I cried.

I cried real tears.

I cried because of what had just happened.

I cried because I was scared.

I cried because I'm scared of losing him.

I'm scared of losing Jonghyun in my life.

And I don’t even know why I’m so scared of losing him when I had only just met him and when he’d only just come into my life less than a few hours ago.

I'm scared.

It's 2 a.m and I'm sitting next to my bed, holding his hand and sobbing into it.

He looked at me, groaning in the process and smiled, whilst saying,

"I'm fine. Seriously. I'm just going to rest a bit and I'll be back...urgh!"

He groaned loudly.
 

"I'll be back to my normal state...trust me." I starred at him.

Whenever I hear that word, I never believe it.

I never even try.

But with Jonghyun, for some odd reason, I chose to believe him even though I was still very bewildered that he used the word I hated the most: trust.

I stopped sobbing and let go of his hand.

I needed some time to myself to try and comprehend what had just happened.

Trust…can I really trust a guy I barely and hardly know?

I stood up and went to the bathroom.

I needed time.

***

Danger, the head of the most violent gang smiled at us. 

"Hello Na Neul, how are you today?"

Receiving no reply he continued.

"Oh, and your with Jonghyun huh?" Jonghyun flinched beside me, as if trying to hide from something. 

"How's Sarah?"

Suddenly Jonghyun exploded.

Sarah…did Jonghyun know Sarah?!

"GO AWAY DANGER! I'VE BEATEN YOU UP BEFORE AND I'M NOT SCARED OF DOING IT AGAIN!"

I starred at him, scared that he has such a temper.

I never thought that a guy like him could yell so loudly.

I took his arm, trying to calm him but he pushed me out of the circle roughly, making me bang my shoulder against a pole.

I groaned.

The two of them ignored me.

Danger smirked. 

"You really think that I'm going to be scared of you now?"

Jonghyun shook, getting angrier and angrier by the moment, and then he exploded; except in the violent way.

I just couldn’t watch what was unfolding in my eyes.

But I had to.

I knew I had to.

So, I just watched.

There was blood, there was screams coming out from my own mouth that I didn't even realize and people getting hurt really badly.

My eyes would never leave Jonghyun’s figure.

Time passed and there was only one person that was left standing; Jonghyun.

I scrambled up and went over to him, tears streaming constantly down my face.

I went over, and pulled him towards me. 

"I was so scared...don't ever do that to me again!" He looked at me as I looked at him, his eyes filled with surprise and tiredness. 
 

"Jonghyun..." I never got to finish my sentence when he fainted.

***

I washed my face.

It seemed like Jonghyun wasn't as nice as I thought he was.

I went back to my bedroom and heard Jonghyun cry out a name that stopped me in my path: Sarah.