Emotions
An Unexpected Reunion
Kevin's POV
I looked over at Kiseop, glaring slightly. "Just what was all of that?"
"I dunno. All of a sudden, she drug me over here," he explained with a shrug of his shoulders.
This really seemed to always whenever I tried to explain my feelings. Why did someone always have to go and get in the way? I slammed my fist on a nearby table, rapidly blinking back stubborn tears.
Kiseop gave me a questioning look. "What's wrong?" he asked stupidly.
Has all the hair dye that he's been using gone to his head? How could he not be getting everything that has been going on?
Kiseop clearly got the hint of my annoyance. "Well any way, stay away from that Min Young, she's obviously up to no good. She's kinda creepy and likes to talk to herself." He gave a look. "She practically ignored me all night." Kiseop seemed to think for a moment, "You know," he started, "we always ended up at the same place as you guys." He shrugged and gave a small smile.
It took everything I had to not face palm right there. I seriously worry about this boy sometimes. Whatever... I decided to shrug it off. I still don't trust that girl, though.
The simple fact of me trying to make Kyary jealous with another girl that I didn't even like in the smallest bit was eating me up inside. I would hate to be used in such a way, and yet, I still did it to someone else.
In my heart, I wanted to tell Kiseop that I had loved Kyary ever since I shared my hiding spot with her. School was pretty much like hell for me every day. Considering I was Asian, I was pretty much outcasted. Turning in my homework and actually answering questions in class probably didn't help my status, either. Stereotypes are terrible.
I figured that if I tried to explain my situation with Kyary to Kiseop that I'd just be wasting my time. I was terribly tired from all of the crap that I had been put through earlier today. As soon as I set my eyes on my living room's couch, I fell on to it, and decided to sleep.
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This whole scenario that Min Young set up was beyond embarrassing.
I couldn't help but to feel as though she was doing this on purpose. But why? She's my friend, would she really do that to me? I don't suppose she could be jealous...? I looked at her closely.
She smiled sweetly at me. "So, did the attempt to get dear Kevin work?"
I couldn't hold it back any longer. "Min Young, you ruined a rather important moment. Do you realize that?" I sighed heavily. "I feel as though Kevin and I were actually going to get somewhere, and you had to go and screw it up. The date went awful and Dongho is a creep." I couldn't believe that I even fell for her stupid plan. I noticed the tears beginning to form, but could do very little to stop them. I was completely frustrated and I couldn't help but want to scream.
For the first time in a while, I noticed Min Young's expression look somewhat sympathetic. "Kyary--I--,"
"Save it," I stated harshly. I didn't really want to blow up on her, but I just had to let out my frustration somehow. "Can you just go home?" I asked. For some reason, I just didn't seem to care how she felt. Why was I even friends with her if she would constantly pull like this? Every single time that I try to do something to make my life even the slightest bit better, she would always have to go and screw up everything. Was she even really trying to help me or just set me a step back further than I actually was?
She looked at me for a moment, then nodded. "I'm sorry. I got carried away." She gave a sad smile and made her way to the door. I said nothing and watched her. I didn't want to pity her.
As I heard the door close, I let out a sigh. Today was so not my day.
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The weather was nice, so I decided to spend sometime by myself at the small little park in front of my apartment.
It had been a couple of days since the incident with Kevin occurred. Min Young and I hadn't talked since the night that I blew up on her. I was beginning to regret saying the things that I had said, but I still couldn't bring myself to forget them. She might have been just trying to help, but every time she tries, it just doesn't.
I couldn't face Kevin, or really any one, right now. My feelings just really needed to be sorted out. I even took a day off of work today just to help myself think about how things were going with my life. I hope that Kevin doesn't hate me... Oh god, I hope that he's not upset.
As I munched quietly on the sandwich I had brought with me, I noticed a figure out of the corner of my eye. Oh great, I thought bitterly. Dongho sat down smiling at me. If he hadn't acted as he did that one night, I might actually feel sorry for him. All thoughts of compassion towards him had set sail from my thoughts a long time ago, though.
