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It’s so dark; the surrounding, the atmosphere. It’s so dark, I almost felt like suffocates. I can’t believe this is happening. I can’t…. I won’t believe… There are two men, two person that really important to me; standing in the middle of the field, eyes blazing with hates though I know there’s still uncertainty in both of their minds. Their palms form into fists, their jaws tightening…. They’re ready to fight.

“no!” I screams, “no, don’t do this!!” I cry so hard, watching them like this really hurts me both physically and mentally. I want to go there and stop them, I’ll do anything to make them to stop even if it means I have to sacrifice myself. But Kiseop arms hold me really tight. Soohyun, Hoon, and Dongho also there, ready to do anything to prevent me to go and stop them.

“please stop them, hyung…” I begged, “please…”

Soohyun sighs heavily, “you know I can’t, Kevin.”

“yes, you can!” I screams, “ how can you let them fight like this? How can you guys let them fight like this??!!!”

“it’s their will, Kev. We have to respect them.” Hoon try to reasons out but I won’t hear it. I shook my head stubbornly.

“no, we can’t let them fight! I can’t let them fight! There’s no way I let my boyfriend and my bestfriend has the guts to kill each other!” I screams but to no avail, they’re just there stand still, there’s no sign they’ll stop them.

I try so hard to get free from Kiseop but he’s too strong and I’m also too weak at that moment. I almost feel like fainting until suddenly there’s a very massive fire waves and air waves attacking each other.

“NOOOO…..AJ!!!!”

“NOOOO!!!!” I screams, jolting away from my bed.

My bed…. I’m on my room so it’s just a dream then…

“no….” I cry, although I don’t know why I’m crying. That dream…. I also have no idea what’s the meaning behind, but it hurts... my heart hurts, it makes me so scare.

“sshh… baby calm down…..” someone whispers into my ear as a pair of strong arms wraps around my body tightly, pulling me close to his body. “it’s ok… I’m here, don’t be scare…”

At first I thought it’s him, it’s still him; the man from my dreams that holding me close right now. But when I turn my head aside, I meet with Eli’s charming brown eyes and I instantly hug him tight.

“it’s ok…” he plants kisses on the top of my head, “I’m sorry…”

Hearing his apologize, my head look up only to find Eli’s face screams guilty all over. “….sorry? why?”

He sighs then hug me even tighter, almost possessively, “because I can’t protect you earlier.”

There he goes again. I smiles weakly, wipes my tears before give him a peck on his right cheek.   

“it’s okay, baby…”

“no, it’s not okay, Kev. Totally not.” Eli argues, “I should have to listen to my intuition.”

“but it’s already over and I’m okay.” I straightened my body, make Eli’s arms have to unwrap from my waist. I give him a warm smile to convince him that I really am okay, there’s no need for him to worry. Eli sighs, seems knowing that there’s no chance for him to argue.

“and thank God he came and help me.” I add, smiles dreamily before gasping when now I remember about him.

“so you meet him, right? Do you ask who is he? What’s his name? Where he live?”

“woah…woah…calm down, Kev.” Eli holds my hand, “him?” he repeats, looking at me confusedly, “…who?”

W-what? I look at Eli in disbelief, “ him… the man who helped me… you met him, right?”

 He slowly shook his head, “um…no? or do you mean the restaurant waiter?”

“what? No!” it’s my turn to shake my head violently. Eli can’t be serious, he supposed to met him since the man carried me to home, right? Or, at least… I thought the man brought me home? ….or…… “him, the tall man with sharp jawline, cat-like eyes, long hair….about this long,” I touch the base of my neck, trying to make the image more vivid but the black haired man in front of me just raises his right eyebrow, “…who?” he asks again, seems he really have no idea about the man I talking about.

Knowing my confuses state, Eli caresses my cheek softly as he try to explain, “you fainted at the restaurant baby, and the waiter called me through your phone.” He sighs, “ there’s no tall man with long hair you talked about.”

