You were pacing up and down in front of the same surgery room. Yes, Kai was sent to the same hospital as Infinite. You wanted to visit Infinite but you just couldn't. Kai was more important now. Very much more important. At least for now. Yongguk gave you a squeeze in your shoulder telling you not to worry too much but you couldn't hear him. It was like everything was blocked out from your ears. You were more anxious than when Woohyun or Sunggyu was in the room. Maybe because you were the reason for Kai being inside.

  You waited for hours. The boys approached you one by one to comfort you but it made no difference. You were still worried. Most of all, guilty. Guilty about Kai as well as the boys. There was no one who didn't have any cut or bruise on their face. They took turns to get their wounds treated. Hours passed by, it has almost been a day and Kai was still in the operation room. You got more and more worried, worried that you might lose Kai. *No, I can't lose oppa.*

  "~~~, I think you should go home to sleep first. We'll stay here and you can come over tomorrow." Suho patted your shoulder and forced a small smile. How could he smile when his lovable, playful dongsaeng was struggling in there? It was a matter of life and death. "Ani. I'm not tired. I want to wait for oppa. It's my fault that he's in there anyway.." You looked away in guilt. "Come on, ~~~. It's not your fault. Besides, Kai is strong. He'll make it. Trust him. And me." Luhan gave you an ensuring nod. *That was what Kai told me. But..* "But I want to stay.." You insisted. Youngjae opened his mouth to persuade you further but Daehyun interrupted. "I'll stay with her. You all can go home first. I'll take care of ~~~." He told the boys. "Since it's Friday today, so it's alright, right?" Daehyun was asking Yongguk. Yongguk hesitated for awhile but agreed eventually.

  "Call us when he wakes up alright, ~~~?" All of them left one by one. The last one to leave was Kris. He was about to leave but he turned back. "~~~, can I talk to you?" Kris approached you slowly since Daehyun was just beside you. "She-" "It's okay, oppa. I'll go." You stopped Daehyun from going and walked towards Kris. "Let's talk outside." "Oppa, I'll be back soon. You ensured Daehyun and he nodded but still a little unsure.

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  "So.. I'm sure you want to tell me the truth right?" You started the conversation. Both of you had been sitting on the park bench for five minutes already. But no one spoke. "Yes, I want to." He nodded. You took a deep breath and said "Go ahead."

  It started all during the camp. The first night to be specific.  

-Kris's POV-    

 I was surfing the net when Sehun had picked 'Finding Nemo' to watch. Since I've watched it many times before, that movie no longer amused me. I was reading the news articles on my iPad when Reom approached me suddenly.

  I looked at her with a poker face. I was asking myself, do I even know her? Due to my great manners, I asked, but with my eyebrows raised, "Uhm.. Yes? Can I help you?" 

  "Kris oppa, can we talk?" Reom asked, looking really innocent. *Is it just me or is she trying to act cute? And why is she even calling me oppa in the first place?* "I'm not free." I told her directly. But her next sentence sent shivers down my spine. "Meet me at where we had lunch earlier today. Come or you'll regret. Trust me. I'll make you regret." And with that, she left ~~~'s room.

  I sat there and pondered. *What does she mean?* I got really distracted by her words. I tried hard not to think about it but I just couldn't. I couldn't focus in anything. And so, in the end, I couldn't take it no more. I left ~~~'s room and went out, to look for her.

  I looked around the place but I just couldn't see Reom. "I knew it. It was a joke." I laughed at myself, wondering why was I so silly to even look for her in the first place. But my laughter didn't last long. Soon, Reom appeared. 

  "Ayo waddup Kris?" Reom tried to joke but I gave her a 'You trying to act like you know me' look. She zipped immediately and cleared . "Let's talk over there. Just a friendly talk." She walked towards the inner field and I followed her, still doubting her intentions.

  She sat at one end while I sat at the other and opened first. "I'm sure you treasure ~~~ a lot right? And Infinite right?" She smirked. I raised one of my eyebrows. *Why is she asking me such a random question?* I paused to think before answering. "Yes, the first one's right but not the second one. Who's infinite? I don't even know them. And so?" I pretended that I didn't know infinite. I was still angry that they turned into our enemies in a blink of eye. "Don't lie. I know you do." Reom scoffed. I wanted to argue but my mouth didn't allow me to. I didn't want to admit it but I do care about infinite. They were once my friends after all.

  "Be my boyfriend or else infinite or ~~~ will get hurt." Reom started threatening me. I gawked at her in disbelief. Who the hell is she to threaten me? And what is this? Are we like filming a drama or something? I gave her the 'Are you kiddin' me' look. "And if I don't want to?" It was now my turn to smirk. "Then either one of them will get hurt." She smiled to me and trust me, her smile sent shivers down my spine just like her sentence previously. My smirk disappeared almost immediately. This was absurd. Totally absurd. I glared at her, full of hatred. How could she, when she knew that I love ~~~? "It's either this or that." She reminded me once again. *Seriously? What the hell is this?* I hesitated for awhile and finally answered okay to her. My heart told me not to, but my mouth said it all. And after answering, I regretted it. I couldn't believe I just told her that I agreed.

