Because I Love You Too Much

Woohyun stayed by Sungyeol’s bedside for as long as he was allowed. He was there in that room during all visitor hours. He hated how when the nurses came in and told him that he had to leave. His routine was the same every single day for three months. He would go to work, finish, and then head to the hospital, where he spent the rest of the day staying with Sungyeol. Sometimes he would read to Sungyeol, other times he would sing to him. He did everything he could to try and get Sungyeol to wake up. The doctors tried to tell him that Sungyeol’s progress was slowing down, and that he might not wake up now at all, but Woohyun wouldn’t listen. He didn’t care. He just wanted to be with Sungyeol.

After the first three months were over, Woohyun’s heart had started to lose hope, not that he had noticed. He stopped acting like Sungyeol could hear everything he said and started to just talk to him when he came. He still read to Sungyeol and sang to him, but now what he read were romantic stories, and now he sung love songs—sad love songs accompanied by him playing the guitar. He “confessed” to Sungyeol almost every day. The nurses thought that Woohyun had lost his mind. Who walks into a comatose patient’s room to say “I love you” for the first time?

Woohyun cried often at night. He usually felt tears leave his eyes when he heard the nurse’s footsteps down the hall. It signaled that he would have to leave soon. Visitor hours were only so long.

There were some times that the nurses pitied him and let Woohyun stay overnight, but it didn’t happen often enough to satisfy Woohyun. He had to be around Sungyeol at all times for him to be happy. Work was the only time where he could stop thinking of Sungyeol. He had completely drowned himself in work, trying to not think of Sungyeol, but it didn’t work. After work ended, he rushed over to the hospital where he held Sungyeol’s hand and told him everything he wished he had told him before Sungyeol had found Myungsoo.

***

Another four months had past. Woohyun celebrated Sungyeol’s birthday there in the hospital room, as if he could see the balloons, stuffed animals, cake, and presents that Woohyun had gotten for him. He sang again for Sungyeol, who couldn’t even hear him. He knew that Sungyeol had loved his voice. He regretted not singing enough for him when Sungyeol had asked before.

The doctor walked in and Woohyun hid his face near Sungyeol’s chest again. He was tired of the pity looks he got from this doctor. Sungyeol was going to wake up; he knew it. The doctor had heard of love stories like this before, where a person would come every day and take care of someone in a coma, but he never thought he would witness it in real life. He truly admired Woohyun, but he couldn’t help but pity the guy.

***

A year soon passed, and Sungyeol still hasn’t woken up. Woohyun sat at the chair, holding Sungyeol’s hand again.

“Sungyeol, when are you going to wake up? When are you going to stop my suffering? Do you know how much I want to see you right now? Do you know how much I wish to hear you talk again? I want to hear your voice and listen to you laugh all day long. I want to hear you sing with that lisp of yours and hear that dolphin scream when you get excited over some coffee. I want to see that gorgeous smile on your face again Sungyeol. I miss you… I miss you so much. I love you.”

He started to cry again. “Sungyeol…please wake up….”

That was when he felt something move. He looked down at the hand he was holding. Sungyeol’s fingers were moving!!

Woohyun stood up and watched as he saw his love stir in his bed. He felt tears escape his eyes again as he saw Sungyeol’s eyelids flutter. He’s awake… He’s going to be okay!

Sungyeol’s eyes opened and when he saw Woohyun, he smiled. “H-hey…”

Woohyun broke into a full-out cry. Woohyun rushed over and embraced Sungyeol in his arms. “Sungyeol!!! You’re awake!! I can’t believe this! Never leave me again Sungyeol, I love you so much!”

He stopped. Sungyeol was awake now. He doesn’t know that I love him. Stop Woohyun, control yourself!

Woohyun got off of Sungyeol. He was surprised to see Sungyeol pout.

“Why did you stop hugging me? You said you loved me didn’t you?”

Woohyun widened his eyes. He cursed at himself in his head. Sungyeol had heard him. Their friendship was officially over. Why was he so stupid as to stop hugging Sungyeol too? He had just woken up from a coma; of course Sungyeol wanted someone to hug him. It probably didn’t even matter that it was Woohyun hugging him. Sungyeol probably thought that Woohyun meant that he loved him as a friend or even worse, a brother.

Woohyun felt himself start to cry again as he leaned over to hug Sungyeol. Why won’t you recognize my love for what it is? I love you, you idiot. I want you to be mine…

“I’m so happy you’re awake now Sungyeol.”

He heard Sungyeol give a weak chuckle. “I-I’m happy too…”

Woohyun smiled as Sungyeol snuggled against his chest. He must be a bit cold… Woohyun tightened his grip ever so slightly. Sungyeol was fragile; though he was cold Woohyun didn’t want to break him. He was so happy to hear Sungyeol’s laugh again. He felt like he could listen to if for the rest of his life.

He moved away from Sungyeol and sat on the chair Woohyun had been sitting in for over a year now. “I’m going to call the doctor now alright?”

He smiled when he saw Sungyeol nod. He loved everything that Sungyeol did.

“Okay, come back soon…”

Woohyun was beaming when he left the room. He felt something he hadn’t felt from Sungyeol before. He felt love—the pure love that he thought only he could give Sungyeol and not the other way around.

The doctor came in and took Sungyeol in for some tests. Nothing seemed the matter and he said that Sungyeol could even leave the next day. Woohyun was ecstatic when he heard the news.

***

Sungyeol sat up on his hospital bed and smiled when Woohyun walked into the room with his water. “You’re back!”

Woohyun felt his heart clench happily when he heard the happiness in Sungyeol’s voice. “Yes, I’m back. Did you miss me?”

“Of course I did Myunggie!”

Woohyun almost dropped the glass he held in hand. He set it down on the table and rushed over to Sungyeol’s side. “Myunggie?”

Sungyeol giggled. “Sorry, you don’t like that nickname, do you Myungsoo?”

Woohyun was floored. Sungyeol thought he was Myungsoo. He felt his heart break into a thousand pieces. Not only did Sungyeol not remember him, he thought he was Myungsoo.

Woohyun hesitated before answering. “N-n-no, it’s fine… You can call me Myunggie…”

“Myunggie… Why are you crying?”

Woohyun cupped Sungyeol’s cheeks in his. “Because I love you too much...”

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Do you guys think this ever happens in real life?

OTL I'm obviously not a doctor (YET), so sorry if some things are wrong T_T

Either way! I'm sorry for killing off Myungsoo people. Forgive me?