I didn't blame him for wanting to leave. I blamed him for returning back to me when there were so many better things for him out there. But of course I couldn't chase him away. I couldn't say no when he came begging to take him back. I couldn't. Honestly, I tried many times, fighting away the word, bitting my tongue until it bled, but the word yes always slipped out and we were again at the beginning.  

I prosimed myself to never fall in love again. He knew my feelings and yet he returned. I knew my feelings and yet I took him back every single time. It was all so wrong...