  She started walking towards me slowly, kind of staggering. *She must be drunk.* I stepped back a few steps. She stopped in front of me, tiptoed and crashed her lips onto mine. My eyes grew huge and I could not believe it. *Did she just take away my first kiss? It was meant for ~~~!* I stood there, not knowing what to do. I was too shock. A few seconds later, when I got hold of the situation, I pushed her away so hard that she fell to the ground. And I didn't care, I didn't even bother to pull her back up and I glared at her before walking out, furious.

  "You pushed her away? Because from my memory, you kissed her back. You didn't push her away. I didn't see you push her away. You know how I felt? It was like my whole world was crashing on me." You let a tear fall, smiling. You told him how you felt. You didn't want to hold it in anymore. "But I'm glad the truth is out now." Kris smiled but his eyes were sad. "I'm sorry, ~~~ but that is the truth. It's hard to believe right? I know. But I really did push her away. For a moment, I just didn't know what to do. That's why I didn't push her away immediately. I'm sorry, ~~~. I know you won't forgive me. I don't ask for your forgiveness.. I just wanted to tell you the truth. At least I didn't have to keep it to myself." Kris pulled you in for a tight embrace. His hug was warm but you didn't hug him back. Your hands were just dangling. *So that was the truth. I hate dramas.* But coming to think about it, how trustable was Kris? Part of you doubted him. Just a little part though. 

  "It's alright, Kris." You pulled away from him and he looked down to you. "I forgive you. I had already forgiven you. My heart told me to. Because I wasn't your girlfriend. Who was I to control you?" You smiled. It was only right to believe in him. He was your good friend. What kind of friend are you, if you don't believe in your friend? And moreover, who are you to control him? "It sure is hard to believe. And that .. I mean Reom. I'm so disappointed in her. And angry." You shook your head. "But people should forgive and forget right?" You smiled to him. "Thank you, ~~~. Thank you so much for forgiving me." He looked into your eyes as he squeezed your hand tight. However, deep inside him, he felt really upset. *~~~ is saying that she forgives me because she's not my girlfriend and she has no right to control me.*

  "~~~, you know, about the black dogs, Reom was behind it. She was the one who ordered them around." Kris spoke randomly. You couldn't believe it. The innocent looking Reom was so mean, so evil. *What the hell? I can forgive anyone except you, Reom.* "I seriously hate her." You gritted your teeth. "I'm sorry, ~~~. I shouldn't have even bothered about her in the first place. I've caused so much hurt to everyone just because of my one silly mistake." He apologized again. "I told you it's alright. I forgave you already." You gave him a small smile. *This girl, she's so understanding she's making me feel guilty. Can I confess my love for her? I can't wait anymore. I'm sure Kai's way ahead of me.* Bingo. Kai was much ahead.

  "I know this is a little too much to ask but.. ~~~, will you be mine?" Kris, your crush, was officially confessing his love for you. "I-" You stopped. You couldn't bring yourself to tell him you love him. Is it because you no longer do? You looked away full of guilt and told him "Oppa, give me some time." You had to consider Zico, Kai and him. In the past, if the three of them confessed, you would definitely choose Kris but now.. Kris was no longer your number 1 in your heart. 

  *Why are so many people confessing to me? Am I that great? It would be better if none of them liked me.* You didn't want to hurt anyone. Because of you, they got hurt. You couldn't help but to think if choosing any one of them would cause harm to them. "I know. I will wait for you. It's my wrong anyway.." He gave you an ensuring smile and patted your head. 

  "It's late now. I should go home now. See you on Monday." Kris brought you back to Daehyun and left the hospital.

  "Baby girl, are you okay? You look listless." Daehyun cupped your face and 'inspected' you out of concern. You chuckled. "Yes, Oppa. I'm fine. We've cleared our misunderstandings already. I feel so much better now, oppa. Kris oppa finally told me the truth. I felt so relieved, like a load was taken off . And I forgave him." "I'm so proud of you, ~~~. Just know that no matter what happens, I'll support you. So be strong." Daehyun kissed your forehead. You gave him an appreciative nod.

  Both you and Daehyun sat on the seat outside the operation room. Soon and unknowingly, both of you fell asleep. 

  Sorry guys. I know Kris's POV is really bad. I didn't know how to write it in a way that it doesn't sound weird. Ohya, the 'Ayo waddup Kris' part is like so LOL! 

   And, guys, I what should I do?! ): BAP and EXO, who should I vote for? I mean I love them equally lot. Both of them should win the MAMA rookie award. Really.. Are you all facing this as well? ): I don't know who to vote for. )': Can't both of them just get that award? 

  Song of the chapter : BAP, Warrior