"Hey, good afternoon." I held eye contact with him, but continued to eat. He's playing sweet again.
"Did you sleep well? I know I did." He grinned childishly. When I didn't reply, his entire face seemed to change. "Are you alright? Did something happen?"
I continued to ignore him as I went on eating my sandwich. I was in no mood to talk with any one at the moment, much less him.
Dongho frowned at me. "Why won't you speak to me, Noona?" he said childishly, obviously trying to get me to talk to him through aegyo. I bit my lip back and tried my absolute best to convince myself that it was all fake and that he really wasn't this cute, little boy that he was acting like right now. It was just a ruse used to get things that he wanted.
As he continued to frown cutely at me, I decided that replying with short-worded sentences would be enough to get him to lose interest. "Go away," I said, almost emotionless.
I could hear him scoff. "Don't be like that," he whined out. "I usually don't act that way, but you were so attractive and different around me than most girls whenever we went out... I guess that I couldn't control myself."
Really? I knew for a fact that the way that he acted the night before was his true character, and that I shouldn't trust him. I still ignored him and resumed eating my lunch.
I could see him let out a sigh through the corner of my eye. "Okay, I'm sorry. There, happy? I knew that I shouldn't have acted like that," he apologized, his eyes looking solemn.
He actually apologized. Wow, that's surprising. I never thought that someone with his kind of character could be able of doing such a thing. It was kind of nice, actually. I still wouldn't be convinced so easily, though.
I continued being silent and I could start to tell that he was becoming frustrated.
Dongho cursed under his breath before uttering, "What can I do to make it up to you? Should I buy you something?" he interrogated, but I still didn't reply. He hopefully would get tired of it, but he seemed to not be letting up.
I could hear him sigh. "That always seems to work." Out of the corner of my eye, I could see him scoff. "Fine then," was what I heard him exclaim right before I suddenly felt something clasp my hand and lift me upwards. With my eyes wide open, I stared at Dongho as he began dragging me off in some random direction. What exactly was he up to?
"Just what do you think you're doing?! Let go of me!" I screeched, wiggling my arm as much as I possibly could to try and escape his grasp. It seemed no use, considering he still held on.
He continued dragging me, completely ignoring the constant yelling and thrashing that I was doing to try and get away.
Oh, so this was how it was going to be.
I gritted my teeth before muttering, "You're giving me the silent treatment now, aren't you?"
Dongho gave a light chuckle and still remained speechless. I knew it.
In a last attempt to try and escape, I bit down on his hand as hard as I possibly could. My teeth sunk deeper and deeper into his flesh until he finally let out a yelp of sheer pain and released my hand.
I then bolted down the park sidewalk, trying my absolute best to get away. Dongho took a small moment to realize what I just had done before racing after me.
My feet hurt terribly as I continued sprinting. Today was just not the day to wear heels. Trying to be as fast as possible, I removed them and set back off again barefoot. Only a short period of time went by until I began to realize that he was literally almost a step away from me. Dongho wasn't even breaking a sweat as he chased after me. He was actually...laughing?
Suddenly, I stopped dead in my tracks and whipped myself around.
Dongho was hunched over while giggling like crazy. "I have-haven't had this much," he paused for a brief moment to take in a breath, "fun in a long time."
I couldn't believe that I wasn't getting out of this situation as soon as possible. My feet almost seemed glued to the ground, and as I continued to look at Dongho more, I started to feel relaxed. The atmosphere that was once stiff and awkward quickly became warm and calming as I stood there with him. I've never seen this side of him, even though I've seen a lot of his sides. This one oddly seemed like the real Dongho... The other personas just didn't seem to match him at all.
I think that this is actually Dongho's true personality.
"Are you serious?" I couldn't help but say. "You must not get out often, then."
Dongho smiled as he looked downwards at the sidewalk. "I guess that I don't. We're always having to prepare for new album releases or promotional activities, so I rarely get the chance to see somewhere other than the studio or set."