No!  I’m not just fainted! There was a man who tried to kill me and there was a man from my dreams that helped me with his awesome fire waves! I want to retort but it’s sounds really weird even to myself. Like seriously, a man who can control fire? This is not X-Men, Kevin. Or avatar.

But I’m really sure it’s real, I’m not dreaming! ….or could it be just another weird dream? I bit my lip, feel a bit uncertain till I remember about my injury right arm. I frantically touch it and surprise when I find nothing. No pain feeling. It can’t be…. I roll up my long sleeve in hurry only to find my flawless pale white skin. There’s no scar, no bloods. Nothing.

No… it cant be.

“what’s wrong?” Eli asks softly, and I look straight into his eyes, almost want to cry.

There’s no scar and Eli said that I’m just fainted. So it was just a dream? But it felt so real….

But those dreams with the man in this past month also felt so real for you, Kevin.

 I sighs. My head really hurts and I want to cry for some reasons. I must be crazy, I told myself as I lay myself back onto the bed, resting my head on my fluffy pillow. I close my eyes, slowly swallows all the lumps in my throat, fight all the urge to cry. There’s Eli here, I don’t want to make him worry.

I feel my bed sank a bit then those strong arms hold me once again. I open my eyes and snuggle up to Eli’s chest. It always feel good to be in his arms. I feel safe, protected. But not today, there’s still something bugging me in the back of my head.

“are you okay?”

No. I want to answer but I can’t. I sighs heavily, “yes…” now that I realize it, Eli only wear his black wife beater and sweatpants,” are you gonna stay tonight?”

He nods, “I can’t leave you like this.” That’s makes me chuckles weakly and hug him tighter. At least I have Eli and the thought make me a lot better.

He my back softly, makes me really comfortable I almost fall asleep but then I feel his hot breath on my ear. “ I won’t let it happen to you again, baby. “ Eli whispers before slowly lifts my chin with his thumb. I close my eyes when he captures my lips and kiss me passionately. His tongue my bottom lip softly, silently asking for permission to enter. I open my mouth, sighing when our tongues met. My fingers move by its own, slowly trailing his muscled chest as our kisses get intensified.

 “god,” he grunts, holding my hand to stop it moving even further then abruptly stops our kisses. That’s actually kind of surprising. I frowns, “what’s wrong?”

Eli take a deep breath then he laughs huskily, “oh you little nymph, you don’t even know what are you doing to me, eh?” I made a huh face and he smiles, then kiss my forehead, “don’t make me lose control, okay.” He laughs once again, “ not after what happen to you today.”

I ….really don’t understand what is he talking about.

“guess what…” eli pecks my cheek, “ I think I need to go to the bathroom.” He laughs, quickly jumps out of the bed then made a bee line to the bathroom.

“breakfast is ready!” Dongho shouts when I made my way to the kitchen, where he currently frying bacons.

Honestly, is kind of weird watching him prepare breakfast since I always be the one who did this. It’s not like Dongho can’t cook, in fact he can cook really well, but he is just too lazy. “is not ready yet, you still frying!” I jokes, as slowly approaching him. “yah, its cooked,” I look over his shoulder, “don’t get it burn, I don’t wanna eat it if it’s burn.”

He turns off the stove and turns his body towards me, pouting.

I laugh, “just kidding….” I pinch his cheek then he hugs me close.

“you okay now, hyung?” he asks as we made a slow circle move while still hugging.

“yeah…” I answers, smiling contently, “and now a lot better.”

Dongho is the only one family member I have now, I mean… of course there’s grandpa, grandma, uncles, aunts, who sent us money every month to help us living—but only Dongho my baby brother who live with me now.

One year ago, we and our parents had a terrible car accident. My mom and dad couldn’t make it, they died right on the place. Me and Dongho save but I lost my memory. All of my memory.

Actually, I don’t remember about the accident either, it’s Dongho who told me everything. One year, he and the others tried to help me recover, telling me who is who….who I am….what kind of life I have… They told me everything and truthfully, I still can’t remember anything until now and just lived with every facts they told me. I don’t have any other choice but to trust them….no, I trust them with all my heart. This is Dongho my brother, Eli my boyfriend, and Hoon Soohyun Kiseop my best friend we talked about here. I trust them, I believe them. They’ll not lie to me.

