''We're here'', Nichkhun answered in a monotone. The car skidded into a halt next to our family car and I caught sight of a rusty, black iron gate which surrounded the entire area. My lip trembled as unbuckled my seat belt and opened the car door, stepping outside.

The smell of wilted leaves and earth hit me. The sky matched with my emotions as it was dark and cloudy. Not one bit of sunlight peeked through the canopy of clouds. The familiar weather always made the day worse.

Familiar, but never gotten-used-to.

I glanced at Nichkhun, whose head was on the steering wheel. His body kept moving in light jerks and I instantly knew that he was sobbing. Running over to the other side of the car and opening the door, I placed a hand on Nichkhun's shoulder.

He looked up and entwined our fingers together. I leaned down and brushed his tears away with my free hand. ''Promise me you won't cry. Or else I'd break down too.'', I said to him.

Sniffing, he nodded warily and got out of the car, while my hand wound up around his waist to keep him steady for a bit. I pushed open the gate which resulted in an ear-splitting creak. I just ignored it and continued leading Nichkhun toward the two shadowy figures on top of a hill.

''Miss Song. We thought you wouldn't arrive.'', Wooyoung's voice said from beside me. I nodded my head toward Nichkhun to Wooyoung to indicate that he's not feeling that well. 

Dad was kneeling down on the mossy grass which was overlooking a grey tombstone, which, now had a bouqet of pink roses leant's against it. I could clearly see the jagged handwriting. I read the words, my heart filled with grief and loss.

Here lies Song Jihyun

23rd August 1987 to 12th May 2003

A wife

Mother

And a friend who will be never forgotten no matter what happens

A tear leaked my eye and I let it cascade down my cheek as I kneeled next to my Dad. He glanced at me once and pulled me into his arms. I broke into sobs almost instantly. I felt my tears leak into my Dad's tux and after a while, his arms were replaced with a pair of muscular arms I knew all too well.

Nichkhun straightened me up, brushing the wet moss stuck to my knees with a touch gentler than a feather. His black eyes bore into mine as he brushed my tears away with his thumb. ''I thought I promised you that I wouldn't cry.'', he uttered.

''But you have no idea, that seeing you cry is shattering me inside.'', he continued. I leant into the warmth of his hand and looked down. ''We should go visit yours now, before this gets worse'', I said pointing to me. He tried to chuckle, but failed miserably.

I told my Dad where we're going and he nodded, obviously understanding the situation. He told Nichkhun a time to bring me home.

He nodded meekly indicating he understood and started walking towards yet another hill. The crunch of leaves and twigs were the only sound between us. We kept walking for a while until he stopped abruptly at a tombstone which looked old and rustic with weeds growing at both sides.

''Hi, Omma~'', I heard Nichkhun coo at the tombstone while kneeling down just like my Dad did. ''How are you feeling? I'm okay.'', he continued. I saw him reach into his jacket and pull out a white rose which I never noticed before. 

I was about to ask him where he got it when he replied, ''I sort of took it from the garden while you were getting ready. Hope you don't mind''

I put a hand on his shoulder and whispered, ''No. It's alright.''

He took his hand in mine and smiled softly. ''Omma, this is Victoria. She's Chinese like you too.'' 

My lip trembled a bit as I saw tears running down Nichkhun's cheeks. I bent down and brushed them away. ''You're forgetting my promise.'', I said to his ear.

''I can't help it.'', he replied, choking on a sob.

I saw his tears freely falling down his cheeks. I knelt down next to him and kept wiping his tears away which seemed constant. After a while he got up, tugging me along. I brushed my knees and followed him to the car. 

''Thanks for being here with me'', he said while his hand closed over mine. 

''Same to you, Khun'', I smiled lightly. He pulled me into a hug so tight, that I thought that my lungs would explode. But nevertheless, I hugged him back, knowing very well what he's feeling right now.

If only you knew what I really was feeling inside. You wouldn't even have the urge to say no, he thought.

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