Habits. When you observe someone and been with them long enough you know their habits. For him its looking around when hes embarrassed or his lips tremble slightly if its awkwardy. The way his eyes looked into mine when he had our serious talks. 

Everything about him, attracted me to him. 

His eyes. 

His lips. 

His laughter. 

His 4d personality. 

His hair. 

The way he made me laugh. 

The way he made me cry. 

The way he made me mad. 

Most of all the way he loved me.

Yet I love to hate him.

I hate how i've fallen for his charms, his quirks.

These feelings inside me won't go away.

The feelings I get when you're gone.

The feelings I get when I won't get to see you.

The feelings I get when I don't get to hear your voice. 

Most of all I hate that I love him.

I hate that I need him here with me.

I hate that I need to hear his voice at least once a day.

I hate that I need his arms to hold me, especially if i'm sad.

I hate that I need to see his smile, hear his laugh.

I hate that i've fallen in love.

I hate to love Mun Junghyuk.