"He isn´t burning so I don´t think it´s a fever" JR´s voice sounded from a place still far away.

"It´s fatigue. Let´s all go to bed, we need to get some rest before tomorrow´s schedule". Their manager sounded more friendly than before, but there was something in his voice... something that made Ren think that the manager didn´t believe his own words about fatigue. Tired, he pushed the thought away and instead tried to focus on the others above him, who hadn´t yet discovered that he was awake

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Sometimes things just happens.... things that no one can predict or prevent.

I dedicate this story to my nearly 16 year old little brother, although I will never let him read it. After nearly two years of illness he is finally beginning to live a normal life again, going to school, hang out with his friends, and be available to walk and eat normally again. I´m so relieved and happy that words can explain it deep enough. Looking back at the two years that have passed, it have been incredibly hard and sometimes unbearable to a point where you just wanted to give up like the doctors and the hospitals did. Even when the ending isn´t as positive and happy as my brothers might seem to turn out right now, I think you can learn a lot from the experiences you gain through a lifetime. Without experiencing pain and lost, you cannot fully experience and feel freedom and love. You need to know all the faces of life to be a human being.

I strongly remember talking to my brother one of the many days he was in his bed, because he was too weak to move. We talked about death and depressions getting into a really deep conversation. Suddenly my at that time only 14 year old brother said, that he wasn´t afraid to die. He would like to stay on this earth for as many years as possible, but when his time come, he will not be afraid.

I think it is a beautiful thought to live every day like it was your last, doing your best both towards yourself and your own body, and towards the people that surrounds you every day. What is life, if it isn´t collecting happy and beautiful memories, which no one can ever take away from you again? Every day is a gift, that is unique in its own way.