One Year Later
Description
"I don’t wanna like him anymore and I just can’t. I’m obviously not good enough and I’m not going to sit around and wait until my chance, until I’m good enough for him. So I’m just over him. But there’s seriously something about him that makes me like him so much. Since I met him there was something about him that makes me go absolutely crazy over him. This is why I didn’t wanna fall again. I didn’t want another disappointment. I didn’t want to get my hopes up. I didn’t want to cry. I didn’t want to lie. But it looks like I’ve fallen again."
Foreword
“It feels like I've been dreaming for a long time. I've wandered and wandered around for a while. As if we made a promise, standing here in front of each other like that day from four seasons ago. Those beautiful stories that we wrote down together. Those eternal promises that we prayed for at that time. They're all coming back to me now and I don't think my heart can take it. I've even restrained myself at the thought of you. How has your one year been?”
“For a long time, I've been living, having forgotten of you. For a while, I thought I was doing fine. However I started to realize it as time passed by, that I am nothing without you. At that time, if only we had been a bit more mature. If only we knew how we would be right now. I have no confidence in overcoming these endless regrets so I've had to just repress them. One year has passed like that.”
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Prologue :
It’s Oktober 12 today. It’s exactly one year since we broke up. I tried to convince myself that I don’t love you anymore but my heart shouts otherwise. I’m still mad at you because you broke up with me without any reason at all but why can’t I get over you? I already have a new boyfriend but I still can’t forget about you. My mind keeps on recalling all the memories that we have shared together. I still remember that scene, that break-up scene. It’s also the day that you left me, broken and speechless.
Flashback : Oktober 12, 20011.
“W-Why are you leaving me? Don’t you love me anymore?” My eyes started to became watery. I controlled my tears from falling because I don’t want him to see me crying and sad.“There’s no reason why I am leaving you. I just feel like I want to. And yes, you’re right. I don’t love you anymore.” He replied with a cold tone. I really can’t take it. Tears started to flow onto my cheeks like there’s no tomorrow. My heart broke into billions and billion pieces when I heard him said those 5 words. I can’t even feel my heart beating on my chest right now. I fell on my knees as I saw him slowly walked away from me. “Donghae oppa, don’t do this to me!” I keep on shouting those words but he slowly disappeared from my sight. He really did leave me. W-Why?
What did I do? I gave him my whole heart but then he gave it back to me broken, shattered and wounded. I felt like my whole world crumbled.
I started crying heavily as I saw a hand with a hanky in front of my face.
I immediately looked up. “Donghae oppa!” B-but it’s not him. I looked down, disappointed.
“I’m Jaejoong. Let me wipe your tears. You look so ugly when you are crying.” He held my face and started wiping the tears with his hanky. I said, “E-Excuse me?”
“I’m sorry for disturbing you but I can’t stand a girl crying over a stupid guy who left without any reason.” I was speechless. “I guess I heard your dramatic conversation, a little.” I showed him a weak smile.
“See, you are smiling now. You look so much prettier.” He said smiling. I giggled and said, “Thanks for the effort. For trying to comfort me. B-but can I hug you? I just really need a hug. I hope you understand me.” He just gave a nod and took a sit beside me. I immediately hugged him tightly and started sobbing on his chest. He patted my back and said some very comforting words. We stayed at this position for a while until I broke it. I stood up and wiped my face. He stood up too.
“Jaejoong. Thanks for the comfort. I really appreciated it.” I smiled, this time it’s not a fake smile. “I’m Sunny, by the way.”
“Well, nice to meet you Sunny. Remember those words that I said to you, eh?”
“I will surely keep it on mind. It’s time for me to go now. Just call me when you need me, eh? I owe you big time. Bye!” I walked away. A-and I couldn’t stop myself from smiling. W-why? Did I just fell in the trap of love again? No way! I-I can’t..
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Sorry for the lame prologue! Anyways, comments please. I hope you’ll support this fanfic too. :D Love lots!
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