Ideal types
Ideal
A gasp was heard around the room, the other members swore the temperature in the room just dropped a few degrees.
Bang Yongguk. What have you done?
The other four were exchanging nervous glances at each other. Each one hoping that the other would say something funny to ease the tense atmosphere.
No. No. No. No. He didn't just say that. Did he really mean opposite? Maybe there's another guy called Kim Himchan. Maybe he's mean and smells like the kid who used to poop a lot in class. Yes, that has got to be it.
Himchan's voice curled into awkward laughter, as he tried to keep a believable smile on his face. His weak laughter was soon drowned out by more awkward laughter from the other members. Everyone looked around nervously, and before he knew it, there were four pairs of frightened eyes glued on him, awaiting his response. Zelo looked like a child that got lost in the supermarket and Jongup's smile dropped a few watts.
But all Himchan could do was to laugh. He laughed although his heart was probably breaking into a thousand pieces. He laughed although his face was frozen solid. He was absolutely sure fans were going to GIF and photoshop the living hell out of his face at this moment, but he couldn't care less. All he could see was Yongguk's gummy smile, sagging slightly from the awkward response he was receiving from the other memebers. But his eyes still sparkled at the revelation of his sick, sick joke.
He didn't really mean that, did he? Wait... How many Kim Himchans does he know again?
Himchan wanted to say something funny in response, something to tell everyone that he didn't mind what yongguk was saying. But that would be lying, and at times like these, Himchan wasn't sure if he could pull off a convincing one. Thank god the interviewer changed the topic. Himchan spent the rest of the interview answering a few questions here and there, but leaving most of the talking to yongguk and youngjae. Usually Himchan would be smiling his motherly smile when he watched Youngjae speak so aloquently during interviews, but now all he could care about was the burning picture of his relationship that Yongguk held in front of him. And the smoke from the flames were starting to irritate his eyes.
Slowly and painfully, the interview drew to a close and they walked out of the studio.
"Hyung! You did well!" Youngjae and daehyun said as they sandwiched Himchan between them. Himchan smiled and started a conversation with the two of them, knowing very well his dongsaeng's intentions to cheer him up. But his mind wandered back to the interview, that painful sentence playing again and again in his head.
"My ideal type is the opposite of Kim Himchan!"
Himchan knew Yongguk liked people who were virtuous, gentle, quiet. Who would raise their hands when they crossed the road. Who the hell does that anyways? Himchan thought angrily to himself. Yongguk's ideal type really was the opposite of Himchan. Yongguk always complained how noisy Himchan was and how he would reveal gross facts about himself (and/or the rest of B.A.P) during interviews. Yongguk always gave him what fans called the "Himchan, no" face. And sometimes when Himchan did something to embarrass himself (and/or the rest of B.A.P), Yongguk would look as if he was questioning his life choices on even dating him in the first place. All that was true, but Himchan always laughed it off. He thought it was funny. But now it didn't seem so funny anymore. Himchan felt stupid that he had never realized. Himchan found a word to describe the feeling he had once in a while with regards to their relationship- insecurity. That yongguk didn't love him as much as he hoped. Maybe Yongguk didn't love him at all. Daehyun and Youngjae's voices grew distant and himchan could only respond with occasional "ooooh"s and "ahhh"s and "mmhmm"s. All he wanted to do was to run into the toilet and mull over the situation. To get away from everyone. Himchan was dying to look into Yongguk's eyes and see if he still found his joke funny, he wanted to see if Yongguk even noticed he was upset. But he resisted turning back to look at the man who was now trailing behind them. The man that he wanted so much to hate right now. Himchan just wished they could get to the dorm quickly so no one would see the tears that were threatening to pool at the corners of his eyes.
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Yongguk stared blankly at Himchan's back. He knew he was kind of mean for saying that, but wasn't Himchan being a little sensitive? Yongguk dropped his gaze, a sudden blanket of guilt shrouding him in utter lonliness. He sighed and started scanning the ground, hoping that counting the passing tiles would distract him from the guilt that was boring through his soul.
"Hyung."
When Yongguk heard Jongup call him, he immediately shot up, smile on his face. Finally someone was coming to tell him that it wasn't exactly his fault that Himchan was angry.
"Hyung? I'm sorry... But you really screwed up this time..." Zelo said, taking his position beside Jongup. Zelo was usually wary of his language around Yongguk and Himchan, but this time he wanted Yongguk to know the extent of his mistake. Yongguk wanted to scream, he wanted to pull at his hair and throw a childish fit on the spot. Even the maknaes were chiding him. It's not like he didn't already feel bad enough.
"Hyung. Do something about it ok?" Yongguk rolled his eyes and started scanning the floor again. Although he didn't show it, he knew the maknaes were right. They probably were better at this than he was. He peered at Himchan's back again, wishing that Himchan would just turn back and give him one of those signature smiles that got Yongguk smiling as well. But no. Himchan didn't so much as to twitch his head slightly to where he was.
What on earth was he going to do...
Thank you guys for subscribing, commenting and reading really! Let me go sob my eyes out ugly-ly T.T Btw... Any daejae/jonglo shippers would... uhm... by any chance... uhm... wanna... check out my... uhm... daejae and jonglo fics? /shameless
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