Your POV

For the whole day, I paid no attention whatsoever to all my lessons. My eyes stared ahead at the board, filled with notes, but my mind has long drifted off elsewhere.

With a few knocks on my desk, my mind was brought back to reality. Everyone seemed to have already left. I looked up to meet the sweetest smiling face. At that moment, nothing else was on my mind other than the beautiful male in front of me with his sun kissed skin and radiant smile. However these thoughts were immediately pushed aside as I recalled the photo I saw before.

“Are you gonna continue staring at my face? Or are we gonna get going?” he teasingly asked. I couldn’t help but chuckle at him, once again forgetting about this morning’s incident.

“I know I’m good looking but…ow!” I playfully slapped his arm interrupting him before he could carry on. Shoving the books away, I slung my bag onto my shoulder. I took a few steps towards the door before coming to a halt and turned around, chuckling at the adorable sight of a pouting Kai rubbing his arm.

“Well? Aren’t we gonna get going then?” I teased back.

Kai still had a slight pout on his face.

“I have such an abusive girlfriend”

He let out a small sigh but finished his sentence with a smile and walked up to me, intertwining his hand with mine.

As usual our walk home was filled with simple bliss as Kai shared some stories about his day in school, whilst I did all the listening. The pleasant laughter attracted jealous looks from other people passing by. However we didn’t pay much attention to our surroundings. Our eyes were on each other. It was like we were in a world of our own.

The time passed by in a blur and we have already arrived at my doorstep. Our hands still intertwined as I turned to face him to say our goodbyes. Kai told me he would be hitting the club again tonight. With the sudden mentioning of the club, the image from the morning flashed through my mind, my heart sank. I gave him a weak smile.
"Have fun tonight...tell the guys I said hi"
He smiled back at me, leaning in.
"I'll call you later"
He pecked my lips and our hands separated. I stood there watching him walk away with mixed emotions. He spun around before turning the corner to wave me goodbye, seeing this I immediately replaced my blank expression with a small smile and waved back.

Throughout the rest of the day, I was feeling overly paranoid and doubtful. The image of Kai and the girl just wouldn't leave my mind and I couldn't help but wonder if what I saw was repeating itself in real life.

For the rest of the week, I would go from feeling like I’m in heaven to feeling like I’m in hell. I started to feel more paranoid and found it harder and harder to forget the image that persistently gripped onto my mind. Even the effectiveness of Kai by my side was no longer able to distract my thoughts.

Everyday I would face him with a fake smile. Everynight I would be suspicious of what he is doing, wondering if he is with another girl. Yet I did not dare to talk to him about my insecurities. I was afraid. What of, I wasn’t sure. Am I actually that scared of losing him?

I sat at my dressing table, looking at the reflection in front of me. I couldn’t help but to scoff at it.

Yoo Hyeyi, you really are pathetic.

A/N: I feel like such a depressing person writing this lol