“let’s eat, I’m hungry.” Dongho says and I chuckle, releases him from the hug, “yeah, me too.”

Even though Dongho could be a brat sometimes, but he do love me a lot. Maybe people think is kind of weird watching us always hug each other everytime we had a chance, but hugging him is so relaxing for me. Like, I feel a lot happier, a lot better…. I don’t know why but it always like that.

I sat on the chair, eagerly take my chopsticks to try the kimchi. “hmm, its good!”

“of course it’s good.” He smirks and join me on the dining table, put a plate of bacon on the table. I try the soup and its good too then eat the bacon with rice. All tastes delicious.

“you should cook breakfast more often, you know.”

“no way, it’s hyung’s job!” he stuck out his tongue and I laugh half-heartedly, kicking his foot in process. I take back my words, Dongho really is a brat.

“so…” he continues with mouth full of food, “is Eli hyung left already? I thought he stayed here last night.”

“he was, but seems there’s something he need to do that he have to leave really early.” I explain and Dongho nods.

“let’s finish it quick or we’re gonna late.”

Today first class is math. I sit at my usual place, the one at the third row, near the classroom window. I look at the outside of the window, staring at the empty soccer field as my mind wandered around.

After all the weird incidents, I seriously can’t get my mind focus. Like really, how could you expect me to think straight after those things happen? Or… IF it actually happened. I frowned. This is so weird… I’m really sure that what happened in the restaurant is real, I’m not dreaming, I’m not imagining those things. The terrified feeling, the pain and everything, I’m sure it’s real. But Eli said, I’m just fainted and there’s nothing happened. He didn’t meet the man either. And the scar that supposedly still there on my right arm also gone.

This can’t be happening. But then again, that is what actually happened; I’m just fainted, no one trying to kill me, no one help me with his awesome fire waves.

There’s no him, the handsome man with sharp jawline, cat-like eyes, and long hair like a japanesse samurai. There’s no him, the man who whispers softly onto my ears, look at me tenderly, wiped my tears as he gave me a warm smile. There’s no him, who holds me, make me feel like there’s nothing in the world for me to fear anymore.

And the dream I dreamed last night also made so many questions floating in my head. Like, who is Aj? Why he fight with Eli? Why its feel like he is also important to me? And I remember saying that I can’t let my boyfriend and my bestfriend has the guts to kill each other? So... Aj is my bestfriend then?

Too bad I can’t see his face on that dream.

I asked Eli that night, whether he know about someone named AJ but he just gave me the same clueless expression as if telling me that he had no idea at all. Well actually its still good thing that Eli didn’t think I already lose my mind or something since I keep asking him weird questions.

I take a deep breath. Guess I need to go meet psychiatrist.

“good morning, everyone.” Seems Mr. Jung already come into class without me noticing. Having no enthusiasm whatsoever, I just buried my head on my folded arms. Sleep sounds more interesting than study right now.

“today we have a new friend coming from states. Mr. Kim, you can come in now.”

The classroom getting noisy out of sudden. I can hear the gasps, girls giggling and whispering. …oh, so the new kid is pretty handsome, eh? I look up since the curious feeling get the best of me.

And when I see him, standing there with that same warm smile of his…same sharp jawline, same cat like eyes and same long hair…..same face. For the first time of my life I can’t believe my own two eyes.

No. This cant be happening. Not again.

“hello everyone, my name is Kim Jaeseop. Pleased to meet you all.”

“ow, yah! Watch your way!”

“sorry…”

And that’s the third time I bumped with someone in this past five minutes. It’s actually lunch time already and I supposed to be in the school cafeteria, enjoying my lunch but what happen in the reality is here I am, in the library, acts like some agent on his important mission. Yeah, sadly stalking the new kid is my important mission.

I know this is so stupid and even more stupid since I reject Hoon offer to buy me lunch and choose to do this weird activity instead. But I really have to do this okay, there’s no other choice.

