ew.

But, I had to look good. There was no way I was going to go on whatever this was with Jongin without looking top notch. I had to impress him.

I just had to.

“Whatever,” Baekhyun responded with his usually sassy attitude, whilst turning to my wardrobe, which was still under construction.

I could hear Baek grumbling, as I carded through the map I got sent in the mail of Korea Uni.

It probably wasn’t a great idea to be going out the night before I was starting school, but I couldn’t refuse Jongin. And who would. I mean, he was the one who actually suggested we’d go out a mere day after I gave him that painfully humiliating call.

He seemed really excited, like a kid on Christmas. But I guess that’s what Jongin was. A kid.

But a kid I’d really love to get to know.

 

“Why do you have such ugly clothes?” Asked my y excuse for a friend.

“Sorry that I don’t like to dress like such a flaming homo as you,” I snapped back. I think I deserved to be a too sometimes.

Baekhyun scoffed, feigning hurt.

“I resent that comment Do Kyungsoo. And so does the whole LGBT community.”

“Oh, shut up. You know I was joking,” I whined.

“Yeah, right...” Baekhyun mumbled, adding a whispered ‘it’s not my fault you’re in denial’ to the end of his comment.

I could only roll my eyes.

Before long however, Baekhyun had shoved a pile of clothes in my face.

I picked them apart scrutinisingly. This really couldn’t be good.

To my surprise however I was met with what Baek would call casual/suave. Just a t-shirt and jeans.

Why the hell it took him so long to decide on a freaking t-shirt and jeans was beyond me, but I wasn’t complaining. If I could get away with wearing this and not looking like a transvestite I was doing well.

“Thanks Baek.” I grumbled, making sure not to give him the upper hand whilst I pushed him out of my room allowing me to get changed.

Even though I had known him for years, I really wasn’t the kind of person to be entirely comfortable with my body. Not enough to be able to just take my clothes off in front of someone at least.

I could hear Baekhyun yell from the other side of the door, “I chose the outfit to be simple so I could accentuate your features with just a bit makeup, ok Soo?”

HELL TO THE NO.

 

I had managed to escape Baek’s attacks of a pointed black stick to the eye. But I hadn’t escaped the nerves that were now fluttering their way into my stomach and making me want to vomit up metamorphosing insects.

“You look like .”

. I couldn’t help but curl into a ball on the floor from that one oh-so encouraging comment from my dearest friend.

But before long, I felt a comforting hand rub my back, which I know was aimed to calm me down but only sent the butterflies into overdrive.

“I was just kidding Soo. You look fantastic,” Baekhyun assured me, “I just meant you looked nervous.”

“Maybe it’s because I am,” I mumbled back into my knees.

“Come here.”

Bakehyun pulled me up from my position on the floor into his embrace.

It was nice to have the support from him. It was rare. But I could appreciate it when it happened.

“You’ll be fine. I promise,” He whispered into my shoulder, “Just be yourself and smile and he is bound to fall for you if he hasn’t already.”

“I don’t know who myself is.”

I could feel Baekhyun choke up on my shoulder.

“Soo. Let’s not do this now. We can go to im-so-deep-my-life-ville when you get back, okay? Just have fun! You don’t have to think so much of everything,” He whined.

I was being stupid. But I was scared. I honestly hadn’t been on a date forever and I had no idea how to act.

What would we talk about? How much should I talk about myself?

Oh .

“Kyungsoo. I know that face,” He stared me straight in the eyes, “You are freaking yourself out. Stop. It’s fine.”

“Alright…” I quivered uncertainly.

“Now off you go, and have fun. And call me when it’s over!” He dictated, tapping me on the bum to push me out of my room and out the front door of my apartment.

 

It wasn’t exactly the most romantic of situations to be sitting on the subway to arrive at our meeting place.

But, seeing as neither of us have a car, it wasn’t exactly possible for him to pick me up from my apartment and sweep me off my feet.

So I was left. To wait on the subway. Waiting for that dreaded announcement that it had arrived telling me I had to get off and finally see Jongin.

And even though we had met eachother before, it felt like a blind date. I mean, yeah sure, we talked for a bit and then on the phone some, but realistically I hardly knew the guy.

And I had no idea what to expect.

 

Walking out of the subway station was making me want to melt into the ground with the anxiety coursing through my veins.

But before I could let my emotions get the better of me I was struck into reverence by the boy standing a few metres from ahead, under the blinking lights of the city.

He was staring at one of the street signs to my left as I recognised that sharp jaw and perfect skin, allowing me to just gape at his gorgeous profile.

He was wearing a perfectly tailored black suit, but I couldn’t bring myself to worry that I had underdressed as I scanned his long legs and broad shoulders that fit so nicely underneath the fabric.

Somewhere. Somehow. In the deepest depths of my subconscious I was able open my mouth.

“Jongin!” I called.

I managed to let out a breath of relief knowing I wouldn’t have to call again, when he turned around, showing me that face that I have been envisioning for too long.

His hair was pushed back slightly and he looked like nothing less than a prince.

Actually, scrap that. Remind me to hit Baekhyun for giving a t-shirt to wear.

But the look in Jongin’s eyes told me it didn’t matter.

“Hi, Kyungsoo,” he said with a gentle smile as he took a step forward.  

 

 

A/N:

Hi guys! ^^

This was a bit more of a speedy update, but not exactly fast.. sorry

I know i sai there would be Kaisoo in this chapter but i wanted to introduce it a bit before i launched into their 'date'

Tell me what you think in the comments, please! 

:) Hope to update soon 

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LMAOoutloud
#1
There's so much potential for interaction between these two idiots at this point. Kyungsoo is definitely one of those awkward intelligent kids who's always stuck in his head and doesn't realize that others can't understand what he's already experienced. And kai.... Idk I'm not sure if ugh confidence is a facade that comes out when Kyungsoo's around or really him because where did that adorable shy boy go? But LMFAO that is definitely an interesting way to break apart a kiss. Who know that tea could be such a block. I'm so hooked already. I can't wait to read more!!
Soheim #2
Chapter 6: This fanfic is genius omg <3
vicsyah
#3
Chapter 3: I love this ! Can't wait for the next . Wonder when will yeol appear and kai has a rival . Waiting for next love ^_^
miss1314 #4
Chapter 2: ur doing great so far...
hope we'll hv more of kaisoo in the next chap to come..
update soon author-nim..