“ I love you ... “

“ Mian Taemin .. I can't ... “

“ Why ? “

“ Because ... we are best friends ... “

“ So that's how it goes ? “

“ Taemin .. “

“ I'm sorry but if that's how it is .. I don't think I can be your friend .. I just love you too much till I can't see you as a friend anymore ... “

“ W-What did you mean ? “

“ It's .. better for us to .. “

“ No .. don't Taem ... “

“ It's the best ... let's take our own route from now on ... “

“ Andwae .. Taemin .. “

 

 

“ Darn .. not again .. “

A big sighed could clearly heard coming out from Sulli's mouth. And as usual, she will found herself soaked with droplets of sweats every time she's awake from that same dream.

“ Ssul ... you really need to tell me what's been bothering you lately .. “

She was startled by that voice, startled in the extant that she almost fall down from her bed.

“ Unnie .. can't you knock ? “

She just smiled at the younger one before headed her way towards her bed.

“ I see you already have your bath .. hehe “ She pointed at the droplets of sweats all over Sulli's forehead.

“ Funny unnie .. what do you want ? I thought you have a date with your Keybongbong oppa ? “

“ A date at 8 am is too early don't you think ? “

She took a peek at the clock on the desk, “ Owh .. still early ? I should continue to sleep then .. “

“ No you are not. You're having your breakfast with me giant baby ... “

She purposely laid back on the bed while covering herself with her blanket just want to annoyed Amber.

“ Yah .. you're so heavy .. you don't expect me to carry you downstairs right ? “

“ 5 more minutes .. “

“ Stick on that .. don't make me give you a cold shower on the bed ... “

“ Fine. I'm up ... jeez .. you nags just like your boyfriend. “

Amber just stuck out her tongue before quickly headed out of the room.

 

“ Please tell me that Vic unnie is the one who cooked this ... “

“ Sorry to disappointed you but .. It's my cooking .. Try it out .. “

She pushed the plate which was full with the fried rice closer towards Sulli.

Sulli didn't take even a spoon and just staring at the rice, with full of worries shown on her face.

“ I've woke early just to make you this dish since Vic unnie, Luna and Krystal is not around .. Do you know how much effort I've put on this ? “

“ Alright. I'll eat this. You really know how to make me feel guilty unnie. “

“ Just eat. It's really yummy .. “

Sulli decided to just try it and surprisingly, the fried rice did taste good, well at least it is eatable than the rest of Amber's cooking.

“ I gave Key oppa credit for this .. “

“ Why ? “

“ Because he's the one who made cooking is possible for you ... “

“ Can't you just say that my food is delicious instead of that ? “

“ Nope. “

 

“ So ? “

“ What ? “

“ Come on .. you promised to tell me .. “

“ I didn't .. I just said maybe .. “

Amber didn't stops making Sulli annoyed with her countless questions since they are having their breakfast just now, “ What's the thing that made you so hard to speak up ? “

“ It was nothing .. you're just over reacting. “

“ Nothing yourself .. It's about Taemin right ? “

“ Huh ? “

“ You can't fooled me on that .. I've been listens to you calling out his name for like almost every night .. What's up with that ? “

Sulli knew that there's no way she can escape from Amber's curiosity anymore. She just stuck.

“ You were right. It's was all because of him. “

“ Now you're talking. “

 

All the time of Sulli's story telling were only responded by Amber's nods, followed by her jaw dropped  but towards the end, a smile eventually formed on her face. She didn't interrupt nor shrieked at the news. For her, it was as what she had expected but still she can't help but to feel surprised with what just Sulli tells her.

 

“ It feels really awkward now with him ... and I can feel that he is starting to act cold towards me. And more, I have Sehun to added to my problem. I still can't figure out whether I like him or not. “

“ There's one thing that made me curious the most .. “

Sulli's brows furrowed with her eyes glancing at Amber.

“ Why can't you give Taemin a chance ? What has stopping you ? “

“ I am his best friend. “

Obviously, Amber was favor of Taemin than Sehun.

“ Best friends can be in love Ssul and there's no such rules in the world that forbid it either. “

“ I know but I just don't feels right about it. “

“ I don't see anything wrong with it. There's something else that bothered you right ? What did you have in your mind Ssul ? “

Surprisingly, Amber had read beyond her expectation.

“ You can let it out. You can't just keep it by yourself you know. You have friends. “

Yes, she knew that her friends are always with her and she feels grateful for that but still, it's hard for her to speak out her dilemma all this time. She's been keeping this thought for quite sometime.

“ Ssul, believe me .. You'll feel better afterwards. “

She can feel her hand being squeezed gently by Amber's as if it is for an assurance to her and eventually that helps.

