I sat in the back of a taxi, It was pouring with rain outside. Shivers were shooting down my spine, Goosebumps took over, covering my body. Unfortunately this scene was becoming familiar.I was overwhelmed by my thoughts and feelings but I loved the feeling of being able to escape when I'm being haunted from the outside world, here, only here would I spill my guts to none other than my taxi driver like he was a therapist. It was night now, I'd just finished recording in the studio. The street lights blinded me as they reflected of the little tiny rain drops on the window. The coldness was catching up with me, I didn't feel myself. I was restless but something played on my mind. Seunghyun. He was always on my mind these days, I never wanted to admit it, yet I'd fallen in love with him. No-one seemed to understand, more like I couldn't make them understand. I couldn't even tell him the truth about my feelings, I was a coward. I was scared if anything, I don't think I could deal with the rejection. I'd never loved a man before, not until Seunghyun entered my life. My uality confused me, it's like I no longer knew myself. More than anything, I wanted to be honest with him. I was alone with these thoughts eating me up inside. Nobody knew I felt this way, I couldn't tell a soul. I can't tell anyone the truth about my disguise.

I could never make him love me.