-1 week after- (shinae)

I was in the balcony of our room.. I was just sitting and looking outside.. since the day that we went back from the hospital all I do is went here and just look at the sky..

I heard that someone come inside.. its probably hoya, he already told me that he can now remember everything..

Hoya: hey..

I just look at him and give him a sad smile then I look at the gloomy sky again.. he kneel so he’ll be in my sight since im sitting in a chair..

Hoya: come on lets eat.. I cook stake today..

Shinae: I don’t have an appetite to eat..

I whisper.. he sigh..

Hoya: but your last eat was 3 days ago which is just a bread that you didn’t even finish..

Shinae: im alright..

He hold my face and make me look at him..

Hoya: no you don’t look alright.. shinae please..

I stubbornly take his hand off my face..

Shinae: look at the sky.. the sky understand my feelings.. they know how much Im regretting and how miserable im feeling.. the sky know how sad my heart is..

I look at hoya...

Shinae: im such a bad mother, right?

Hoya: no.. your not!

Shinae: I wasn’t able to protect her.. im such a useless bad mother..

Hoya: shinae..

Shinae: imagine.. I already feel that something bad will happen but still.. I let my anger took over.. I didn’t protect her..

Tears blur my vision..

Shina