Is it wrong that part of me doesn’t want to trust him? He’s been nothing if not nice to me, but he’s a football player, totally beautiful, and so nice... He seems unreal, like something that isn’t actually a blessing. I’ve been fooled before, so I’m not completely convinced he’s being genuine yet.

I want to, though. Lay’s sweet and he likes to joke around and he left his friends to sit with me. Most of the time, he’s just chattering on about football practice, one of his classes, or his friends because I haven’t been very great at making conversation. I’m sure he’s starting to feel like I’m not interested in being friends with him, so I’m worried he’ll leave me. Even though I don’t know him very well and I’m not sure why he’s sitting with me, I don’t want him to leave.