Song that Matches My Mood: Easy- B2st

Nobody takes me seriously.

I'm just a joke to everyone.

It's like I'm invisible or I'm incapable of doing things.

Not even my family respects me in any matter.

They redicule me and my dreams.

My friends ignore me a lot now a days.

Of course, it's not on purpose, but still.....

I feel alone.

I like being by myself.

It's a lot more easier and I don't have to deal with anyone else.

My heart's at ease and I don't have to try to please everyone.

I remember telling my mother once,"When I grow up, I'm going to go to a collage somewhere far far away from you guys."

She just laughed and said okay.

Maybe this is why I want to be an idol.

Maybe I would feel less lonely.

There's bound to be at least a couple people that like you.

Later, some may turn their back on you, but others would stay.

They wouldn't discard you.

Right now, I'm a beat up mini van.

But hopefully, I'll be a sports car in the end.

Will that be possible?

Probably not.

Look at me trying to dream big.

I can't even persuade myself.

For now, I'm better off by myself.

It's dark outside of my window; 10:30 P.M.

I find myself look out into that darkness and staring at the single streetlight that's dying near my street.

When I first moved to this house many years ago, it was bright and glowing.

As time goes by, it gets darker and darker until it will die.

Funny......... It reminds me of me..........

When you close your eyes, what do you see?

Your goals or your fantasy world?

I see absolutely nothing.

Could I hold onto the last shred of my dream for a little more?

The thing I'm afraid of the most is.....

I don't really know.........

Maybe the fact that I can't get my dream?

That I'm incapable?

Of all the imperfections that I have..........

They will obviously bite back at me, even of the ones that I didn't cause.

It really hurts.

Nothing is ever easy.

Ther's always pain and only sometimes gain.