“ It was all happened back then, when I was still at Busan. “

She took a glance at Amber, nervously. Amber patted her back gently, “ Go on .. I'm listening. “

 

“ I was close with this oppa, who was also my neighbor. He is way older than me, around 6 years older and we've been friend with this unnie, who is 2 years younger than him. Everyday after school, we will hang out at Haeundae, just to have some fun. Well, these two persons are best friends, since before they met me. To make it short, I realized that these two have more than just a friend kind of love towards each other and I've done a trick here and there just to make them together. “

 

She looked at Amber once again and it shown that Amber had anticipate on  what's gonna happen to her story. “ Well, they become an item at the end. “

“ That's good. “

“ Yeah, for the couple of months .. you can say it was good but it doesn't lasts long. They couldn't continue the relationship. They are facing some hardship in the middle. “

“ You see Ssul .. Lovers sometimes have to face some hardship and they have to end it if they can't cope with it. “

“ I know but that doesn't bothered me at all, well, maybe a little since they looks perfect together. It was when they said they can't be friends with each other anymore. I heard clearly that they had agreed on stick with each other no matter what befall them, that they are still best friends no matter what condition are they on and what did I saw doesn't seems like it. “

“ Are you trying to say ... “

 

“ Yeah, oppa had always make some excuses whenever I asked him to hang out together with unnie, and unnie .. she was no better than him. She started to make herself busy with her friends, her works and so on. They couldn't even looked at each other's eyes whenever they bumped into each other. It's then happened when I've turned into a push over just to make them together again, as best friend of course, they called it quit says that they can't get themselves back together as what they are. They asserted the awkwardness that they feels because they can't just ignore the fact that they are an ex to each other. Moreover, they even stated that best friends shouldn't fall for each other at the first place. It only complicated things later on when they face some problem in their love relationship. “

 

She heaved a sigh before took another glance at Amber who looks like trying to figure out Sulli's real problem. “ They .. made me think. “

“ Their situation had plays a huge influenced in your current situation. Am I right ? You're afraid of the same consequences if you and Taemin happened to be a lover. “

She nodded hesitantly to Amber's words.

 

“ I .. I don't want to lose him if we weren't meant to be together. I don't want Taemin to ignore me when things weren't working out for us. He is my best friend and always be no matter what but if he also has the same thought as that oppa and unnie of mine ... I don't think that any best friends should fall for each other. It will only ruined their relationship. That's why I thought, we are just fine as what we are. But now, it was too late. He already fall for me. He can't and he shouldn't. “

 

“ Why ? Feelings cannot be stop Ssul. It come and goes by itself. You can't force it. “

“ Hmm .. I don't know what should I do right now with this. “

“ Let me ask you one thing. Forget all of your fears about your insecurities and answer me truthfully. Did you or did you not have some feelings towards him ? “

“ Of course .. no. “

“ Come on, even a little ? “

“ A little ? “

She just shook her head hesitantly.

“ Think hard. Really ? No ? Never felt your heart beating fast whenever you are with him ? Even for a once ? “ 

 

She did as been told and reminisce back her memories with him and her face slowly flushed when she remembered her moment with him at her halmoeni's house. It was when Taemin suddenly talked about marrying Sulli to her halmeoni and her face blushed even more when she thought about her first kiss that she shared with Taemin.

 

“ Gosh Sulli. You did like him too don't you ? “

That sudden shrieked had eventually broke her daze.

“ Dae ? What unnie ? “

“ Look at yourself. You're blushing of thinking of him right ? “

“ I .. did .. what ? “

“ Yah ! Your face is red as tomato Giant Baby. “

Amber's expression was priceless and Sulli just have to looked at her in confusion not aware of what had Amber says was the truth.

“ Unnie, you're scaring me. Stop saying nonsense. “

“ Now you're afraid if you're falling for him ? “

She thinks about it for awhile. “ Of course. What if ... “

“ Sulli, don't let the worries stops you from falling in love. Just enjoy the feelings. “

“ Woah ! Unnie, you talked as if I'm really in love with Taemin. “

“ Well, it seems like it to me. “

“ Hey, I didn't said I was ... “

“ You didn't say .. yet .. “

“ Unnie ... “

“ The point is .. Just put that stupid insecurities out of your mind. If you noticed, you had made Taemin feels down because of it. “

“ Well, he must be. I rejected him even before he confess to me. “

“ Then, talk to him. Listens to him and decide later. You can't just avoiding him you know. That's .. mean. “

“ I bet he's mad at me right now. “

“ He won't once you talk to him. Remember ? He love you .. “

She stressed out the word ' love ' to the younger one just to

. “ Jeez unnie .. stop saying those. And please .. just keep this with us. “

“ Fine but you're on your own if Vic umma starts to sense the weirdness between you and Taem. Got that ? “

“ Arasso. “

“ Now where is that Mouse ? “

“ Maybe he ditch you and went out with another girl. “

“ YAH !! “

“ Haha .. He won't dare unnie. He love you too much ! “ 

 

 

“ Bye Ssul .. Krys will be back soon. So in the meantime, take care of yourself. “

“ Unnie, I'm not a kid. “

“ Just reminding you .. Alright. I'm going. “

Before Amber and Key could bid another goodbye to Sulli, “ Oppa ! “

He raised his brows looking at her, “ Hmm ? “

“ I'm just wondering whether Taemin is ... “

“ Nope. He's not at home. Don't know where did he have been to. “

“ Ok. Thanks. “

“ Anything else ? “

“ No .. I guess. “

“ Good. Cause we are late for our date. Let's go Baby. “

Quickly he pushed Amber towards his car, afraid if Sulli might change her minds and ask more questions to him.

