Song that matches my mood: One Day- Speed

A twelve year old boy.

A twelve year old girl.

Almost everyone thought that they were binded together by fate.

Born in the same hospital and were originally supposed to be born on the same day.

Both the most popular and the most talented with ambitious backgrounds.

A perfect match.

That was us.

We had the same friends and even had the same vibe.

I had admirers and so did he.

Hehad a rough and manly image to maintain while I had my chic and cold mask to keep.

Best friends.

Our friends shipped us from the beginning five years ago when we first met.

We merely were strangers at first, passing by each other from time to time.

Never daring to greet each other.

Something our parents didn't approve of, fearing that it would lead to something.....more.

But, we managed to meet each others eyes.

We both understood one another's gaze.

Trapped.

Then, we were on the same team.

Talking and texting.

Hanging around with friends.

Our friends and their parents always thought that we were a couple, but we always denied it.

But the phrase "A boy and a girl can never just be friends" was right.

I fell for him, hard.

Secretly, day after day, more feelings grew.

I prayed for them to stop and go away.

That it was only a phase.

I could never be a love sick idiot.

Something I refused and sneered at.

I confessed.

Twice.

Both times rejected and to rub salt on the wound, he asked me to help him hook up with my friends.

I always looked strong and I guess he thought I really was.

Piece by piece, I broke, but love makes you do everything.

I helped him with all of his requests, still not getting over him.

Until it was New Years Day.

FLASHBACK:

He texted me when I was at my grandparent's house.

I was "sleeping" in one of the rooms, so no one would bother me.

L.Joe: Hey

Me: Hi

L.Joe: What's up?

Me: I'm just at my grandparent's apartment, you?

L.Joe: Nothing much. My dad made me swim for five hours today.

Me: What the hell?!?! You must be so tired and it's New Years. That's insane!

L.Joe: I know, but you've seen my dad.

Me:.........Scary............

L.Joe: Lol! Sometimes......I have something to tell you.

Me: What?

L.Joe: Before I tell you, can I ask if you like anyone right now.

An easy lie.

Me: No one.

L.Joe: Are you lying?

Me: Honest.

False...

L.Joe: Oh uh never mind.

Me: You can't just back out.

L.Joe: Well, there's this girl I like....Well, two. But I can't choose.

Me: Who?

My heart broke again.

I swollowed my tears and continued texting,

L.Joe: The first one is a girl from my studying academy. The second one....You have to guess.

Me: Are you seriously playing this game with me right now?

L.Joe: ......Yes?

Me: You're an idiot. I'm only guessing three times, then you have to tell me and you better give me hints.

L.Joe: Make it six guesses?

Me: Ugh! I wanna kill you right now...Fine.

L.Joe: Yay! Now start guessing.

Me: Is she on our team?

L.Joe: Yes.

Me: Eunbi?

L.Joe: No.

Me: Miyeon?

L.Joe: No.

Me: Give me the first letter of her name.

L.Joe: Then it becomes too easy! It's.....H.

Me: Hyomin?

L.Joe: Nope.

Me: Yejin?

L.Joe: What?!?! That doesn't even begin with an H and she's so annoying.

Me: Hyesu?

L.Joe: No! This is so easy!!!

Me:Hyunsoo?

L.Joe: YOU'RE MESSED UP!!! YOU THINK THAT I'M GAY? I SAID GIRL DIDN'T I?!?!?

Me: Calm yourself and just tell me. I'm sick of the games.

L.Joe: This is embarrassing......I.......like you.....

Me: Stop fooling around and just spit it out.

L.Joe: Kim Haejin. H= Haejin. Get it?

Heart thumping, head screwed.

When I'm almost over him, he comes back.

I started to silently cry.

L.Joe: Hey? You there?

I don't want to hurt again.

Me: Truthfully, I still like you.

L.Joe: But, you said before that you didn't like anyone.

Me: I lied. But, I'm sorry I don't think I can do this.

I backed out and eventually he convinced me.

Me: Should I tell my parents?

L.Joe: No, we'll get made scolded. Let's wait a bit.

I should have ended it when I heard that, but I didn't.

He bought couple rings and offically asked me.

No one knew about us.

Everyone asked about my ring and I lied saying that I found it in my jewelry box.

I wore it every single day.

Until we distanced.

True fact: First Loves Scar You Forever.

I haven't L.Joe for over a year now and haven't even texted him.

I tried to delete him from my phone, but I couldn't.

A victim of myself.

Torturing myself by keeping everything he gave me.

What is love exactly?