Was he being serious? Gosh, you really have to sacrifice to be an idol. Kevin has to do that all time too? It must be hard on them.
Dongho got up from his position. "Again, I'm sorry for the way that I acted..." I stepped toward him. "I suppose I can't hate you. You're going to have to be on your best behavior though," I said, smiling slightly. This brought a smile to his face, too.
His face suddenly lit up as if he seemed to remember something. Dongho grabbed my hand once more. "I have somewhere in mind that I think you'd enjoy!" he almost seemed to sing out. Once he saw the reaction that I made to him grabbing me again, he abruptly released my hand. "Sorry 'bout that~."
I held back a laugh as he moved over to my side, lifted up his elbow, and ushered me to take it. I gave a beam to him as I locked arms with him.
My eyes widened as I gazed at the huge studio. "I'm not sure if there's anyone here, but I thought it would be cool to show you around," Dongho said as he opened the pretty doors. The furniture decorated the place very nicely and the floor was so clean I could see my reflection. On the walls were y posters of each member. I found myself staring at Kevin. He had such a lustful expression, though it almost seemed longing.
A small tap brought me out of my trance. "Are you coming?" Dongho asked. I nodded and he led me down a hallway with music wafting in. Dongho opened the heavy door and my eardrums were bombarded with loud, dance music. There was my Prince dancing his heart out. He didn't seem to care that Dongho came in and continued until he saw me through the wall of mirrors.
Kevin turned off the music and grabbed a towel. I could feel him hiding from my gaze. He seemed nervous.
"Umm...Hi?" I quietly asked while standing behind Dongho.
"Hello," Kevin muffled with a forced smile.
"Ah, I forgot that I have to do something," Dongho whispered to me. "I'll leave her in your care then." He quickly exited the room, not even waiting for a response.
Kevin sat down and looked me over. "What was up with the other day? I can't believe you." He shook his head. "Using others is awful..." Kevin suddenly lost expression in his face. I couldn't help but give a small (Kris) face.
You dare begin a lecture when you're part of the problem yourself...
I gave a rude sarcastic smile "Oh, do tell me more about how terrible using others are." I stood in front of him with my small arms on my hips. Kevin quickly picked up on the attitude. His face twisted in a way I had only seen happen with his mother.
"Pretty sure you were just as guilty in that department as I was, and who said I was using Dongho? At least I had met him prior to that. Did you even learn her name?" It was my turn to shake my head in frustration. "I never knew you were like this. Have you changed? I've lost the one I cared for the most. I'm done now." Tears were burning my eyes, but I refused to let him see. I wiped my eyes and walked toward the door.
Kevin quickly got up and grabbed me by the shoulder and I was in his skinny arms in a split second. I looked up at him, but my vision was blurred with annoying tears. "I'm sorry," Kevin choked as he whispered. "I'm so sorry. You're right. I've been terrible."
I froze completely. Apologies sound better when you're ticked off, but when you actually get them, it's a different feeling. He reached down and wiped a tear off my red cheek. "Making you cry was something I tried my best to avoid. I was careless." (shoot anonymous, anonymous)
Kevin leaned in really close, and I could feel my heart skip a beat. Kiss; he's going to kiss me. My mind was a violent storm.
That's when the door opened again.
"Whew, that took a while." Dongho said walking in. He stopped in mid-walk when he saw us.
Kevin didn't get to kiss me, but it was pretty obvious that he was getting there. I could see Dongho's face twitch as he realized Kevin's intentions.
"Kyary, didn't you have something to do today?" Dongho asked, not looking at Kevin. "Oh yeah, you told me you had some work you needed to catch up on. We should probably get to that."
I decided not to argue against him; it would just be a waste of energy. "Oh, alright then..." When Dongho wasn't looking, I squeezed Kevin's hand sweetly as I moved away from him. I walked out of the room with a smile.
"Kevin, I'm not giving up. I'm going to win her," Dongho looked the older boy dead in the eye as he snarled the bitter words.
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