"Luhan's condition is bad... He just went to another surgery....... Doctors say that he might not even make it... " She managed to say between sobs.. 

I rushed back to the hospital.... 

By the time I got there Taeyeon and Tzuyu were crying.... Suho wasn't there...

"What happened?! Where is Luhan...? " I shook the crying girl for answers..

"Oppa..... Oppa... He's gone.... "

What the hell was she talking about? He was fine when I left him.. 

She must be kidding...

I know Tzuyu....

You'd do anything to save Lu from me....

But this is just over the line... 

I took a bite of the chocolate I bought for Luhan....

It was his get well soon gift.... He wouldn't mind me having a bite of it... 

Tzuyu was crying with Taeyeon. Tiffany arrived with Joy... They were crying too... 

"Oh! Good...  Sehun... We need you to fill some paper work..." Joy said wiping her tears..

Tiffany went to comfort the crying girls... 

"NO... YOU MUST BE MISTAKEN.... "

I don't wanna accept this....

He can't be dead...

He can't die....

He just can't... 

I got up slowly,  and raced to the Lu's room..

The door was opened but no one was on the bed.. It was empty......

The reality sank in....

He's really gone....

He is..

Joy who was behind me hugged me as I was crying and on the floor..

It was too much....

I've lost love twice...

TWICE... 

"Sehun, We need you to plan the funeral.... " Tiffany was at the door.

I got up and wiped my tears. 

It was time for me to accept the reality..  

"I've got to fill some paperwork first... "

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Lu's side of the family wanted a simple funeral.... It was all I could do for him after all the things I did to Luhan.....

 Suho or even his friends weren't at the funeral.... I kept staring at the urn.

It was all my fault...

I'm the Monster who did this..... 

My mother was crying so hard.. Naeyeon was trying to calm her down...

Tzuyu and Taeyeon didn't c