 

 

________________

 

 

To : Taeminnie

Where are u ?

 

 

She waited for a reply but it turned out silence for almost 5 minutes so she decided to give another shot.

 

To : Taeminnie

Are you mad at me ?

 

1 minute .. 2 minutes .. Still no answer from him.

 

To : Taeminnie

Sorry ...

I miss you .. Minnie.

 

 

“ He's definitely mad at me. Is it because I yelled at him the other day ? “ Said Sulli in frustration after the long waits for his reply.

 

She browse back her last message for him and felt the sudden chills when she read it. Those kind of messages was once feels nothing to her but now, it felt so different. As if it shouldn't be sent at the first place. It will only cause him to get the wrong idea. That's what she thought.

 

“ It only gonna gave him hopes. See Minnie, how awkward we could be because of this love thing ? I need to always be very wary of everything. “

She mumbled by herself with an endless of sighs.

She took another glance at her phone, “ This can't do. “

And ended up calling Taemin as the last resort.

“ Come on .. pick it up. “

She waited for couple of seconds and was about to end it up when a voice from the other line was heard, “ Hello ? “

“ Err .. Taemin ? Is that you ? “

“ Whose number that you are dialing at the first place ? “

Taemin sounds so cold from the other line but that doesn't surprised her, well maybe a little when he suddenly threw her that kind of reply.

“ You. “

“ Then ? “

“ Err .. w-where are you ? “

“ Why ? “

“ Are you still mad at me ? “

“ I don't know. You tell me. “

“ Stop being so cold will ya ?! “

Sulli had lost her control and being the one who's getting irritated by Taemin's annoying acts.

“ T-Taemin I .. Sorry .. I .. “

She couldn't held it any longer and let out a sob.

Getting a cold treatment by her own best friend was too much for her too handle.

“ Sulli .. “ His voice soften a bit when he heard the sobs from the other line.

“ I'm in front of your house. “

She was surprised by those but it still cannot overcome her sadness. Too absorb with her tears to even care of what should be done by that moment.

“ Did you hear me ? “

“ I .. heard you. “

“ Then ? “

“ Huh ? “ She asked in dumbfounded.

“ Don't you want to let me in ? “

“ Owh .. right. Hold on. “

They hang up in unison before Sulli made her heavy steps towards the main door.

Slowly, she turned the door knob, revealing Taemin by the door, looking calm as ever.

“ You looks ugly when you're crying. “

Said Taemin in a mocking tone but end up regrets it as that only cause Sulli to burst in more tears, a loud tears specifically.

 

 

“ Do you need more tissues ? “ Asked Taemin in worries looking his friend who's non-stop sobbing since he stepped in the house.

“ Thanks. “ She replied it short before took the tissue from his hand.

“ Are you that upset about my comment just now ? “

She took a glance at him before let out a tiny giggles. “ Am I that ugly when I'm crying ? “

He took turn to chuckle at her words. “ Yup. Very. “

“ Yah ! You should say no you know that ?! “

“ Hey .. Who give the permission to yelled at me ? I'm still upset at you and as far as I know, your apology is still under a consideration. “

That eventually made the lady to startled.

“ I'm .. sorry. Please forgive me. “ Said Sulli with her eyes looking down at her trembled fingers.

Taemin was about to cut down the tensed when suddenly she interrupted, “ It wasn't my intention to yelled at you the other day. I was just get irritated by your confession. I wasn't ready to hear it. “

He heaved a sigh, “ Why Ssul ? What's wrong with it ? “

“ I'm just afraid .. things might change later on, with your confession. “

That wasn't clarify anything in fact it only made the boy to become even more confused.

“ I don't get it. In what way it might change the things between us ? “

 

“ It will Taemin. Don't you get it ? We can't be in what you want us to be. Didn't you promised to never looked at me in that way ? Why did you ? Don't you afraid if it might ruin our friendship someday if things turn out badly in between us ? Why did you let your feelings grows on me ? Why did you fall for me ? “ She said it.

 

She said it all. Everything that have been kept in her heart was finally being let out to him. Nervously, she turned her gaze towards him and as she expected, he is definitely surprised by her words.

“ Taemin .. I know you ... “

She can't continue her words as the boy's expression caught her attention, looking at her with his eyes that seems like about to fall off.

“ Err .. Taemin ? “