Kim Jaeseop, or the man from my dreams look a like, or the man from my dreams’s twins, or he is indeed the man from my dream – currently sit on one of the library chairs, eyes fixed on the book he hold ( Oliver Twist, it read ), headphone perched securely on his head, blasting the music onto his ears.

I sighs. It’s a good thing that he choose library of all places, since the possibility to get catch by Eli’s friends (or Eli himself) is way smaller. For the first time of my life, I actually feel grateful by my boyfriend almost non existence relationship with books. I mean like, what Eli will thinking if he knew that his boyfriend is stalking another guy? I don’t even want to imagine. And also thank god he has a meeting with his soccer team right now.

I stand behind the book shelf, the nearest one to where Jaeseop currently sit. Peeking him every now and then, till I feel kind of frustrated and bang my head to the shelf. This is sooooo stupid. Really. But I have to ask him about what happen yesterday. I’m sure its real and he is the one who can confirm it. And also ask why he keep appears in my dreams nowadays.

But how to start it? Its not like I can just sit there and ask him everything. That’s gonna be weird. But then again, everything is just so weird to begin with.

Taking a deep breath, I mustered up all my courage and made my way towards him.

“um…hello?” I wave awkwardly in front of his face. There’s no reaction, seems he is too engross to his book. I sit on the chair in front of him, before trying to catch his attention once again. “yah…” I patted his book and thankfully its works. He took his headphone and put it on his neck before look up at me. Those eyes…. I smiles weakly.

“yeah?”

I bit my bottom lip, feeling completely anxious. Really, I don’t know what I should say first.

After a pretty long awkward silence, seems Jaeseop lost his patience and start to get up from his chair, “ well, if you don’t have anything to say just—“

“w-wait,” I practically flail my arms in panic, and it forces him to sit back,”n-no… I- I do have something to ask…” I stutters and, surprisingly, he laughs.

“am I that scary to you?”

What? I shook my head., “n-no…”

“then relax,” he smiles, “just ask, I wont bite, you know.”

It’s no that easy, you know. I want to retort back but I know I can’t and just swallowed it instead. But I guess I have to start speaking now or he’ll leave for real so I take a deep breath, “okay, this might be sounds weird, but, um, do you know me?”

Jaeseop stares at me for couple seconds, It’s too intense I feel my cheeks getting hot. “of course I know you.” he answers, smirking.

Really? I almost screams in happiness, “really?” so it’s really him? He is the man from my dreams right?

“of course I know you. You one of those students in the math class I attended earlier right? How could I not notice such a pretty boy like you?” he shook his head in disbelief, chuckling abit.

I blush at the ‘pretty’ word but my heart also sank after hearing his explaination, ”that’s not what I mean….” I say in small voice.” Its, its about yesterday at chicken restaurant…” Jaeseop raises his right eyebrow, make me feel anxious even more. “there was someone who tried to kill me, but…but then you came and help me.” There’s still no reactions so I continue,” I’m sure its real but, my boyfriend said that there’s no such incident and I just fainted that’s all…”  I look at him almost pleadingly, “I wanna know whether you have any clue about this. I- I need to convince myself that, at least, I’m not just imagining things…”
 

There’s a long pause as the man in front of me just staring at me without saying anything.

“J-jaeseop?”

“you know what,” he whispers,.” You’re so beautiful but, sorry, I really have no idea with what you’ve just told me.” he chuckles,” but I’ve got to admit that it’s such a creative way to show your interest to me”

“w-what”

Jaeseop laughs, slung his backpack onto his shoulder as he gets up.,” sorry, I have to go now.” He pats my head softly, “talk to you later, kay.”

And just like that he made his way to the library entrance before then disappears at the first turn, leaving me with the shock feeling after hearing his unexpected answers. Oh well, actually I expect nothing but still….. I sighs heavily, still his answers hit me really hard.

So it’s true that it’s just another weird dream. So it’s true that I only imagining those things. So it’s true that I already lose my mind. So it’s true that I need to go meet psychiatrist.

 I rest my arms on the table, bury my head onto it.

Never in my life I want to cry this bad.

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